this is not about you.
i refuse to miss you,
let this break me,
let myself love you.
i will not hope for you to come back to me,
i won't remember the way we used to be,
i won't think about how i used to fill my days with you,
how each hour spent with you was never enough for me.
but more importantly,
i won't think about how you don't miss me,
how i am the last thing on your mind,
and how you will never realize how much i cared.
this will not plague my mind
and cloud my dreams,
i will not think about you,
i will not love you
May 13, 2016
May 13, 2016 at 12:17 AM UTC
There you stand.
Just a foot from me,
Your eyes say you want me,
But your body doesn't move.
You walk away and so do I,
And I don't look back,
but I know you're looking over your shoulder, watching me leave.
Convincing yourself this is what you want.
I want to turn around.
Run to you and kiss you,
and yell at you to want me too.
To want me as bad as your eyes say you do.
To love me with force
And to not be afraid.
But I am fearless.
And you are determined to be alone.
Apr 30, 2016
Apr 30, 2016 at 3:19 AM UTC
You touch my body,
your beautiful hands caress my skin.
Your touch as light as feathers,
yet somehow penetrates my whole existence.
Your touch echoes through me.
I need it.
I crave it.
Apr 30, 2016
Apr 30, 2016 at 3:05 AM UTC
And I looked at his face,
his perfectly scruffy face,
and I knew I was in love with him.
It was 3:06am and I was in love with him.
I was in love with the boy who doesn't believe in love.
But at 3:06am I realized that I would be okay, because I would always love him.
The kind of love that warms your insides,
not the stupid butterfly **** you see in the movies.
The love that fills you with so much warmth you boil over with happiness.
At 3:06am, I was the happiest I had been that day,
because I was with him.
I ended my day with happiness, and started a new one with happiness,
and I knew it was okay to keep that a secret, because in that moment, happiness meant more than my undying love for him.
Apr 30, 2016
Apr 30, 2016 at 3:03 AM UTC
**** you,
and you inability to love me.
**** you,
and how you've never supported me.
**** you,
and your words that cut me.
**** you,
and your dead heart that beats me.
**** you,
and your traps that trap me.
**** you,
and the love you denied me.
But **** me,
For believing you,
For loving you,
For letting you in,
and giving you chances.
Yes, **** me, and my
Stupidity
Jan 15, 2015
Jan 15, 2015 at 10:23 PM UTC
When I imigine it,
it's a soft chill,
which cools my body.
I don't hear your voice
nagging
cutting
bashing.
I hear the freedom,
resounding in my head,
you are free
you are free
You are at peace
Away I will go,
from the places which burned me,
far from the places which haunt me,
Free from the arms which bind me.
You are not there.
You speak no sound.
You are not alive,
yet you are not dead.
But you are lifeless,
And I am at peace.
Jan 15, 2015
Jan 15, 2015 at 10:15 PM UTC
it overtook me
like a wave
washing away my fears
my anger.
i felt nothing,
nothing but calm
still
silent.
i am alone,
but i do not fear loneliness,
for peace is with me,
covering my scars,
shutting my eyes,
and holding me close.
i am alone,
yet i am surrounded
comforted,
peace
Dec 17, 2014
Dec 17, 2014 at 9:14 PM UTC
The promises you made,
the apologies that meant nothing.
The "love" which fell away,
faster than I could fathom goodbye.
Betrayal and lies are all that remain,
The bitter after taste
of a sweet love run dry.
Our cup is empty,
left with only the foam of memories,
hardly covering the depth of time.
You, my love, are gone.
thinking that you're the victor,
believing you beat me at the game of love,
but here I stand sober,
while you down another glass.
A glass of heartache,
of regret,
of loss,
Yet I am sober
Dec 16, 2014
Dec 16, 2014 at 10:28 PM UTC
I used to type,
freely,
without hesitation.
But you stopped me...
You burned me,
abused me with your savage neglect.
Now I pause,
Hesitate,
Re type,
Reword,
My words are broken-
meaningless and empty...
searching the void of memories,
yelling at nothing,
accomplishing nothing,
nothing,
but a blank space
Dec 15, 2014
Dec 15, 2014 at 11:33 PM UTC
My words will drift away,
melt into the comfort of happiness,
coat the silence that slips across the span of nothingness.
I won't return,
and you will not wait.
take his hand,
they beckon,
I do.
I watch you fade as he leads me away,
no sound,
not a noise,
And I am gone.
Nov 19, 2014
Nov 19, 2014 at 10:47 PM UTC