Gingermoon - Hello Poetry

Now it's all gone Those words I was just thinking in my head. 1st step ..think 2nd ..write Put pen to paper My brain is fried I forgot Bzzzzz, bzzzzzz Go have your head examined. I did and now, No more sounds, just Bzzzzz, bzzzzz, bzzzzzz Teeth clenched, toes curled Ha, if I didn't know better Bzzzzz, bzzzzzz Same look ******** That's some ***** kind of love Strapped down, at least 5 possible Ankles, wrist, head and one across the chest, maybe. No, we need to make sure her heart is free. In case we defib ri late tor her She must be drugged. Stick a needle in her vein "Relax, sweetie. You won't remember a thing". ******** that warmth from my head to my toes. Ok, ready let's go. Bzzzzz, bzzzzzz Teeth clenched, toes bent, look her hands grasping the tool so hard. Bzzzzz, bzzzzz, bzzzzzz "Do you think it's enough". "Yes, we are done". Erasing part of me. I jumped out of that window and ran. Like Chief Out of the cuckoo' s nest. They tried to erase me. Was I so mad? Bzzzzz, bzzzzz. He said I'll hold on to you. I'll go to hell with you and back. I won't let go. I remember that. That's being loved. A lunatic's love story.

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Jul 4, 2016

Jul 4, 2016 at 1:07 PM UTC

A lunatic's love story

Now it's all gone Those words I was just thinking in my head. 1st step ..think 2nd ..write Put pen to paper My brain is fried I forgot Bzzzzz, bzzzzzz Go have your head examined. I did and now, No more sounds, just Bzzzzz, bzzzzz, bzzzzzz Teeth clenched, toes curled Ha, if I didn't know better Bzzzzz, bzzzzzz Same look ******** That's some ***** kind of love Strapped down, at least 5 possible Ankles, wrist, head and one across the chest, maybe. No, we need to make sure her heart is free. In case we defib ri late tor her She must be drugged. Stick a needle in her vein "Relax, sweetie. You won't remember a thing". ******** that warmth from my head to my toes. Ok, ready let's go. Bzzzzz, bzzzzzz Teeth clenched, toes bent, look her hands grasping the tool so hard. Bzzzzz, bzzzzz, bzzzzzz "Do you think it's enough". "Yes, we are done". Erasing part of me. I jumped out of that window and ran. Like Chief Out of the cuckoo' s nest. They tried to erase me. Was I so mad? Bzzzzz, bzzzzz. He said I'll hold on to you. I'll go to hell with you and back. I won't let go. I remember that. That's being loved. A lunatic's love story.

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Somebody sweep me off my feet Slow down, hurry up What are we waiting for Train train Blowing my whistle Warning you at the cross street I seem to be the conductor Maybe I need to be just another passenger Blowing the whistle Train, train The train horn always blows At the cross streets Maybe I'm deaf and blind. I cross those tracks anyway. Where did you come from Train train Slamming into the hard concrete Feeling that heavy steel on steel I didn't see or hear But I felt the vibration in my chest My body shakes Interrupting my train Of thoughts Train train Blowing her whistle Fell asleep at the wheel Am I on the train Or driving Rubbing the sleep from my eyes As I feel the force of power Train train Running down the tracks Penny flattening on the metal Now its a keepsake Train train Stop don't you see the lights flashing Can't we hear the Interrupting soundtrack Smoking engineering It's warning whistle Smiling today whenever I hear That train Train train Infinite trip Watching the scenery From my minds eye Instead I ran Faster so I could Jumpstart Train train I'm pulled up My eyes have adjusted Darkness Gearing down Train train Next STOP Whistle sound Thunder Smaller as I watch Their train Leaving Alone in station Train train train train

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Jul 4, 2016

Jul 4, 2016 at 12:26 PM UTC

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Somebody sweep me off my feet Slow down, hurry up What are we waiting for Train train Blowing my whistle Warning you at the cross street I seem to be the conductor Maybe I need to be just another passenger Blowing the whistle Train, train The train horn always blows At the cross streets Maybe I'm deaf and blind. I cross those tracks anyway. Where did you come from Train train Slamming into the hard concrete Feeling that heavy steel on steel I didn't see or hear But I felt the vibration in my chest My body shakes Interrupting my train Of thoughts Train train Blowing her whistle Fell asleep at the wheel Am I on the train Or driving Rubbing the sleep from my eyes As I feel the force of power Train train Running down the tracks Penny flattening on the metal Now its a keepsake Train train Stop don't you see the lights flashing Can't we hear the Interrupting soundtrack Smoking engineering It's warning whistle Smiling today whenever I hear That train Train train Infinite trip Watching the scenery From my minds eye Instead I ran Faster so I could Jumpstart Train train I'm pulled up My eyes have adjusted Darkness Gearing down Train train Next STOP Whistle sound Thunder Smaller as I watch Their train Leaving Alone in station Train train train train

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Drowning in the pile of crap I've brought in my life Peeling off the layers Driving in the spikes Swords plunged Sticky Smell I can't write it down Don't want you to feel The way I do Understand. the overwhelming Crippling feeling Of drowning Head nodding BAM **** Not changing yourself myself

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Jul 2, 2016

Jul 2, 2016 at 2:12 PM UTC

Journ

Drowning in the pile of crap I've brought in my life Peeling off the layers Driving in the spikes Swords plunged Sticky Smell I can't write it down Don't want you to feel The way I do Understand. the overwhelming Crippling feeling Of drowning Head nodding BAM **** Not changing yourself myself

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Smother me Cover me Lather me Gather me Wash me Wish me Love me **** me Kick me Crush me Fix me Fill me Up

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Jul 2, 2016

Jul 2, 2016 at 2:05 PM UTC

Fill me. .Up

Smother me Cover me Lather me Gather me Wash me Wish me Love me **** me Kick me Crush me Fix me Fill me Up

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Sometimes a shot in the heart Isn't Cupid's arrow But a bullet From your Lover's muzzleloader.

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Jul 2, 2016

Jul 2, 2016 at 10:44 AM UTC

Love sometimes = Death

Sometimes a shot in the heart Isn't Cupid's arrow But a bullet From your Lover's muzzleloader.

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Likes being glad Not mad Glad, I'm not mad It may be a fad Which would be sad But not bad I'm glad, not mad Not bad No use to be sad Glad I have my lab Would like to lose my flab And get back my hard ab That's Labrador Who walks on all fours And takes a rest on my floor In front of my door. Don't want to be a ***** That would be a chore I've done it before It's such a bore Anyone can add to this fad It ain't all bad Just glad I ain't sad JUST GOING MAD.

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Jul 2, 2016

Jul 2, 2016 at 10:32 AM UTC

Rhyming mad

Likes being glad Not mad Glad, I'm not mad It may be a fad Which would be sad But not bad I'm glad, not mad Not bad No use to be sad Glad I have my lab Would like to lose my flab And get back my hard ab That's Labrador Who walks on all fours And takes a rest on my floor In front of my door. Don't want to be a ***** That would be a chore I've done it before It's such a bore Anyone can add to this fad It ain't all bad Just glad I ain't sad JUST GOING MAD.

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Feeling shame I hate the real Cruel heart Turned inward Facing outward Shame inside Disapproving stare Don't look Deep in this heart Shallow thinking Shame covering Me False pride Interrupting My mind Forgets My name I hate this feeling Hiding in my mind Digging through the trap I've laid Down today The list on yellow pads Wonder ing Will my stripping Down Cover me Stuck in the Root of the problem Heart

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Jun 22, 2016

Jun 22, 2016 at 10:45 PM UTC

Shame

Feeling shame I hate the real Cruel heart Turned inward Facing outward Shame inside Disapproving stare Don't look Deep in this heart Shallow thinking Shame covering Me False pride Interrupting My mind Forgets My name I hate this feeling Hiding in my mind Digging through the trap I've laid Down today The list on yellow pads Wonder ing Will my stripping Down Cover me Stuck in the Root of the problem Heart

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Out of the Shadows Out of the shadows Cast in the light It seems to be Only me Out of the shadows Cast in the light For the world too see I wonder why You won't let me be me I would rather be In love with me In secret I never wanted to be I'm not a poet you see But in the shadows I'm so alone Why For the world to see Why Humiliate me A side glance there In the shadows It's just a fantasy You only wrote What the world wanted to see Is it just fantasy I'm not a poet you see But in the shadows I'm free to be me Scared and shaking It's so hard to write It gives my pen such a fright But out of the shadows You said it's got to be Because I'll show you It's a fantasy It's you, It's me It'll never be we.

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Jun 17, 2016

Jun 17, 2016 at 12:27 PM UTC

Out of the shadows

Out of the Shadows Out of the shadows Cast in the light It seems to be Only me Out of the shadows Cast in the light For the world too see I wonder why You won't let me be me I would rather be In love with me In secret I never wanted to be I'm not a poet you see But in the shadows I'm so alone Why For the world to see Why Humiliate me A side glance there In the shadows It's just a fantasy You only wrote What the world wanted to see Is it just fantasy I'm not a poet you see But in the shadows I'm free to be me Scared and shaking It's so hard to write It gives my pen such a fright But out of the shadows You said it's got to be Because I'll show you It's a fantasy It's you, It's me It'll never be we.

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