I look in the mirror, in disbelief of who i have became.
I never knew i would be in this life.
Someone with goals.
Someone with hope.
My life completely changed for the good.
A New Me.
Jul 21, 2022
Jul 21, 2022 at 6:01 PM UTC
For now, life is great.
Just be happy.
Because "for now" does not last
forever.
Jun 13, 2019
Jun 13, 2019 at 4:41 PM UTC
People say don't think with your heart.
Well I don't, I think with my brain.
I have learned to isolate and manipulate.
To feel everything and to feel completely nothing.
It didn't take long to realize I was stuck in a deep deep hole.
I can't allow myself to love, even if I wanted to.
There is a huge wall I cant tear down.
One guy... can ruin your whole future.
My love life is gone without a trace.
My screams cannot be heard.
I can feel myself being numb.
I can feel the emptiness in my heart.
But I am not necessarily upset.
I am glad I wont let another male figure hurt me.
Cheers to my demons.
Adios to my once innocent soul.
Feb 22, 2019
Feb 22, 2019 at 10:11 PM UTC
Laying on the bathroom floor.
I feel everything.
I feel nothing.
I need to cry.
I cant cry.
What are you doing to me?
Why are you trying to ruin me?
My eyes are shut, I cant see.
But I am glad I am blind.
Nothing to feel bad about.
Nothing to admire, no doubts.
Why do I write?
Why I am not to sure myself.
Its a high I get without a smoke.
This bathroom floor feels so cold.
So nice, so alone.
But what do you do in your alone time?
Leave it in the comments.
Feb 22, 2019
Feb 22, 2019 at 11:50 AM UTC
I thought I knew love.
When I met you I thought I knew love.
The feeling of consumption when we kissed.
The air thickening.
You said you loved me too.
We would never be apart.
You held my hand so gently and promised a life filled with love.
How did you turn on me so quickly?
Through tears and pain?
I never wanted a goodbye.
But now I see clearly.
You were a damsel in distress.
And me? I was your prince charming.
But I couldn't be.
I didn't know how.
I couldn't even save myself.
So what is love?
Inevitable heartbreak.
Feb 22, 2019
Feb 22, 2019 at 11:37 AM UTC
You are crying. There is no one around but you. You are dying for some happiness. Smoking a joint filled with the best **** in town but your tears are making the wrap soggy and so fragile it breaks in your hand. A knock on your door. Your friend is here to cheer you up. She talks and talks and all the thoughtful words sink deep into your skin. Your heart begins to race while she expresses her favorite most frightening memories with you. You are getting hyper and having such a blast! You decided to invite some more friends. Quickly a party starts to emerge and you cant seem to get it under control. You are scared from all the riots and things breaking. The party is no longer in your hands. The cops arrive. The friend is ******* the party was an overdose. and the cops didn't make it in time.
Feb 22, 2019
Feb 22, 2019 at 11:20 AM UTC