"Unfortunately we have decided to not move forward with your application"
no amount of work or dedication
has proven enough to show my potential
changing careers has proved consequential
we leave high school as children, expected to know
what’s the path, where to go
“What are your weaknesses? What are your strengths?"
being scrutizined and put into ranks
not for who I am or what I can become
but from what a piece of paper shows to some
of my worth, of my performance
for a bunch of big bosses that won’t give me a chance
I’m applying to jobs, but am I applying myself
during this time these books are collecting dust on the shelf
it’s time to move, it’s time to get better
until I accept that offer, that letter
Aug 8, 2020
Aug 8, 2020 at 12:54 AM UTC
all these thoughts
but none cohesive enough
to understand
all this stuff
what is this feeling
a heavy chest
why am never
doing my best
trying to write these feelings out
cannot believe this is still happening
the past memories in my head
keep on panning
is this a sign
or is this me
is this temporary
will this feeling ever flee
I keep trying
I have no other choice
settle down
unscramble the noise
Aug 8, 2020
Aug 8, 2020 at 12:24 AM UTC
How could I ever be enough
my skin is thin, your words are rough
who can I let in when I am in doubt
tired of crying, I feel a drought
approaching as I come to understand
the face that is hiding underneath this strand
of hair that’s tied up in a messy bun
looking in the mirror and I am done
of feeling sorry for myself and what I am not
of fighting the battle that I have fought
“I love myself” is what I WILL say
when the time comes, when it’s the day
that insecurity is overshadowed by
self love, confidence, and when I stop asking why.
May 15, 2019
May 15, 2019 at 1:16 AM UTC