Heart broken, feeling beaten and battered.
Trying to make sense, but my mind is scattered.
Hoping, but the dreams are shattered.
Clinging, but the rope is torn and tattered.
Fell for the deception, words that flattered.
Reached for the sun, but the storm clouds gathered.
Desiring to move forward, but feeling haggard.
Thought I was moving straight, but my steps got staggered.
thought I knew, but I forgot what mattered!
Oct 23, 2025
Oct 23, 2025 at 8:55 PM UTC
I can’t write can’t make the words organize into proper lines. They dance away as chaos fills my mind.
I feel like a kettle about to blow I am boiling over but from the outside you’d never know.
Every part of me feels pulled to tight like an over stretched rubber band. I am spinning out no safe place to land.
No one to hold me steady, set me right. It may seem impossible but this is my fight.
Nothing soothes when you are breaking from the inside out. Filling the cracks and pretending there’s nothing to talk about.
Are we all this way? Is the world one big masquerade ball? Where we all just keep spinning pretending we aren’t dizzy At all.
Caught in the narratives someone else writes about us. Keep on Riding feeling like we’ve gotten on the wrong bus.
No surprise relationships are such a mess when the person staring at us from the mirror is still a guess.
Keep yourself in check, tow that line! To the unique the world is not kind.
Oct 20, 2025
Oct 20, 2025 at 8:22 PM UTC
Pain in icy rivers flows through my veins.
Slowing my movements fogging my brain.
I blink in rapid motion stalling the tears.
I am a stunted version of my younger years.
Fight, flight, or freeze not like I get to choose.
Doesn’t really matter living in a lose lose.
Trauma and triggers leave me feeling agitated and spent. Your best answer is thinking you’re humorous and innocent.
For every issue there is an excuse or reason
But for accountability there seems to be no season.
Hard to find change when you never think you’re wrong. The narrative you tell yourself must be strong.
I am so sick of fighting or of living in suspended animation. So I drift away in my own imagination.
Creating a place that feels hopeful, loving, and secure. But back to reality’s demands I am lured.
My body trembling, hurting, slowly falling apart.
Not from illness but from sickness of the heart.
Oct 20, 2025
Oct 20, 2025 at 10:59 AM UTC
Secrets and lies!
Betrayals and alibis!
No one to trust!
No where to turn!
Don’t put yourself out there unless you want to get burned!
Heartache and pain!
Thunderstorms with acid rain!
It washes away dreams, hopes, all traces!
Nothing left just empty spaces!
You give it all, and when nothings left...
You find you’ve died, and no one is bereft.
We start out young so full of hopes and dreams!
By the time we are old we know nothing is as it seems!
Disappointed,
Disillusioned,
Heartbroken,
Lost!
Whats the point? When you add up the cost..
No one who you can feel at home with.
No one who understands.
No one to guide you.
No one to hold your hands.
How did you get here from where you started?
Peace and hope from you seems long ago parted!
Innocence lost and been replaced
Cynicism and denial taking up the space.
Aug 11, 2025
Aug 11, 2025 at 4:16 PM UTC
I feel the adrenaline rush within my veins.
I'm angry, you're angry, we act insane!
You say words you can't take back.
I say words, smack for smack.
Your sullen and grouchy when you get home.
Taking everyone's head off, like a dog gnawing a bone.
I'm quiet and resentful, pulling away.
Swearing to myself I will not stay.
Our house is like a battle field.
Each member just a casualty of war!
But we've been so busy fighting,
we don't even remember what we should be fighting for!!
Aug 8, 2025
Aug 8, 2025 at 11:21 PM UTC
When you throw a stone in the water it sends ripples out, not one place is left untouched no matter how stout.
Imagine each of us are water, and things we say and do are the stones. We are constantly sending out ripples the affect unknown.
We tell ourselves in the moment, "only I will feel the change.", but so many others lives it tends to rearrange.
If we stopped even for a moment to consider the cost. To think about the effect what might be lost!
If we felt the connection to the others who are around. If we realized the ripple might be profound.
Each one of us connected to another in some way. So many stones the waters intensely sway.
Aug 6, 2025
Aug 6, 2025 at 2:09 PM UTC
My body is drawn to tight like a rubber band about to break.
I feel the desperation, the longing this staggering ragged ache!
My heartbeat is frantic, my mind such a jumbled slur.
Too much! too much! I know I’m not enough this time for sure.
There is no putting out the Fires that are raging beyond my control.
The build up and stuffing down of anxiety and stress is taking its toll.
I Do not know where to start... i do not know where it all ends.
But i know i am at my limit beyond the reach my body bends.
Aug 3, 2025
Aug 3, 2025 at 11:11 PM UTC
Im so sorry that i let you down. It hurts more than you know that I’m responsible for that frown.
You cant please everyone thats what they say, but i serve up my heart on a silver tray.
I try not to breathe afraid of this ache. scared to move, one wrong step might cause the glass to break!
Walking on egg shells everywhere, all around, don’t say to much, hold it in, don’t shake the already unstable ground.
I can pretend i don’t have to be truly me, i can only show what they want to see.
Dial it back, hold it in, “we don’t air our ***** laundry you know.” Smile, just pretend, put on a show.
I long in my heart to be authentic with you, but i dont think you want the version that is true.
Jul 5, 2025
Jul 5, 2025 at 11:05 AM UTC
Pain in waves...
Lost inside...
Nowhere to turn to.
Nowhere to hide.
Desperate to make things better,
Unsure about how.
Where do i start?
What do i do now?
Children are a blessing,
But apparently i am doing it all wrong!
So much keeps coming....
And i am just not that strong!
Losing the fight to an ache that overtakes me.
I know the Lord provides.....
But right now i just cant see.
Jun 30, 2025
Jun 30, 2025 at 6:59 PM UTC
My heart is so heavy i can hardly breathe, just weighted down by the loss of things i haven’t had time to grieve.
Keep moving forward whatever you do don’t stop . Tuck this in, don’t think about that, juggle don’t drop.
Ignore the pain, just cover and cloak, tell yourself a lie. With the truth you wont be able to cope.
Too much too much and then theres more. More days than not just breathing is a chore.
In a world of brokenness and regret there seems to be so little compassion or respect.
Carrying more than i ever let show trying hard to learn to let go.
Don’t want to be a burden, but i need a soft place to fall. Not asking for pity but answer my call.
Hope is fading and i am drowning, but i love you i am here keeps resounding.
Out of your own pain you hold me in mine, through your own darkness a light you shine.
Though you struggle you wont leave me to drown. With love and a smile you straighten my crown.
Without these women where would i be? I have no words for what you mean to me.
Jun 30, 2025
Jun 30, 2025 at 6:59 PM UTC