In the depths of despair she once roamed
Haunted by voices, her mind not her own
Addiction’s cruel grip, a relentless foe
Reality blurred, illusions took hold
Aside the chaos, in the quiet of her mind,
A secret weighed heavy, one of a kind,
A truth discovered, a burden to bear,
In the depths of her soul, she tasted fear
The voices whispered deviant tales
She fought & struggled, but to no avail
Lost in a world where delusion reigned
She stumbled, she fell, her sanity strained
She longed to share, to open her heart,
But the demons within tore her apart,
When she spoke, the words contorted,
Purpose lost, her mind distorted
Thus in her past, mistakes were made,
Actions taken, debts unpaid,
Regrets weigh heavy, but the deed is done
Severe colours now perceived as her truth
It took a while, but she did it, she’s free,
From addiction’s chains she had flee
Through darkness, she sought the dawn,
as the first light broke, her new life began
And as time went by, she started to see,
Her burden could be her key to be free,
For in her truth she found colossal grace,
A light in the darkness, a guiding embrace
And as she nears the verge of the sublime,
She knows it’s almost her time to climb,
To rise from the ashes, to soar and fly,
A testament to strength that refuses to die
Mar 24, 2024
Mar 24, 2024 at 2:04 PM UTC
I will always love you
How I do
It hurts me
That we’re strangers again
Will we ever know
Each other again?
I know we will
Or this longing
Will never cease
Though I hate you again
I still want you
The same way
Apr 12, 2023
Apr 12, 2023 at 6:50 PM UTC
I admit
The mistakes I made
Were intentional
I played life like a frisbee
And it always comes back around
Biting me like a wild dog
So in the end
I have no one else to blame
But myself
All I can do now
Is wish life
Had some kind of rewind button
Jun 1, 2022
Jun 1, 2022 at 6:40 PM UTC
Of being stuck with
A fate
That is our very own
Can’t be changed
Unshaken
Such a great tragedy indeed
Jun 1, 2022
Jun 1, 2022 at 6:34 PM UTC
Who shall I run to?
Life is creating free choices for me
And telling me to take it, this is my path
I’m wallowing in a self-sabotaging territory
Pleading with myself, to do something about it
A need to be seen, to be accepted, to be held
A need to also remove the importance from myself
A need to be beautiful and shallow
And not go through as many philosophies in my head each day
A need to write and not be anxious about it
I’m in a cage and it’s getting smaller
I’m in denial of my own fate
Why me? Why so? Why this?
Why do I have to see everything so clearly?
The knowing, bothersome by the days
The concealing, revealing
I want to cry till I’m no longer sorry
Jan 27, 2021
Jan 27, 2021 at 4:28 AM UTC
my bludgeoned heart bleeds
my soulful mind pleads
my aching eyes scarlet
like the fire in my lungs
makes it hard to breathe
love is, and always will be
like a fatal car accident
this time I didn’t survive it
with no peace to rest in
Jan 15, 2021
Jan 15, 2021 at 3:59 AM UTC
to grow, we will have to outgrow
because we start small in everything
body and mind
our experiences widen
so does our heart
and to find God,
we’ll have to find Ourselves
If there’s only 1 God
then that will have be you for now.
Aug 21, 2020
Aug 21, 2020 at 11:55 AM UTC
I’m starting to recognize the awareness
that my very essence,
is to become a well rounded person
when I’ve finally unshackled from the chains of indulgences that are only to my detriment
I’m ready to becoME.
Jul 28, 2020
Jul 28, 2020 at 5:55 AM UTC
as I’ve learnt,
a long time ago
a blue sky,
doesn’t make
a beautiful day
for beauty,
even in our perception
lies within
Jan 13, 2019
Jan 13, 2019 at 6:32 PM UTC