You’ve given me life
And raised me on your own
Because my father’s in jail
And you always felt alone
When I was young,
You paid attention
You gave me love,
And so much affection
As I grow older older
You only grow colder
Brush me off your shoulder
Then blame me as our lives molder
You tell me I’m selfish
And call me a liar
Your love is my one wish
My deepest desire
I crave your approval
But I’m never enough
All I get is reproval
And I can’t take it
I truly believed
You’d be relieved
And you wouldn’t grieve
If you lost me
Because my whole life
You’ve shown little respect
All I did was hurt
And all you did was neglect
You saw what was happening
As the man you married put his hands on me
And yet, you just stood there
You watched as I was beat
When you had found out
That I was harming myself
All you did was shout
And said all I wanted was attention
When in reality, I did it to feel
Because your neglect numbed me
I wanted to know I was real
And you told me you hated me
You said there must be something wrong with me
To need that much attention
So you agreed to take me to therapy
Where I was diagnosed with depression
You stormed out of there
Saying “you have no reason to be depressed”
But you didn’t know me at all
All the feelings I’d repressed
How could you not see
What you were doing to me
All I wanted was to flee
I wanted to be free
I sunk into a hole
Of darkness and pain and anguish
It swallowed me whole
And you left me alone
Then one day you said
“Why don’t you talk to me?”
And I said “Because every time I try
You never listen, just scream.”
“That’s ******** Grace!”
You screamed in my face
I said, “This is my point.”
All I did was disappoint
No matter what I did
I wasn’t good enough
No matter how hard I worked
You made everything rough
“Mother knows best”
I don’t know about that
It took me so long to be happy
And this is a fact
You didn’t try
You made me say goodbye
To the few people who cared
You made me feel scared
I didn’t feel safe
You’re my biggest fear
At night I’d lay awake
Wondering “Why am I here?”
I reached rock bottom
And once I was there
I knew how to dig myself out
It made me aware
I stopped trying so hard for you, Mother
And I instead tried for me
And since then I’ve been thriving
I’m finally on my feet
Because after years of falling
And nobody calling
I knew what I needed
And that I wasn’t conceited
I wish I could say
My mother helped in some way
But she just dragged me down
At the end of the day
So I believe
That I know best
What’s best for me
Now I can get some rest
I can now be happy
With those who stand by me
And for them I’m so grateful
I don’t have to feel shameful
May 18, 2019
May 18, 2019 at 12:41 PM UTC
You leave me breathless
Our love is effortless
It keeps me restless
You make me high
With you I’m not shy
Your hand’s on my thigh
You put me at peace
My emotions release
When we roam the streets
My love for you consumes me
I never feel gloomy
You’re my one and only
I trust you with my life
You hold no strife
When we go and drive
I love you more
I’ve said before
Forevermore
May 17, 2019
May 17, 2019 at 5:09 PM UTC
You bring me joy when all I knew was despair
You give me love and it made me so aware
You prove to me in every way that you care
You make me so desperately wish I was there
You are my life and make me feel bright
You are my calm throughout the night
You are my happiness, make me feel alright
You are my reason to give up my fright
You have me wrapped around your finger
You and your presence will have me linger
You make me excited and so eager
You never make me feel like I’m meager
You remind me that we always have a tomorrow
You reassure me love is exchanged and not borrowed
You have successfully ridden me of my sorrow
You make me feel the opposite of hollow
I will love you forever
I will always endeavor
I feel better than ever
I cannot wait to see you whenever
May 17, 2019
May 17, 2019 at 5:08 PM UTC
How was it only a month ago
When we decided to let our feelings show
It feels like I’ve loved you forever
Let you go, I will never
This past month, for me, has taught
That true love doesn’t need to be sought
What I feel for you is so genuine
It didn’t take long to let you in
You have my heart
We’re far apart
But distance is nothing
Because we know we have something
This something that we feel
Is so far past real
This past month has shown me
That you and I are much better as “we”
Thank you, my love, for being there
Thank you for proving you care
Thank you for being my light
Thank you for helping me sleep at night
Honestly, I could go on for days
About why I love you, no haze
You complete me, my missing puzzle piece
I’m no longer weak, you’ve slain my beast
Forever, I am yours
As long as you want me, I’m yours
You love who I am, so I’m yours
There’s nobody else for me, I’m yours
I’m so comfortable with you
The love I have for you is true
You’d always ask me why I cried
My trust in you is unwavering, you’ve never lied
You’re all I see
We’re meant to be
You’re all I dream
My shining beam
I love your smile
I think I’ll stay awhile
I love your laugh
You’re like my other half
With your ocean eyes
You wear no disguise
And neither do I
You lift me so high
Six days wasn’t enough
About this, I cannot bluff
It’s been a month, one that I cherish
And for many months to come, my love won’t perish
May 17, 2019
May 17, 2019 at 5:07 PM UTC
When I look at you,
I don’t see darkness
I don’t see rain
I don’t see pain
When I speak to you,
I don’t feel sadness
I don’t feel neglect
You always show respect
When I think of you,
It gives me strength
Because you’re so bright
My brightest light
When I dream of you,
I find myself in your arms
Right where I belong
Right where I feel strong
When I fell in love with you,
I knew it was true
Because you drowned my sorrows
And now I can see tomorrow
May 17, 2019
May 17, 2019 at 5:04 PM UTC
When you say you love me
Is your heart speaking true?
When you say you love me
How do I know it’s you?
When you say you love me
I believe I have worth.
When you say you love me
I radiate with mirth.
When you say you love me
I know that you care.
When you say you love me
I feel so unaware.
When you say you love me
It’s hard for me to know.
When you say you love me
I don’t let my true feelings show.
When you say you love me
I can’t tell if it’s real.
When you say you love me
I don’t know how you truly feel.
May 17, 2019
May 17, 2019 at 5:02 PM UTC
You overtook,
You overlooked,
You swore,
You bore,
Left both of our hearts sore.
At first when you had lost me,
You swore you’d never let go again.
If you’d just have one more chance,
You swore you’d never let go again.
I gave you that chance.
I gave you my heart.
You threw it away.
The fault is yours, at the end of the day.
I supported you.
I gave you my all.
I gave my love to you.
You watched me fall.
You stood back,
Barely said a word.
Watching me as I ached,
Shunning me as I burned.
Yet still at the end of the day,
You claimed to love me.
And at the end of the day,
That was enough for me.
Singing,
Screaming,
Loving,
Pleading.
Like a song, my heart was beating.
My feelings for you,
Palpable and overwhelming,
Venomous and Bittersweet,
I picked my poison.
You made me wish
For more than you could give.
You made me wish
For what you’d once been.
May 17, 2019
May 17, 2019 at 4:56 PM UTC