Gullibledreamer - Hello Poetry

I keep getting asked "are you okay?" Good question. When will I finally be pretty? Good question I'll cut my hair and fake a smile Hoping someone will stay a while Why am I such a crybaby? Good question they say a broken heart is one that's been loved But I guess nothing's perfect. Who am I? Good question The best questions are the ones without answers.

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Aug 8, 2018

Aug 8, 2018 at 11:58 PM UTC

Good questions

I keep getting asked "are you okay?" Good question. When will I finally be pretty? Good question I'll cut my hair and fake a smile Hoping someone will stay a while Why am I such a crybaby? Good question they say a broken heart is one that's been loved But I guess nothing's perfect. Who am I? Good question The best questions are the ones without answers.

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How many times... How many times do I need to lose friends before one will stay? How many times do I have to cry at night because I'm not pretty enough? Does crying burn calories? How many times do I have to dream only to wake up to the nightmare of reality? How many times do I have to be stuck in this loop of time? Cry, sleep, dream and cry again but my worries never go away. They lurk around corners and hide in the cracks of the walls Haunted by my own trust issues.

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May 23, 2018

May 23, 2018 at 8:12 PM UTC

How many times?

How many times... How many times do I need to lose friends before one will stay? How many times do I have to cry at night because I'm not pretty enough? Does crying burn calories? How many times do I have to dream only to wake up to the nightmare of reality? How many times do I have to be stuck in this loop of time? Cry, sleep, dream and cry again but my worries never go away. They lurk around corners and hide in the cracks of the walls Haunted by my own trust issues.

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Average hair Average weight Average height Average eyes Not special, no, not quite. I am that kid who tries but isnt noticed I work hard until I can't keep going But faliure always finds me Like a mindless machine I fall back Back where I started Average It's funny how I pray to be ill to for once be different than them Even though it could **** me. I starve and I pray, But is it really okay? To live this way? Trapped in my mind Laughing? At me probably. Finally I am satisfied with the mirror then temptation breaks me And I'm back where I started Average. I dyed my hair pink All I get is glares. I want to be special but not like this Even if it means I won't be happy I'll do anything to no longer be Average Too tall to be cute Too short to model I've gotten no where at all, The more I try the more I fail. I will always be Average Average hair Average height Average weight I want to not be able to remember the last time I ate. They think I hate them bit it's myself I despise This smile is my disguise I just want to be Special.

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Mar 27, 2018

Mar 27, 2018 at 6:34 PM UTC

Average

Average hair Average weight Average height Average eyes Not special, no, not quite. I am that kid who tries but isnt noticed I work hard until I can't keep going But faliure always finds me Like a mindless machine I fall back Back where I started Average It's funny how I pray to be ill to for once be different than them Even though it could **** me. I starve and I pray, But is it really okay? To live this way? Trapped in my mind Laughing? At me probably. Finally I am satisfied with the mirror then temptation breaks me And I'm back where I started Average. I dyed my hair pink All I get is glares. I want to be special but not like this Even if it means I won't be happy I'll do anything to no longer be Average Too tall to be cute Too short to model I've gotten no where at all, The more I try the more I fail. I will always be Average Average hair Average height Average weight I want to not be able to remember the last time I ate. They think I hate them bit it's myself I despise This smile is my disguise I just want to be Special.

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Their stares, so cold I hide my self hoping Praying they don't notice my forgetfulness I can't stand small spaces but this is even worse Empty, cold, and large My heart on my sleeve I reach out Struggling to fill the space Trying to speak back I know they're talking to me But I can never speak back Why can't I ever fill this space With the proper furniture of words

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Mar 26, 2018

Mar 26, 2018 at 10:35 PM UTC

Cold

Their stares, so cold I hide my self hoping Praying they don't notice my forgetfulness I can't stand small spaces but this is even worse Empty, cold, and large My heart on my sleeve I reach out Struggling to fill the space Trying to speak back I know they're talking to me But I can never speak back Why can't I ever fill this space With the proper furniture of words

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Yelling from my peers I shouldn't be here But it wasn't my choice Its that small little voice, Yelling Screaming Perfection is what I strive for Pain stabbing to the core But really I just can't handle this It's reality I miss To close to the edge Nightmares of jumping off the ledge I'm tired of eveyone's fake kindness I'm a mess.

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Mar 22, 2018

Mar 22, 2018 at 7:48 PM UTC

Noticed

Yelling from my peers I shouldn't be here But it wasn't my choice Its that small little voice, Yelling Screaming Perfection is what I strive for Pain stabbing to the core But really I just can't handle this It's reality I miss To close to the edge Nightmares of jumping off the ledge I'm tired of eveyone's fake kindness I'm a mess.

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Be thinner be smarter Be the perfect daughter Smile and laugh Such a piece trash Just agree Give in to their lying Your hopeless, but dont stop trying No one truley cares Don't ignore the stares Stop holding teddy bears Run your fingers through your hair Your an adult now Fix your self up now.

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Mar 20, 2018

Mar 20, 2018 at 11:29 PM UTC

Lying

Be thinner be smarter Be the perfect daughter Smile and laugh Such a piece trash Just agree Give in to their lying Your hopeless, but dont stop trying No one truley cares Don't ignore the stares Stop holding teddy bears Run your fingers through your hair Your an adult now Fix your self up now.

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Fight through the pain Only then will you gain That's what they all say It's as clear as day Be graceful! Chin up! Get back there The floor is yours Now land, hit the ground Don't make a sound Practice makes perfect But all this falling gets to my head. Keep going See the smiles And right back down again.

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Feb 28, 2018

Feb 28, 2018 at 7:19 PM UTC

Fight

Fight through the pain Only then will you gain That's what they all say It's as clear as day Be graceful! Chin up! Get back there The floor is yours Now land, hit the ground Don't make a sound Practice makes perfect But all this falling gets to my head. Keep going See the smiles And right back down again.

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They called me beautiful but beautiful girls get guys. Where is mine? Why am I here alone when they say I'm too kind, no, kind girls get guys. Where's mine? It's funny how friends say these things but guys don't bat an eye Who am I? Am I nice? Am I kind? Or is it all just lies.

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Feb 22, 2018

Feb 22, 2018 at 11:08 PM UTC

Sometime

They called me beautiful but beautiful girls get guys. Where is mine? Why am I here alone when they say I'm too kind, no, kind girls get guys. Where's mine? It's funny how friends say these things but guys don't bat an eye Who am I? Am I nice? Am I kind? Or is it all just lies.

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They say a picture is worth a thousand words. They capture our life up until death, So our soul and life lives on. But I wonder, who will see what's after them and maybe what's before? History class seems boring, all those old stories. I wonder, what if we were the history? And it was our picture in place of their's? Would we feel the same, thinking our stories are boring? They say a picture is worth a thousand words.

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Feb 22, 2018

Feb 22, 2018 at 10:06 PM UTC

History

They say a picture is worth a thousand words. They capture our life up until death, So our soul and life lives on. But I wonder, who will see what's after them and maybe what's before? History class seems boring, all those old stories. I wonder, what if we were the history? And it was our picture in place of their's? Would we feel the same, thinking our stories are boring? They say a picture is worth a thousand words.

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Im told I'm fake Because I try to please everyone But I cry and I laugh and I forgive Does that make me fake? I smile in the halls instead of frown like most Because smiles spread quickly Does that make me fake? I prefer friends over enemies, Because when I was younger I had neither. Does that make me fake? They tell me to be myself, Because having pink hair makes me too different and I try too hard So I fixed my hair. If being fake means helping others, I'm going to be fake for as long as I can and I refuse to fix myself.

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Feb 22, 2018

Feb 22, 2018 at 9:10 PM UTC

Fake

Im told I'm fake Because I try to please everyone But I cry and I laugh and I forgive Does that make me fake? I smile in the halls instead of frown like most Because smiles spread quickly Does that make me fake? I prefer friends over enemies, Because when I was younger I had neither. Does that make me fake? They tell me to be myself, Because having pink hair makes me too different and I try too hard So I fixed my hair. If being fake means helping others, I'm going to be fake for as long as I can and I refuse to fix myself.

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