Once upon a time..
That's how fairy tales start...
I don't believe in fairy tales.
I don't believe in much.
But I believed in this...
In all of us..
I never should have.
I feared myself and now look..
I'm exaxtly what I never wanted.
Exactly what she doesn't want.
Fairy tales taught us lessons,
Showed us what to avoid.
What to run from.
We'll see where this takes me,
But it's another fairy tale.
I don't believe in fairy tales.
Dec 19, 2018
Dec 19, 2018 at 12:32 PM UTC
I keep seeing you in my dreams
Awake and asleep..
I hear you call to me.
These feelings are untested and new
What do I do?
I know I need you.
I want to run as far as I can
But I still stand..
Why? I know better than to trust a man..
But you're special to me
With you I can finally breathe
I'm no longer missing a piece..
Sep 16, 2018
Sep 16, 2018 at 8:08 PM UTC
I have so much hope...
Silly me.
I have hope for world I've never seen..
One that works..
Makes sense..
Doesn't hurt me..
Doesn't **** my soul..
I belong to you.
I love them..
Give me an answer.
Show me guidance.
Please Sir..
Sep 8, 2018
Sep 8, 2018 at 12:09 AM UTC
Everything is fine.
Everything is always fine.
I can ignore this sinking feeling
Until I don't care.
I want too many things..
Things not mine to have.
I'm sad and I'm alone with these thoughts,
Who can I honestly tell?
Too many people to hurt.
So I cry in my dreams,
With only scratches left to show any emotion.
Everything will stay fine.
Aug 8, 2018
Aug 8, 2018 at 12:44 PM UTC
Last night I told you I was torn
I told you I was confused
That what happens happens and I'd survive
Last night you told me that was okay
You told me it'd work itself out
That you were good at making people think things were their idea
Last night I let myself be happy
I let myself believe
Last night you cracked a wall I've always had and now I'm breaking
Jul 27, 2018
Jul 27, 2018 at 12:23 PM UTC
I want to run to the mountains
I want to feel wild and free
The walls and ceilings around me
They're a cage I can't escape..
I'm not supposed to want to escape..
But I want to run
To the creek and trees and stones
To the animals and land
I miss the empty mornings
Calm waters and quiet musings
Sun made tea and small snacks
No voices no questions
No answers
The mountains are calling
Tempting me
I want to run
Jul 20, 2018
Jul 20, 2018 at 10:14 PM UTC
I miss you Hales.
Especially on nights like this.
The cold summer rains...
We used to cuddle and say we should put more clothes on.
Funny, we never actually did.
We just grabbed more blankets, then snuggled closer.
It's hard Hales.
Learning to live again, it's hard without you.
I stopped trying after you.
I stopped caring.
I hope you know I'm sorry for all the awful drunken words.
I was so scared to go on without you, I was so angry that you left.
All I could do was drink more and hope that poison killed the one inside me.
But on nights like these, I miss you next to me Hales.
It's hard to sleep and it's just getting harder.
Life is changing babe and it's pulling me with it.
Just know, I still miss you.
I love you Hales, even after death.
I was so ready to meet you in summerland.
But I think it'll be a little longer than I thought babe.
I'm happy again Hales.
I just wish you were here next to me, just to hear your voice.
I already know your secrets, but I have new ones to tell.
I wonder if our locks are still there.
I lost my key..
I couldn't wear it anymore, I...I just couldn't, Hales.
I'm sorry.
I miss you babe.
Goodnight Hales.
Pretty bird.
Jun 27, 2018
Jun 27, 2018 at 1:35 PM UTC
I can hear her calling me
Home to our trees
They sing in native tongue
I hear their voices
The moon betrays me to my other half
Calling my true nature forth
I miss my home
Where i began
I miss my other nature
My mirrored half
I know i ran
But the real trees call me home
I can feel their grasp
Their traces on my soul, my heart
My circle calls to me
In borrowed time
I miss my real trees
Dec 29, 2017
Dec 29, 2017 at 4:13 PM UTC
I'm covered in scars and stories,
Some good some bad all mine.
I don't know where I'm headed
But I know what I leave behind.
I'm sorry for the pain.
I'm sorry for the angery screams.
I'm not sorry I left.
I need to know what life means.
Nov 28, 2017
Nov 28, 2017 at 3:23 PM UTC
Remember me?
No, I didn't think so...
We used to mean a great deal to one and other.
Times change, as do people.
You ask about me..I, about you.
Never coming or going at the same time.
I treasure my memories...
I hold my childhood friend dear,
But my childhood is over..
We've grown up now.
I grieve the loss of a boy I once knew.
He grew into a Man.
Oct 5, 2017
Oct 5, 2017 at 3:24 PM UTC
