HawkFlight
I am a cold hearted asshole. If you dont like it tough. 25 years old. Japanese. Been through enough shit that it would make your head spin. I write crap poems but its my way of venting. Ok thats all there is to know. / / Just wanted to say thanks to all of the people who follow me. Its nice to know that I am worthy enough to be followed
As I sit here and write,
I put to rest a part of me
that no longer has relivence in this world
I put to rest the hired Hand,
The addict of the white powder paridise.
The distant man with a heart of ice
pushing away all those he loved.
Gone is that shadow man
Its time to come into the light.
Feb 26, 2015
Feb 26, 2015 at 4:00 PM UTC
Is she really gone?
My little sister
is that door really closed?
Can I still open it?
I've tried and I've tried
To get her back
But pushed away has been the end result
I didn't mean to lose her
I didn't mean to lash out
I didn't mean to **** it up
I didn't mean to break her heart.
Sis if you read this
Please know
I ******* miss you!
Are you really gone?
If I knock on that door
Will you open it up
Will you take me back
Please Fenix
What can I do
to get my little sister back?
Sep 30, 2014
Sep 30, 2014 at 2:48 PM UTC
What did I just do?
Did I really just lose her?
Did my burning candle
just blow out?
Is that door really shut?
Is It really Locked?
Is there another key,
Or am I forever left out in the cold?
I know why I did it.
I know why I pushed her away.
But it doesnt mean I dont Hate it
It doesnt mean I dont regret it.
I made my bed
now I must lay in it.
I made my mistake
now I have to live with it
Sep 18, 2014
Sep 18, 2014 at 4:11 PM UTC
I am done with this ********
I'm done playing nice.
I'm done running my life
the way everyone else wants it.
I was doing JUST fine before
With no one to take care of but me.
I was doing JUST fine
before she got to me.
I shut my self away from people
Emotions on a lock down
Heart "turned to stone"
So **** all of you
I'm so ******* done with this ********
I'm going back to being the me I use to be
Sep 18, 2014
Sep 18, 2014 at 4:10 PM UTC
**BEWARE THIS IS GAY **** MATERIAL!**
Push you down onto your knees
Your hands tied tightly behind you
My manhood waiting for your lips.
Grab your short hair push you forward
Trying not to moan.
******* my hand in your hair
Pushing you back and forth.
You whimper softly taking me fully
Can't take this torture anymore
Needing to bury my love and desire
deep within you.
hands still tied
I flip you over
Your perfect small round *** in the air
waiting for me.
you are mine no one elses
I smack your *** and kiss it better
Before I claim it as mine.
Burying my love within you
thrusting
moaning
whimpering
Clawing
growling
screaming
Release my love
deep inside.
spin you around
your still in need
take you in my mouth
you quiver beneath me
stuggling against your retrains.
****** your hips pushing deeper
Loving you with my mouth
Realese your love.
Both panting hard
Both still wanting more
what will this day have instore?
Sep 15, 2014
Sep 15, 2014 at 3:07 PM UTC
Curling up on the couch
With your arms around my waist
mine around your shoulders,
With your head on my chest
and my feet up on the table.
Dim the lights
Grab that buttered popcorn
and pop that movie in
Curled up on that couch
just you and me.
Twittle we've been together for so long
I was 17 you 14.
7 years to be exact.
Dont Leave me
Dont walk away.
I need you in my life
you are my sanity
Without you there
That couch will be cold
The popcorn stale
the movies bland
Without you here in this house
the walls will echo with your laughter
taunting me day and night.
Twittle I need you
Please dont leave me
I.....
I love you.
Sep 15, 2014
Sep 15, 2014 at 2:59 PM UTC
*To me family is:
All the people that mean something to you.
They dont have to be blood.
They dont have to be the same race, gender, age, religion.
As long as they mean something to you
As long as you love them with everything you have.
That
is what I call
Family.*
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So you mean Like you are to me Fenix?
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Yes Hawk. That is what I mean.
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***Fenix you know you are my sister.
I love you through and through
You've pulled me out of the gutter more times then I would like to admit.
You've been there for me
And I have tried my hardest to be there for you.
To my children you will Always be Aunty.
To my wife you are consider sister in law.
I will always be your big brother
There to protect you.***
~~~~~
*Yes Hawk you are my big brother.
Forever*
~~~~~
Infinity and beyond
~~~~~
*What are we?
Toy story?*
~~~~~~
***I am Buzzlightyear
Hear me Roar***
~~~~~~~~~
*Dear Gundi
if your are buzz lightyear
we are all doomed*
~~~~~
hums you got a friend in me
~~~~~~
And this is why we are family
Aug 20, 2014
Aug 20, 2014 at 12:23 PM UTC
Goddess Don't you do this to me!
Magnum is the only father figure
I have in this hell!
Dont you Dare take him from me!
It happened so suddenly!
One minute it was sunny
so he took his harley for a ride
A sudden down pour hit
So he turned it around
for the safety of home.
It was raining so hard
He could barely see
Did not notice he was straying from the road
CRASHED into a big ******* tree
Wrapped his bike around the trunk
Hit his head pretty ******* hard.
No one else around for miles
Laid there knocked out for a few hours.
Somebody found him called 911
In the hospital he now resides.
Broke a few ribs
internal bleeding
In an induced a coma.
Goddess I pray to thee
Please dont take
the only father figure I know
Away from me
Aug 7, 2014
Aug 7, 2014 at 3:53 PM UTC
My six year old daughter yesterday came up to me with a bunch of danilions in her hand. she ran up to me yelling "DADDY DADDY I WANT TO ASK YOU SOMETHING!" I held out my hands and she jumped into them.
Now My six year old can act VERY serious when she wants to. its like she goes from six to twenty-six in a blink.
Now she pulls a serious moment and looks up at me. her Big Green and I do mean green eyes are staring at me all serious. What she said next brought tears to my eye.
" I love you daddy. Will you marry me?" She asks me. I'm not an emotional guy but THAT brought me to tears. Me. A guy with a very bad past and present being asked by his six year old, if she could marry him. her innocence it kills me.
"I dont know baby you're going to have to ask mommy on that one, I'm kinda already married to her." I said putting her down. She put her little hands on her hips and stomped her foot, Such little six year old move.
"Well Not anymore she isnt! I"M marrying you now!" She says and stomps to my room where my wife was. I try hard not to laugh but I'm sorry that was just adorable.
I hear from my bedroom her little voice slightly yelling at my wife (her mom).
"Mommy you are not married to dad anymore! I AM MARRYING HIM!!!" I stand in my door way and see sophia standing infront of her mother who is trying hard not to laugh.
"Oh really is that so? Well then I would gladly love to be the one to marry the two of you." She says scooping up sophia who tries hard to wiggle out of her arms. a giant smile on her face. she starts chanting 'I'm marry daddy, I'm marrying daddy!"
My wife kaitlyn goes to our daughters room and picks out last years easter dress which is white and pink. She helps put it on her and then puts some pretty pink lipstick on her. THEN they fibnd the dandylions that she drop and well We all go into the living room.
I had put on my best dress shirt jsut for the occaison.
my wife stands in front of us and trying hard not to laugh "marries" us.
"Sophia, do you marry him?"
"YES I DO!!!!" she says giggling.
"Ok then you are married to him. you may now hug him."
And my little daughter turns to me and hugs me so hard.
" I Love you daddy I'm so happy we married now!"
" I love you too Sophia, always and forever."
Goddess **** my daughter makes my cold heart melt.
Aug 5, 2014
Aug 5, 2014 at 2:14 PM UTC
The love of a parent is to hard to explain
It's when your life isnt just about you anymore
It's about that tiny human life
that you have created
its when their life becomes
more important then yours
When your universe becomes off kiltered
and slowly revolved away from you
and centered itself around them
They've got you wrapped around thier finger
and thats the way its meant to be.
You would do ANYTHING for them.
Whipe away every tear
Grab your baseball bat and beat the crap
out of the person who created them.
Check under the bed
for those fictitious monsters
just so you can see that fear
dispear from their eyes.
Hold them close
and in your heart.
Selfish thoughts
forever gone
Its not just about you anymore
Its all about them.
Jul 10, 2014
Jul 10, 2014 at 12:17 PM UTC