Why am I here
What is my purpose
I thought this feeling of unimportance would dwindle after reaching adulthood
But, now it's been 5 years and I still cant stand being "here"
When does it get better
When do things stop hurting
When do the people I cherish care to stick around.
When do "friends" become friends.
Aug 13, 2020
Aug 13, 2020 at 7:51 AM UTC
These are the
darker days
Highlights have turned
into grays
Teardrops stain my
pillowcase
Maybe I'm not
thinking straight
But I dont want to be here
My mind is digging deeper
This pit is inescapable
I'm falling down an endless hole.
Jul 29, 2020
Jul 29, 2020 at 3:09 AM UTC
You're somewhat like a drug,
When I'm with you, theres a rush.
But every time we part ways,
I'm not left with very much.
This aching in my chest,
It's too hard to explain.
This pain filling my head,
Am I going insane ?
Aug 7, 2016
Aug 7, 2016 at 4:27 PM UTC
You keep calling me you're friend,
You keep saying that we're close.
Yet, you seem so distant,
So foreign.
You're just a lingering ghost.
May 6, 2016
May 6, 2016 at 2:07 AM UTC
My minds screaming I'm terrible
You're saying I'm unbearable
Alone again, my mind is dead.
What just happened here ?
I was holding on, just by a string
but you came and you pulled me up.
We laughed, you smiled
But then you wept
as you pushed me, off again.
Apr 20, 2016
Apr 20, 2016 at 9:53 PM UTC
You're feeling down
and it seems I just can't help.
I'm losing my mind
and this silence, how it melts
through my head, through my heart.
Sanity slipping away.
I'm hoping that you reach out your arm
before we fall too far
too far from each other
too far to save.
Apr 12, 2016
Apr 12, 2016 at 2:14 AM UTC
I was on the verge,
on the edge of it all
Standing at the cliff,
ready to fall.
But you've lulled me away
You've convinced me to stay.
I won't mind as long
as I can see your beautiful face.
Apr 10, 2016
Apr 10, 2016 at 11:27 PM UTC
I want to be like you
Deceptive, through and through.
Lying your way through this life,
Even your smile, is sly.
Your heart is decrepit
Nothing in there is true.
You've worn it out so,
Now its rarely put to use.
Teach me how to lie, like you.
Jan 4, 2016
Jan 4, 2016 at 11:08 AM UTC
The shine in his eyes has all but died
Drained of all that is good
Where it once was, filling the void
Depression and madness now loom.
Dying, internally
Only in the late teens
Who knew a midlife crisis could occur at 18 ?
Jan 4, 2016
Jan 4, 2016 at 4:55 AM UTC
You gave up,
When I still tried.
You gave up,
When I wanted "us" to survive.
For the past month I've been stuck,
In depression.
Over a girl who'd rather runaway,
Than try to find a solution.
Oh well,
I tried.
You're the one who gave up hope.
Nov 2, 2015
Nov 2, 2015 at 11:27 AM UTC