Sometimes I wonder;
Did it actually happen?
your hand around my neck,
tightening as your voice changes..
I’ll never forget the whisper as it left your lips
. . . You wouldn’t of come if you weren’t gonna put out.
Left without breath, frozen in time.
Without reason or Rhyme
For you knew the whole time.
My tears flowed, my voice no’d
Only till I froze,
My brain stopped,
My heart dropped,
Lost in time
Without rhyme.
Sometimes I wonder;
Did it actually happen?
Oct 20, 2020
Oct 20, 2020 at 3:29 AM UTC
I am always searching
for something that can not be found but given
from people who care to little
Give to late
I begged,
for your acceptance,
Your love,
Your attention…
im done.
i will never receive what i give
And ive given my all.
Aug 8, 2020
Aug 8, 2020 at 2:30 AM UTC
Pinky Promise
First a promise
Then a kiss
Full of happiness and bliss
I’ll hold you tight
With all my might
All throughout the night
And when day breaks
Our future awaits
. . .our adventure begins
Jul 25, 2020
Jul 25, 2020 at 12:20 AM UTC
I wonder if people,
keep tabs on me,
Like i do them. . .
I wonder if people,
Think of me
Like i do them. . .
I wonder if people,
Still feel the pain,
Like i do. . .
Jul 14, 2020
Jul 14, 2020 at 1:57 AM UTC
first, sweet
then, sour
you grab me by my throat and make me cower
i freeze.
you do as you please.
Jun 15, 2020
Jun 15, 2020 at 2:41 AM UTC
happy thoughts I say,
happy thoughts,
but here i am, writing from my dark place, the only places i ever seem to write from.
why is it so much easy to feel the darkness but never easy to see the light?
Jun 15, 2020
Jun 15, 2020 at 2:30 AM UTC
I lay awake at night,
allowing men who never deserved me to take up my headspace,
allowing myself to fill with poison.
they handed me the pills,
but i still decided to take them.
Jun 15, 2020
Jun 15, 2020 at 2:26 AM UTC
How can I hate you,
How can I hate you when you aren’t always bad,
When you help me out most of the time,
How can I not though,
When you don’t care, about my health,
About my education,
about me.
Oh, yes people think you care, and you do,
Sometimes.
When its convenient,
Why have kids, when you don't want kids all the time,
We are not something you can ignore til you're in the mood,
Till you're ready,
But how can i hate you,
Its not your fault you are sick,
It's not your fault, fully.
May 16, 2020
May 16, 2020 at 12:19 AM UTC
Long days
After long days I lay awake,
only you crossing my mind,
only wanting you by my side.
I fall asleep to the smell
Of my you love, as it lays cross my back
Wishing, hoping
that it was not the smell but
the touch of you.
the touch of unconditional love
of patience
of caring
of warmth
of love I know will not fade away like this smell one day will.
You’re the smell of home, the smell I long to go back to at my lowest times my love
Nov 29, 2019
Nov 29, 2019 at 12:23 AM UTC