I remember feeling deep sadness.
One that clings to every limb, holding you down while you fight, fighting for one more chance, it was everything and nothing all at once, color didn’t exist, choirs didn’t sing, children didn’t laugh, it was everything and nothing all at once, dictators grabbed their power, an honest man told a lie, I tried to stop it but it was never the right time
I remember I was in my bed.
My phone was the window, the lights stayed off, there was no reason to live a life I couldn’t control, it was everything and nothing all at once, youth looked desperate, a disease without the cure, I asked a simple question “what am I supposed to be fighting for?”
It was everything and nothing
all
at
once
Jan 20, 2025
Jan 20, 2025 at 7:44 PM UTC
when it happened it was a surprise
like opening a birthday gift
from someone who didn't know you well
you're only grateful
when the moment is over
but the moment never died
for some reason
it eats where I eat
sleeps where I sleep
hides where I hide
it has taken over
he had no right to get close
to trap me in a single moment
if I was a sun
then I am not anymore
because his touch burned me
somethings shouldn't be ignored
Apr 7, 2024
Apr 7, 2024 at 10:28 PM UTC
Those who write for love
Have felt pain
The road was rough
And they'll never be the same
They write metaphors
Comparing their love to a bird
But I am where they were before
Trapped by ghosts
Comparing my sorrows to outer space
Deep and expanding
I am not writing for love
I am writing for those
Who are trapped by ghosts
From a past that's hard to escape
Dec 18, 2023
Dec 18, 2023 at 2:54 AM UTC
If you can’t feel anything
You’ll never hurt
If you go on a trip
You don’t have to come back
I know I speak nonsense
Improbable things
Make your meals
Eat your money
Then repeat
Until the ending
They say go to bed on time
Because time is not my own
I have no control
One tear resting
On my piano alone
What if I died?
Who really cares?
These questions
Whispered at night
It’s me who does this
I’m self aware
What is poetic?
This is not what this was supposed to be
These are midnight thoughts
Thanks for listening?
Missed you all
It’s been a minute
Life moved on
I came back
Because I missed u in it
Jan 13, 2023
Jan 13, 2023 at 4:27 AM UTC
I think a lonely night is made by you
Leave my high and dry
No consequence finds you
A whirlwind of questions
Why put my love in one place?
Where’s my green light to go?
Can’t you hold on to what’s enough?
Leave tonight or leave forever
Pick a fight or work together
My lover is not kind
And I refuse to be clever
-J.R
Nov 28, 2021
Nov 28, 2021 at 2:33 AM UTC
I am a possessive creature
I am held together by passion
Fear me when I am mad
Love me when I am motivated
I am a jealous creature
I will love you to the moon and back
Break me and I will be vengeful
Kiss me but touch no other
Not one stroke
Not one glance
I want my name tattooed on your heart
Because yours is burned in my brain
I am a possessive creature but so are you
-J.R
Oct 12, 2021
Oct 12, 2021 at 2:51 AM UTC
Oh mirror
I believe you were made to taunt me
Few see beauty and peace
Most see something they can never be
Wanting is a burden
Having is a crime
What do I say to that?
Just give me some time
Paralyzed I stare
Oh mirrored me
Talk to me sweetly
Tell me
"wear and tear is normal
just confide in those who cry deeply"
I sigh alone fractured by despair
I walk outside
and I see mirrors everywhere
-J.R
Sep 30, 2021
Sep 30, 2021 at 9:20 PM UTC
I only know how to walk with tears
To learn something else is my biggest fear
The slamming of doors is all I hear
Stories of heroes but none come here
Will anyone care when I can’t breathe air
Or will they stare and watch as the end is near
I only know how to walk with tears
Because life is maze made of fear
-J.R
Jul 2, 2021
Jul 2, 2021 at 2:01 AM UTC
Control me
With my emotions
Control me
With my dreams
Control me
Because you can
Control me
And cause me to bleed
My life is not my own
Because you sit on the throne
But once you turn around
My strength will be so keen
You’ll want to take back
The times you controlled me
Control me
And watch as I succeed
Of making you think
That you once controlled me
-J.R
Jun 11, 2021
Jun 11, 2021 at 4:43 AM UTC
I feel like the shattered glass in my hair
A million little pieces wondering nowhere
Before just a fracture
Waiting in complete despair
Is now a mess
Once no one dared to care
Now they surround with fear
Trying not to step on the glass that is everywhere
Do my haunted eyes tell them
How it is I feel?
Or do they compare me to before?
Before the mess
Before the haunted eyes
Do they see me through shattered glass?
-J.R
Apr 18, 2021
Apr 18, 2021 at 9:44 PM UTC