Hoping to be that which I can't
hoping to see you smile at last
I am lost in this shadow
wanting to see the light
Hoping for some change
hoping for revenge
I do not understand the steps you take
and I don't want to partake
Hoping to get away
hoping to stay the same
conflict arises within me
every hour of every day
Oct 22, 2019
Oct 22, 2019 at 2:28 AM UTC
Changes my heart makes
without the approval of my head
from one to the next, not much thought
It's like a wicked game
giving all the love away
with not much left at the end
Always the same narrative
the same story
easily changing the players
without being sorry
Truly vile
the heart loves telling those lies
I try to control it
but it always leads to my downfall
Mar 2, 2019
Mar 2, 2019 at 11:52 PM UTC
I need you now
more than ever before
But you still leave
and walk out that door
No regards for feelings
all our history
is clearly fleeting
My mind races
as my heart paces
The efforts are futile
I feel you slipping away
further everyday
And I just watch
wishing you would stay
Nov 17, 2018
Nov 17, 2018 at 2:58 AM UTC
Its a need
One I don't want to address
I feel it all around
The constant longing
My dreams turn to you
But my actions tear us apart
I wish to stop
To just stand with you
On last time
Our hearts pounding
Like it used to be
No fear surrounding
Nov 17, 2018
Nov 17, 2018 at 2:47 AM UTC
Imposing mountains
Expanding forests
Nature all around.
Images of my childhood
pass me by
Weekends by the beach
and long drives
to reach those trees
The kindness
of my people
never far behind
I wish to go back
To my home in the hills
With mango trees
and fresh breeze
Sep 11, 2018
Sep 11, 2018 at 12:21 AM UTC
I've imagined it many times
You and me together
All those years from now
I see us come alive
Enjoing each other
and living our best life
With a nice place
where we can be free
and just be together at last
It will be our happy place
the house atop the hills
that we have created
now come alive
Cozy winter nights
spent together by the fire
and summer afternoons
spent together by the pool
This will be our life
as we have discussed it
many times
you and I
from here on out
Aug 29, 2018
Aug 29, 2018 at 12:38 AM UTC
Behind the wheel
I remember how you loved
Our long drives
Though winding streets
Going down those hills
I miss the days
Playing in the white sand
Watching the pink hues
As we lay next to each other
Forgetting our blues
We used to talk
For hours
Non-stop
About our dreams
And our hopes
Wishing to connect
Going deeper
We would forget
That we were beaten
At our own game
Aug 15, 2018
Aug 15, 2018 at 12:34 AM UTC
I just want to scream it out
tell everyone I know
about it
Yet we both know
the dangers of our thoughts
of our touch
and of our love
We just want to be
exists without worries
without pain
without fear
But the powers that be
will not let us be
Jul 24, 2018
Jul 24, 2018 at 7:44 PM UTC
Watching from afar,
knowing it cant happen.
Admiring the subtle beauty,
and the simple grace.
Bright eyes connect with mine,
and you give me that beautiful smile,
making my heart desire.
There is truly no hope in this.
Yet my heart ignores my head,
and hurts when it is mislead.
Jul 17, 2018
Jul 17, 2018 at 12:18 AM UTC
I remember that night.
Like a pristine movie
on my mind.
I replay it all the time.
How we longed
hoping it wasn't a crime.
Your kisses soft and sweet,
Ensured I lost myself
to the beat.
Caressing your soft skin.
Trying to find
the powers within.
Jul 14, 2018
Jul 14, 2018 at 11:51 PM UTC