Indu - Hello Poetry

Is it all worth it though? Is all the mental torture worth it? Are all these sleepless nights worth it? Am i being selfish or am i just being taken advantage of? Do i even still want this? Is it worth it? Is being said “you’re unloving” “You’re not helping me in any way” “Girls like you make me go depressed” “You don’t care for me” “This is why I want to be single” “Your efforts are nothing” “You’re making me more stressed” “You make me feel insecure about myself” “You behave like a **** “No happiness” Worth it? Hearing all these and more, Feeling completely useless, Having no words to say back, Worth it? Is being speechless worth it? Or defending myself and getting beaten up by even more harsh word worth it? WHAT IS WORTH IT? I have been there for you through everything but there’s a difference between being your support to lean on and being your punching bag to vent out all your frustrations. Harsh words, rude comments and disrespect has been thrown around several times, and I have shut up for most of it. As much as I retreat, you beat me to it. Feeling nothing but emptyness recently. I get that you’re going through something, but that doesn’t make me any less hunan than you are. I am going to feel. I am going to hurt. I am going to cry. I’m not strong enough to push aside my emotional stability to support your verbal abuse. I am trying. I Am Trying. How much longer till my tears completely dry up? How much longer till I’ve completely become numb? How much longer till I break? How much longer till I go mad? How much longer till I’ve had enough? Do I want this? Do I love myself more? Or do I love you more? Is it worth taking the risk? Is it worth it?

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Jul 7, 2018

Jul 7, 2018 at 1:28 AM UTC

Is it worth it?

Is it all worth it though? Is all the mental torture worth it? Are all these sleepless nights worth it? Am i being selfish or am i just being taken advantage of? Do i even still want this? Is it worth it? Is being said “you’re unloving” “You’re not helping me in any way” “Girls like you make me go depressed” “You don’t care for me” “This is why I want to be single” “Your efforts are nothing” “You’re making me more stressed” “You make me feel insecure about myself” “You behave like a **** “No happiness” Worth it? Hearing all these and more, Feeling completely useless, Having no words to say back, Worth it? Is being speechless worth it? Or defending myself and getting beaten up by even more harsh word worth it? WHAT IS WORTH IT? I have been there for you through everything but there’s a difference between being your support to lean on and being your punching bag to vent out all your frustrations. Harsh words, rude comments and disrespect has been thrown around several times, and I have shut up for most of it. As much as I retreat, you beat me to it. Feeling nothing but emptyness recently. I get that you’re going through something, but that doesn’t make me any less hunan than you are. I am going to feel. I am going to hurt. I am going to cry. I’m not strong enough to push aside my emotional stability to support your verbal abuse. I am trying. I Am Trying. How much longer till my tears completely dry up? How much longer till I’ve completely become numb? How much longer till I break? How much longer till I go mad? How much longer till I’ve had enough? Do I want this? Do I love myself more? Or do I love you more? Is it worth taking the risk? Is it worth it?

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If love was an object, it would be my blanket. It keeps me warm. I would shiver without it. It keeps me safe. A place to hide. It's soft. Gentle upon my skin. It's comfortable. Peaceful, sleep-filled nights. It's something I want, not something I need. It wraps me tight. The most comfortable hug. It's constant, day and night. It's the kind of love, we all yearn for. Yet, We take a blanket for advantage.

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Aug 4, 2017

Aug 4, 2017 at 11:04 AM UTC

If love was an object, what would it be?

If love was an object, it would be my blanket. It keeps me warm. I would shiver without it. It keeps me safe. A place to hide. It's soft. Gentle upon my skin. It's comfortable. Peaceful, sleep-filled nights. It's something I want, not something I need. It wraps me tight. The most comfortable hug. It's constant, day and night. It's the kind of love, we all yearn for. Yet, We take a blanket for advantage.

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" Ever asked yourself why you stayed? Was it because you loved her? Or was it comfort?" Love is comfortable. Comfort is loving. One without the other, There's nothing.

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Aug 4, 2017

Aug 4, 2017 at 10:48 AM UTC

Love, Comfort.

" Ever asked yourself why you stayed? Was it because you loved her? Or was it comfort?" Love is comfortable. Comfort is loving. One without the other, There's nothing.

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I spill, Seeking comfort. You state, Reality. I yearn, A lover. You, Empower. I need Patience. You provide Anger. Comfort Found in words. Language, Foreign to you. I needed You. Proven Otherwise. Now, I need Me.

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Jun 21, 2017

Jun 21, 2017 at 1:17 PM UTC

Maybe I Needed Myself More, Than I Needed You.

I spill, Seeking comfort. You state, Reality. I yearn, A lover. You, Empower. I need Patience. You provide Anger. Comfort Found in words. Language, Foreign to you. I needed You. Proven Otherwise. Now, I need Me.

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My heart sets itself on a thin rope My head is an uncontrollable mess My neck sinks low from apologies My mind wouldn't think less My eyes plead for your mercy My hands ache for your touch My mouth craves for your love My feet follows your path

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Mar 24, 2017

Mar 24, 2017 at 1:22 PM UTC

Seek Comfort from Within

My heart sets itself on a thin rope My head is an uncontrollable mess My neck sinks low from apologies My mind wouldn't think less My eyes plead for your mercy My hands ache for your touch My mouth craves for your love My feet follows your path

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I apologise For my fragility For the heart that is purely sensitive At the slightest emotion felt For the mind that beats itself up Creating such invalid thoughts For the eyes that were never dry From the tears that always fell I apologise For the difficult self I am

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Feb 17, 2017

Feb 17, 2017 at 11:36 AM UTC

I'm sorry I keep saying "I'm Sorry"

I apologise For my fragility For the heart that is purely sensitive At the slightest emotion felt For the mind that beats itself up Creating such invalid thoughts For the eyes that were never dry From the tears that always fell I apologise For the difficult self I am

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I have ached for you without consent. I have listened to what might not want to be shared. I have cleansed my tongue from words that spite. I have allowed my heart to breathe, for you. I'd still give you my heart, because I know it brings no harm. Not anymore.

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Dec 27, 2016

Dec 27, 2016 at 9:25 PM UTC

For You.

I have ached for you without consent. I have listened to what might not want to be shared. I have cleansed my tongue from words that spite. I have allowed my heart to breathe, for you. I'd still give you my heart, because I know it brings no harm. Not anymore.

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Will I ever say it? No. Because I've accepted reality, And the way it treats me.

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Jul 4, 2016

Jul 4, 2016 at 4:16 AM UTC

Adapting

Will I ever say it? No. Because I've accepted reality, And the way it treats me.

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Allowing happiness to seep in, Little by little, change by change, Made me treasure what's within. No hate, no grudges, no pain, no lies, Genuine care and love that never dies. Relieved of anger, loath and paranoia, My heart feels more satisfied and My mind seems to guid better. Rebuilding hope on life and faith in God, Understanding that everyone is flawed, Made me develop this kind and humble nature, And honestly, nothing's greater.

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Mar 21, 2016

Mar 21, 2016 at 12:08 AM UTC

Forgive Yourself

Allowing happiness to seep in, Little by little, change by change, Made me treasure what's within. No hate, no grudges, no pain, no lies, Genuine care and love that never dies. Relieved of anger, loath and paranoia, My heart feels more satisfied and My mind seems to guid better. Rebuilding hope on life and faith in God, Understanding that everyone is flawed, Made me develop this kind and humble nature, And honestly, nothing's greater.

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"What are you so afraid of?" "The light" "Most would say the dark" "Because they are afraid of being alone." "And you're not afraid of being alone?" "I find solace in the dark, at night. Where hurt has no space to enter. Where expectations are uninvited. Where I can be alone, and not be afraid of it." "But why the light?" "Its when I can see." "And that's a problem?" "It is when you've seen to much."

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Mar 10, 2016

Mar 10, 2016 at 5:33 AM UTC

F(Light)

"What are you so afraid of?" "The light" "Most would say the dark" "Because they are afraid of being alone." "And you're not afraid of being alone?" "I find solace in the dark, at night. Where hurt has no space to enter. Where expectations are uninvited. Where I can be alone, and not be afraid of it." "But why the light?" "Its when I can see." "And that's a problem?" "It is when you've seen to much."

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