For three years I have worked towards a dream
now I am defeated
when you give your all
and it it’s the good enough
how can you keep trying
i no longer believe in fairness
or that working hard will help you to
achieve your “dreams”
that is ********
that corporations feed you to keep you
Complacent
work hard! do better! be best!
no. that’s the koolaid you are drinking
the society that says you can achieve anything with hard work
It is all lies
You suddenly wake up
everything has been a lie
you have wasted all this time
your life is a lie
you have no hope
you are in a corporate nightmare
nothing you do matters
Dec 19, 2019
Dec 19, 2019 at 12:28 PM UTC
For two years
we spent every day together
every night talking
I thought we were friends
For two years I listened to you
talk about everything
heart ache, family, work
I thought I knew you
FOR TWO YEARS
I SUPPORTED YOU
I HELPED YOU THROUGH SO MUCH
why now is it like this
You say now that I am your darkness
that I make you an alcoholic
You perverted everything we did
and tried to take my friends
For two months
you ignored me
We live together but you ignored me
now it’s been four months
And I’ve given up on you
Apr 16, 2019
Apr 16, 2019 at 12:46 AM UTC
When I look at you
I feel like I am in my fantasy
You are the ray of afternoon sun
caressing my skin
as I lay reading
You are the excitement
that bubbles inside of me
when something brings me laughter
Even my favorite fictional character
-created with only lovable flaws-
cannot fill me with such a rush
of pure joy
You are the golden amber rays of sunlight
the delicate wings in my chest
fluttering glowing warmth
You fill my senses
Feb 24, 2019
Feb 24, 2019 at 12:37 AM UTC
It’s no wonder the great artists
rendered you in so many forms
in stone or paint
You could be no more beautiful
Dark lines and a wicked bough
dancing merry eyes
You are everything
Feb 23, 2019
Feb 23, 2019 at 10:14 PM UTC
In the shower
I keep peeking out
making sure
no one is there
I’ve never seen ******
but somehow the shower scene
Is stuck in my head
but... mine stars Pennywise
The movie isn’t real
I know that
I’m a grown up
but in the dark...
i don’t feel like it
ive stopped sleeping.
the dark hall outside of my room
always seems to hold
a pair of glowing eyes
Feb 28, 2018
Feb 28, 2018 at 1:11 AM UTC
it feels like i have been waiting for a hundred years//we have been together since we were teens//i watched you become a man//you stayed by my side and loved me// it’s been several years now//and i am starting to question marriage// if 50% of marriages end in divorce—- maybe—- i don’t want to risk you// maybe the state itself is a curse// i cant figure out what is different between that and our relationship// other than a title change—- maybe I should keep you the way we are now
Oct 24, 2017
Oct 24, 2017 at 2:11 AM UTC
Today everything was weird-not like anything was wrong but I felt off-I wasn’t hungry/couldn’t focus/couldn’t make sense of the words I was saying-
days like today have been more frequent lately— my sleeping is uneven and restless—my waking feels like I’m watching my own life through a snow globe waiting for everything to be shaken up
Oct 24, 2017
Oct 24, 2017 at 2:06 AM UTC
I’ve recently had to learn a lot about
myself— the kinds of things you wish you could never learn about yourself— how far your strength goes and the point where your mind snaps— .......i never
wanted to find the bottom of my strength—
every day with a forced smile
of course I can make your problem go away
i can fix anything in the blink of an eye
don’t worry it’s ok
i understand-i empathize-i know what you are feeling
- - - but every time I say those things it digs a little deeper
when I patch your hole I find my strings unraveling
Oct 23, 2017
Oct 23, 2017 at 2:29 AM UTC
this is exhausting
i shouldn't have to explain
justify even
why something makes me uncomfortable
she likes you
you said so yourself
she flirts
she teases and toys with her hair
and im paranoid
ive been so calm
Collected
but this is too much
im tired
paranoid?
me?
because i have eyes??
im going to sleep
too tired for this bull ****
Apr 28, 2017
Apr 28, 2017 at 11:19 PM UTC
My hair is as curvy
as my body.
Today I straightened
everything out.
I don't think straight suits me
When you are born
with hair this wild
you shouldn't ever
try to tame it.
Do what comes naturally
There is no point
in trying to straighten
something that was meant
to be anything but.
As long as it is you
I say: Do It
Apr 24, 2016
Apr 24, 2016 at 1:56 PM UTC