I miss you
Not just because of our fight
or that we haven't talked since that night
I miss you
You smiling, you laugh
Worlds collapse, sometimes crash
My first memory of you, you stole my bike
From then on, brother for life
Through the ups and downs, we both made mistakes
But for me, you cant be replaced
I cant have our last fight be our last words
I cant have our last fight be our last
I wont except a world without you in it
My brother, my ride or die. please sit
I have things I need to apologize for
I broke promises I never thought I would before
I promised to always be there for you, I was not
At the end my rage is all you got
No explanation, no talking, I just threw you out the door
I promised I would always show you support, that night I fell further than short
I should have never just thrown you away like I did that night
What I did was not right
The way I treated you, as just barely a person
You messed up, but in that instant, I acted like stone
I cant say all that I feel
I do not blame you if you do not care
I would like one day to talk again
But it is up to you if and when
Jan 10, 2021
Jan 10, 2021 at 9:09 PM UTC
Ever feel like you're falling apart
Everything is broken and you don't know where to start
Voices in all directions
Full of predictions
No time to stop and rest
No time to take a breath
Picking up the pieces at the same time of breaking
Dropping each one because your hand cant stop shaking
Tears fill, its gone, the power of will
Crawling into your dark space
Because the reality you do not want to face
Where failure peaks
You have a voice, yet cannot speak
You are exhausted, yet cannot sleep
All thoughts trying to break free at once
Been building up for months
Your legs give out, hands fall to the ground
Does anyone care, did you even make a sound
Ever feel like you're falling apart
Everything is cracked and shattered
As if it never mattered
May 29, 2020
May 29, 2020 at 8:06 PM UTC
As she lays her head on the wall of strength
With her belly swollen with love
she thinks to herself "The place I am meant to be"
Cradling the baby of a dying love
Thoughts dissipate, the love has just started
With the feeling of this incredible human growing inside
Dads up high but not gone, smile don't cry
For he gave you a treasure nothing else compares
Even if your heart hurts beyond what you can bare
This child will come into a world with mountains of love
With wonderful stories of her father above
His memory to deep to take
His love will never break
your guardian Angel, your love from before
Hes watching you, even if you don't believe anymore
Apr 6, 2020
Apr 6, 2020 at 3:33 PM UTC
feelings are strong
like the switch has been turned on
demons are here, weapons are gone
drops come from the sky of pain
words are unspoken, the days are the same
walls are breaking, demons pushing threw
my guard is down, not sure what to do
waves of uncertainties find there way around
come to take my feet clear off the ground
as i float there in the midst of it all
in my ear, the wind starts to call
flowing my guilt from side to side
a rush of emotions, whimpering cries
my thoughts, my past, my mind in fact
these things have been scattered, my sense i lack
Apr 6, 2020
Apr 6, 2020 at 1:17 AM UTC
Drowning in the oceans of time
Like i'm in place while everyone is flying
Like i'm bleeding the sorrows of tomorrow
No one to help, no one to follow
The depths of time is everlasting
Harder than i thought, barely grasping
Like a broken clock has been replaced
Bitter life is what i taste
The oceans surround me in a whirl of deception
No life jacket, no protection
Water sprays in the crystal eyes of my past,
Holding onto every breath like it's my last
Water fills my lungs, everything starts to blur
****** into the current
Feeling every bump, every curve
From the bottom to the top
Everything's racing
All i want is for it to stop
Mar 25, 2020
Mar 25, 2020 at 10:24 PM UTC
It started off as butterflies
no reason. no answers to why
something meant to be very small
who would of guessed i would go and fall
a simple friend meant to be
now a wife is all i see
with eyes of passion flaring green
unlike anything i have ever seen
with a heart of gold i can understand
always there for a lending hand
no matter the problem no matter the time
you're right there to tell me it's going to be fine
with your heart beating loud against my ear
in your arms there is nothing to fear
with your smile your laugh and everything else
my feelings for you i have never truly felt
with every beat my heart speaks loud
i want to yell in the middle of the crowd
my heart was sore at first its true
there was another before i met you
she split my heart she tore it in two
but you have fixed it, its like its brand new
i have happiness in my mind happiness in my heart
who would have known this particular part
it started off as butterflies
no reason no answers to why
Mar 25, 2020
Mar 25, 2020 at 7:55 PM UTC
They say you have to love yourself before you can love someone else
Well i got a story to tell
Love for myself i don't think i have ever had
But being in love, i got that bad
Thinking of myself and what i need is not my first thought
When it comes to what gets done, for everyone else i have brought
At the end my hands are empty but everyone else is fine
Blistered and bruised, but yet still no cry
They say you need to love yourself to be free
But that coincides with the first, see when i am with her i am free
Free of having to love myself because she loves me enough
Free of having to go on without her, because god knows that would be rough
Free of all the world has to offer
Nothing can compare, don't even bother
They say you need to love yourself to keep on keepin' on
But as long as i see her there is no fog
As long as she is by my side i don't need me
As long as she is by my side, life is let be
This story may not make sense to most but its whats on my mind
Trying to get my feelings out, writing is how i search and find
Dec 8, 2019
Dec 8, 2019 at 5:12 PM UTC
bro for life
ride or die
those words repeat in my mind
the truth in those words i need to find
Once upon a time maybe
before you went crazy
trying to be something you are not
trying to be someone else's robot
the fall guy
you're better than that
why?
this last fight
that's my last time
you've lost yourself in the tornado or popularity
where is your clarity
where is your back
i leaned but fell, you slacked
i looked for my bro
i needed a tow
i looked for my neighbor
you i could not find
to busy on your grind
to busy to find time
when did you lose yourself?
do you even know you need help?
18 years i have stood strong
walking by your side, road is long
18 years just to get a slapped in the face
i cant keep up, i don't know your pace
18 years, you were my bro
together we were suppose to grow
in the dust you have kept me
when things got tough... you did what you do
flee
i hope your boys were worth all that has to come
because as much as i love you i am done
this is something that cant be fixed
i needed you, i needed a lift
i needed a hand
because on the ground i could not stand
you showed me what you are all about
lets me know i need to go down a different route
i wish you the best, i hope you find what you are looking for
because this friendship is what got torn
Nov 4, 2019
Nov 4, 2019 at 11:45 AM UTC
The withering flower on the unspoken tree
The queen at her castle begging on her knees.
The sky is loud and the waters calm
The birds no longer sing happy songs
The animals in the forest no longer explore
There is something slithering that much is for sure
Behind all the shadows in the dead of night
no where to be seen, out of mind out of sight.
children laughing with no thought to fear
but the monster is lurking
He starts to get near
The laughter grows louder it echoes the trees
The branches start shaking, down come the leaves
As the children skip playfully down the long grass road
Not knowing their laughter is selling their soul
The monster gets closer eyes glowing in suspense
The moment is closer his body gets tense.
He looks to his right, he looks to his left
The thoughts put to action Get ready get set
The laughter no longer, the playing has stopped
The voices have seized, the noise now has dropped
The souls have been lifted then drove into the ground
No more laughter, no more playing around.
No more skipping for fun, no more running for joy
no more warm beds to sleep in, or a favorite toy
once a stupid adventure they not knew to make
Not knowing there lives what was at stake
Oct 24, 2019
Oct 24, 2019 at 2:47 PM UTC
Drowning in the oceans of time
Like i'm in place while everyone is flying
Like i'm bleeding the sorrows of tomorrow
no one to help, no one to follow
The depths of time is everlasting
Harder than i thought, barely grasping
like a broken clock has been replaced
Bitter life is what i taste
The oceans surround me in a whirl of deception
no life jacket, no protection
Water sprays in the crystal eyes of my past, present, and future
feelings of my lungs puncture
Holding onto every breath like it's my last
Water fills my lungs, everything is so fast
Drowning in the oceans of time
trying to forget life's crimes
Sep 29, 2019
Sep 29, 2019 at 7:18 AM UTC