I’ll kiss whoever I’m with tonight
to take you off of my mind.
It’s not the first time
that I’m fighting to keep you out,
but I don't wanna close my eyes.
In the dark you’re all that I see.
He’s laying in my bed but I'm staring at the ceiling, reminiscing you.
I’ll make out with three strangers tonight.
None of them will make it back to my room
but if they did it still wouldn’t matter,
I just don't wanna be alone at times.
Need to feel someone else on me,
so I can stop feeling you,
so I can forget you.
Cause I’d run to you
even if you were just a mirage.
And I’d follow you,
Through a desert.
Through a blizzard.
Through the eye of a hurricane.
I’d run to you!
and it’s been six months,
we still haven't talked.
I don't know anything!
I miss being your everything.
Tonight I’m all alone,
no one touching me, I’m on my own.
I tried the hook-up thing but couldn’t keep pretending.
When I look in their eyes I just see yours, blue and green.
Where did you go?
Why’d you stop loving me?
It doesn’t matter
If I never get an answer.
If you hit me up one day
I’ll still remember your voice,
but I’ll also remember
how pathetic you made me feel.
Alone even when we were together,
looking back is bittersweet.
Fond memories and love,
welled up fears and disappointment.
I’ll always remember you, love.
But I won’t go running back,
even if I want to,
I won’t go running back.
but I hope that you do
I hope you’d run back to me too.
Feb 28, 2021
Feb 28, 2021 at 11:35 PM UTC
I left
Drove 1,000 miles
Spent the night in the U-Haul
But I wish it were you I was hauling with me.
All the way down south
I'm regretting this right about now
But i think its better for us
To be apart and figure things out.
You were my missing puzzle piece
I was scared we were so easily falling together
Falling forever
I hope I'm not forever in this limbo,
forever unsure.
I want to be with you tonight
I want to be in your arms,
Want you to tell me I'm pretty,
Tell you miss me,
Tell me you love me, I'm lovely
A thousand miles apart,
and i'm singing this song.
Singing my heart out for you
It's unhealthy to say the least,
How can i hope,
to get over it like this
I have to change
I have to move on.
I cant stick around for much longer,
I wont stick around for much longer.
I'm dying on the inside
You were my missing puzzle piece
I was scared we were so easily, falling together
Falling forever.
Now that I left, I'm missing you
and it just hurts we're still falling together,
we're still falling forever.
Forever in this limbo, forever unsure
Undefined and impossible now,
What a great idea it was
to be apart to figure **** out.
Dec 4, 2017
Dec 4, 2017 at 5:22 PM UTC
Negatives and Positives
they cancel each other out
We're at zero now
Tied on the scoreboard
Sleep deprived
and hollow on the inside
Bags under my eyes,
I was searching for something
Remember that summer night on the roof?
Smoking *** and singing RnB
That's the only place I wanted to be
cool thanks to that summer breeze
But that summer breeze turned into a winter storm
and it tore me away from our special place
on the timeline
Nov 4, 2017
Nov 4, 2017 at 10:51 AM UTC
I can feel us fizzling out
What was sweet yesterday
Now burns in my mouth
Nov 4, 2017
Nov 4, 2017 at 10:43 AM UTC
not my childhood
not my adolescence
kind of like a limbo
but still a crucial part
of who i am
i always knew that i would leave you
i didn’t know it’d be this hard
the only thing thats getting me through
is the thought of someday seeing you
once again
oh once again
where did you go
i can’t find you
i’m right back home
but it isn’t home anymore
people change
and so do places
but i’m still rooted in the past
the world is moving fast
yet i stand still
you always knew that i would leave you
you didn’t think it’d be this hard
i don’t know if you miss me
i don’t know if you care
about me, anymore
i’d like to stay at the door
if you don’t mind
it helps me cope
reminds me of cold winter nights like before
i left you
like before
i left you
Sep 28, 2017
Sep 28, 2017 at 7:55 PM UTC
we walked through the city at 2 am
it was calmer then
but still not calm
what else could one expect from the city that never sleeps?
we tripped in the park at 3 am
i was dizzy
you were clumsy
we fell into each other like two forced puzzle pieces
you walked me home at 4 am
i invited you inside
you took me up on the offer
neither of us remembers what happened after that
how come you and i can only be together in the solitude of our shared intoxication?
Sep 23, 2017
Sep 23, 2017 at 4:26 PM UTC
I tell others that I am "multifaceted"
Which I mean as "two faced"
I lie to myself daily
unsuccessfully.
the epitome of a hypocrite
Aug 10, 2017
Aug 10, 2017 at 4:47 PM UTC
temporariness
is one of the most scary truths we must face as humans
everything in our lives is passing
the hair on our heads
the stain of a sharpie
even the sun
is temporary.
will your love for me be temporary?
will it fade when the collagen in my skin weakens
when my eyes no longer sparkle as they used to
when there is nothing left but an ancient soul in a frail old woman
will it fade then?
in short, what i am asking is
will your love be unlike everything else, and stand the test of time?
Aug 9, 2017
Aug 9, 2017 at 11:37 PM UTC
i wanted to be special
i wanted to be art
you wanted to be great
you wanted to be known
she wanted to be wild
she wanted to be changed
he wanted to be grand
he wanted to be inspiring
we were all wanting something
and in the end, that is what clipped our wings
ultimately, we were no longer wanting anything
except an end
Aug 9, 2017
Aug 9, 2017 at 11:49 AM UTC
39th and a dirt road
isn't it funny
how you pretended not to know
that my petals were falling
39th and a dirt road
i was walking with bare feet
my toes brown like the ground
***** and grass stained, tainted
39th and a dirt road
i just can't get over
this transition is killing me
maybe it's better this way
please promise me
you'll stay away
39th and a dirt road
acceptance is difficult
the country is calm
i need to learn to let go
if i ever want a shot
at a new life
so
39th and a dirt road
is where you'll find me.
Aug 8, 2017
Aug 8, 2017 at 11:56 PM UTC