GracePickard - Hello Poetry

White snow covers the brittle branches Of the sage brush beside them The birds song of the Nevadan January is gone- Not even the brisk wind moves this scene Her car pushes through the stillness Then the clicking of her engine stops. Silence speaks again Through clouded windows she hears him shouting phrases unknown Then his stumbled pacing sounds nearer and nearer He stops at the sight of her Still sitting in the drivers seat she looks forward aimlessly With a tug at the door handle she follows him into the road He's looking at her eyes turn into faucets longing for her to say something to break the silence She's staring at the emptiness surrounding him They almost meet eachothers gaze, He tries to pull her in, she refuses Then as the silence floods between them She rushes into him The brittle branches are nourished By the tears that violently crash down Grasping on to him, She wills to always be held by him And then he pulls her off She tries to speak, but feathers fill her throat Their eyes meet and search rapidly for secrets His pupils swallow her face With the shadow of the sun behind her, she sees herself within his gaze He asks her "What do you see" And she looks into the car window beside her and croaks " Me. I'm Pathetic" His reflection scrunches his eyes and brings his hand up to his ear He begins to disappear The silence surrounds them once more And she turns around and looks into his eyes one last time And sees two tears racing to the ground

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Feb 22, 2016

Feb 22, 2016 at 1:32 AM UTC

A sound good bye

White snow covers the brittle branches Of the sage brush beside them The birds song of the Nevadan January is gone- Not even the brisk wind moves this scene Her car pushes through the stillness Then the clicking of her engine stops. Silence speaks again Through clouded windows she hears him shouting phrases unknown Then his stumbled pacing sounds nearer and nearer He stops at the sight of her Still sitting in the drivers seat she looks forward aimlessly With a tug at the door handle she follows him into the road He's looking at her eyes turn into faucets longing for her to say something to break the silence She's staring at the emptiness surrounding him They almost meet eachothers gaze, He tries to pull her in, she refuses Then as the silence floods between them She rushes into him The brittle branches are nourished By the tears that violently crash down Grasping on to him, She wills to always be held by him And then he pulls her off She tries to speak, but feathers fill her throat Their eyes meet and search rapidly for secrets His pupils swallow her face With the shadow of the sun behind her, she sees herself within his gaze He asks her "What do you see" And she looks into the car window beside her and croaks " Me. I'm Pathetic" His reflection scrunches his eyes and brings his hand up to his ear He begins to disappear The silence surrounds them once more And she turns around and looks into his eyes one last time And sees two tears racing to the ground

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Your deep oceanic eyes dilate Leaning forward to get that first kiss He lingers, but you don't wait Something he'll fondly reminisce Fingertips trailing his collar Your hands trace whats unknown Just as the world becomes much smaller He pulls you close and let's out a moan Through his deep gazes you giggle Your flurrying lungs won't rest- You can't breathe it's simple This happiness involuntarily expressed The smiles never seem to abate The moments together are pure bliss The sudden unfounded belief in fate- Begins from looking straight into the abyss He makes you tremble and shiver As he laughs avalanches into you You begin to feel like a river You're swept off your feet without clue And then you panic You start to realize You're falling quickly And he won't be there To catch you In between kisses and laughter You tease him "Show me your ******* And then your tone changes And you say The forbidden words And you can't take them back So your eyes begin to well up And form into pools, into ponds, into lakes, into oceans And you're drowning In your emotions The sweetness once upon your teeth Disappears from his soft touch He seeks you for his own relief You're both eachothers crutch Weeks pass and your oceanic eyes Constrict in the mirror With bloodshot moons And panic attacks You can't breathe it's simple like that

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Feb 20, 2016

Feb 20, 2016 at 2:19 AM UTC

Airless breath

Your deep oceanic eyes dilate Leaning forward to get that first kiss He lingers, but you don't wait Something he'll fondly reminisce Fingertips trailing his collar Your hands trace whats unknown Just as the world becomes much smaller He pulls you close and let's out a moan Through his deep gazes you giggle Your flurrying lungs won't rest- You can't breathe it's simple This happiness involuntarily expressed The smiles never seem to abate The moments together are pure bliss The sudden unfounded belief in fate- Begins from looking straight into the abyss He makes you tremble and shiver As he laughs avalanches into you You begin to feel like a river You're swept off your feet without clue And then you panic You start to realize You're falling quickly And he won't be there To catch you In between kisses and laughter You tease him "Show me your ******* And then your tone changes And you say The forbidden words And you can't take them back So your eyes begin to well up And form into pools, into ponds, into lakes, into oceans And you're drowning In your emotions The sweetness once upon your teeth Disappears from his soft touch He seeks you for his own relief You're both eachothers crutch Weeks pass and your oceanic eyes Constrict in the mirror With bloodshot moons And panic attacks You can't breathe it's simple like that

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Persian pink slumping petals on sturdy green stems Brought a smile to her face In return you received her grace But like her heart Upon their final days, cut into pieces lid ******* on tight glass walls limit sight The air is fleeting Slowly they suffocate away

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Feb 12, 2016

Feb 12, 2016 at 1:40 AM UTC

Mason jar petals

Persian pink slumping petals on sturdy green stems Brought a smile to her face In return you received her grace But like her heart Upon their final days, cut into pieces lid ******* on tight glass walls limit sight The air is fleeting Slowly they suffocate away

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There is a certain agony in falling towards loving you Once there was suprise and aw and now I'm standing here confused I miss the days you'd give me flowers Or rub nose to nose I miss when I was all you wanted Yet now I'm here alone You said you need space You said you think this isn't the end You said I'm here to stay But who's to speak for me? Where is my own dignity?

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Feb 12, 2016

Feb 12, 2016 at 1:37 AM UTC

Break my bonds

There is a certain agony in falling towards loving you Once there was suprise and aw and now I'm standing here confused I miss the days you'd give me flowers Or rub nose to nose I miss when I was all you wanted Yet now I'm here alone You said you need space You said you think this isn't the end You said I'm here to stay But who's to speak for me? Where is my own dignity?

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Which part of me would choose? For it is cold in my mind and warm in my heart If only I knew what goes on within your mind So perfectly flawed I could crawl into your brain... The simple masterpiece of all I've seen- " pure beauty" is a mere insult to the magnitude of its indescribable wonder Peering through the amygdala I'll see your past in awe- At how it's brought you here, A creature so wonderfully subtle with tongue And bold in nature: Sui generis. I'd love to journey through the thoughts of you Through and through I'd wander And wander always turns to wonder To be electrified by your synapses And burnt into oblivion- A million pieces of me Becoming blended within Something wholly powerful Is but a dream Locked behind The gazing brown puddles Reflecting the moonbeam

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Nov 20, 2015

Nov 20, 2015 at 9:34 PM UTC

"Like waves within you drown me, shouting"

Which part of me would choose? For it is cold in my mind and warm in my heart If only I knew what goes on within your mind So perfectly flawed I could crawl into your brain... The simple masterpiece of all I've seen- " pure beauty" is a mere insult to the magnitude of its indescribable wonder Peering through the amygdala I'll see your past in awe- At how it's brought you here, A creature so wonderfully subtle with tongue And bold in nature: Sui generis. I'd love to journey through the thoughts of you Through and through I'd wander And wander always turns to wonder To be electrified by your synapses And burnt into oblivion- A million pieces of me Becoming blended within Something wholly powerful Is but a dream Locked behind The gazing brown puddles Reflecting the moonbeam

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I secretly despise you For your forced rejection of status quo Your fascination with death and crows Even though it's clear death frightens you Your incessant opinion that you're a virtuoso So loud, the ear begs to be free, says Van Goh Yet, you act and strut around without a clue I secretly hate you For you disregard tomorrow Focusing solely on your ego I secretly envy you Because at least you're good At playing this game

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Nov 2, 2015

Nov 2, 2015 at 2:40 AM UTC

Dearest stranger,

I secretly despise you For your forced rejection of status quo Your fascination with death and crows Even though it's clear death frightens you Your incessant opinion that you're a virtuoso So loud, the ear begs to be free, says Van Goh Yet, you act and strut around without a clue I secretly hate you For you disregard tomorrow Focusing solely on your ego I secretly envy you Because at least you're good At playing this game

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It's when you lie down stare into the darkness and only see the shadows That you know you've seen the light

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Nov 2, 2015

Nov 2, 2015 at 2:34 AM UTC

Sleep

It's when you lie down stare into the darkness and only see the shadows That you know you've seen the light

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No You say "you don't know her She's brilliant she's understanding She's the best person I've ever met she's my hopes my dreams (gone)" A fantastic character I hate to always be the bearer of truth, But, I've read her cover to cover She's shallow and superficial She puts up a facade of a unique individual and yet she's just within the boundary of normalcy. I've examined all of her (superfluous) pages of work And they only skim the surface of humanities skin Circling around the moles and scars that pucker truth- Brail for the the blind I've dug deep within her words and read between each space bar And there lies no feeling- no emotion... Sheer unintended apathy Still-With many attempts: She doesn't capture the essence of regret or sorrow She merely spits at its feet And it shows Because the pain she displays vanishes From her readers From the pages From the words From the letters From the simple spaces From the idea itself And yet this somehow captivates you Yet unbeknownst to you- you are not regret, nor are you sorrow, You are simply embodying what she barely grasps in hopes to find what lies beneath for yourself But you're burrowing into someone who hasn't yet lived or loved- Who can't describe the burning bubbles that pop in your eyes from the tears of contempt Who can't fathom deflation of breath in your shallowing lungs, nor the dam constricting your veins' blood at loss She can't break down completely with you dangling along So She Keeps you just within reach to describe something she encounters Something she caused Something she can never embody because her "emotions" are a half lie:A secure defense For power over others

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Sep 11, 2015

Sep 11, 2015 at 2:06 AM UTC

A translucent author ( an attack on your heartbreak)

No You say "you don't know her She's brilliant she's understanding She's the best person I've ever met she's my hopes my dreams (gone)" A fantastic character I hate to always be the bearer of truth, But, I've read her cover to cover She's shallow and superficial She puts up a facade of a unique individual and yet she's just within the boundary of normalcy. I've examined all of her (superfluous) pages of work And they only skim the surface of humanities skin Circling around the moles and scars that pucker truth- Brail for the the blind I've dug deep within her words and read between each space bar And there lies no feeling- no emotion... Sheer unintended apathy Still-With many attempts: She doesn't capture the essence of regret or sorrow She merely spits at its feet And it shows Because the pain she displays vanishes From her readers From the pages From the words From the letters From the simple spaces From the idea itself And yet this somehow captivates you Yet unbeknownst to you- you are not regret, nor are you sorrow, You are simply embodying what she barely grasps in hopes to find what lies beneath for yourself But you're burrowing into someone who hasn't yet lived or loved- Who can't describe the burning bubbles that pop in your eyes from the tears of contempt Who can't fathom deflation of breath in your shallowing lungs, nor the dam constricting your veins' blood at loss She can't break down completely with you dangling along So She Keeps you just within reach to describe something she encounters Something she caused Something she can never embody because her "emotions" are a half lie:A secure defense For power over others

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******* in the life surrounding me through a coffee stirrer Gulp Gulp Gulping up what I can whilst I drift away i am drowning in my own lungs Pay attention to my heart beat Cadum Cadum Conundrum- no sleep I panic i must be having a heart attack Close eyes open eyes close eyes Blink Blink Blink I can't sleep Heavy bags Heavy mind ****** nose Headache Get out of bed All awake Lights on Bzzzz Bzzz flicker flicker Lights off Dog scratch No time to relax Awake open gate Wait Wait Wait Curl up in corner doze off Dog bark Sister coughed Wide eyed Anxious cries Door opened Worry for my life Grab my mace Dog runs inside Lock the door Crawl on the floor Lights on Remain awake Skim finger tips Ponder life Freak out Pass out

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May 12, 2015

May 12, 2015 at 2:47 AM UTC

Untitled

******* in the life surrounding me through a coffee stirrer Gulp Gulp Gulping up what I can whilst I drift away i am drowning in my own lungs Pay attention to my heart beat Cadum Cadum Conundrum- no sleep I panic i must be having a heart attack Close eyes open eyes close eyes Blink Blink Blink I can't sleep Heavy bags Heavy mind ****** nose Headache Get out of bed All awake Lights on Bzzzz Bzzz flicker flicker Lights off Dog scratch No time to relax Awake open gate Wait Wait Wait Curl up in corner doze off Dog bark Sister coughed Wide eyed Anxious cries Door opened Worry for my life Grab my mace Dog runs inside Lock the door Crawl on the floor Lights on Remain awake Skim finger tips Ponder life Freak out Pass out

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Enveloped with pine- Stretched across statelines: Beauteous blue upon envious emerald Pooled amongst royal white mountains Adorned with grey jewels of centuries Emitting sweet, earthy aroma She caresses the land. Mother to lakes hidden by her red fir, Provider to the fiery yellow cress Hydrant for all animals alike. M(ama) Rose keeps a chary eye on her joint creation: The provider, the mother, The revered, grandiose puddle is threatened by scarcity. The royal white mountains, Remain royal- but lack frost, And thus the water retreats Shriveling back 13 feet from shoreline This once sacrosanct lake--- Devastated. Keep Tahoe Blue? Keep Tahoe Wet.

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Apr 2, 2015

Apr 2, 2015 at 1:36 AM UTC

Dao w a g a

Enveloped with pine- Stretched across statelines: Beauteous blue upon envious emerald Pooled amongst royal white mountains Adorned with grey jewels of centuries Emitting sweet, earthy aroma She caresses the land. Mother to lakes hidden by her red fir, Provider to the fiery yellow cress Hydrant for all animals alike. M(ama) Rose keeps a chary eye on her joint creation: The provider, the mother, The revered, grandiose puddle is threatened by scarcity. The royal white mountains, Remain royal- but lack frost, And thus the water retreats Shriveling back 13 feet from shoreline This once sacrosanct lake--- Devastated. Keep Tahoe Blue? Keep Tahoe Wet.

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