FuckingFidelity69
drums, music, books, drawing, writing, painting, coloring; these things own my heart... / / It is in herself she will find the strength she needs. Tough times don't last.... Tough people do! / / Poetry is just the evidence of life. If your life is burning well, poetry is just the ash. ― Leonard Cohen
I hate this life so very much. The dope... Just never enough. No matter what I do. No matter where I go. I feel alone. I am unknown. There is no where's for me to roam. This drug is toxic. The chemicals hypnotic. My teeth grinding. Turned to powdered slots. As each moment passes the next, it's all just a big fuckking blur. The time has all past. And the mad hatter has finally crashed. There has never been a better time then this! Where there's nothing here that's even left. Everybody has stopped believin in what was gunna leave them next. The possibilities were never ever even really their!! So left behind. There is no more time.
Aug 21, 2016
Aug 21, 2016 at 3:03 AM UTC
Crazy, dumd, ugly
Give me another word to through in this poem
This **** describes me
This **** defines me
Don't you know?
Haven't you heard?!
Disappointing, unworthy, AND useless!?!?
Okay....
(Schizophrenia, learning disability, drug use etc.)
**** I guess I found an excuss for almost every defining, outlining, "description" about me!!!
Oct 21, 2015
Oct 21, 2015 at 3:41 PM UTC
Can't sleep
Can't think
Numb to this sick place
....Sereal....
Feeling as if im unreal
Why can't I just deal
****
Maybe today you'll realize nothing is make believe....
Why can't I just get up and ******* leave?!
These thought's keep me hellbound
Can't sleep
Can't think
But yet another day arises
Yesterday just like today
Today just like tomorrow
So it goes.....
Hope gone
Distortion strives to stay alive...
Success!!!
Unclear
Days blend
Dead?
Alive?
Still here
Numb
Oct 21, 2015
Oct 21, 2015 at 3:33 PM UTC
When will this madness bend into "REALITY"
I'm stuck inside my brain
This prison
Is
INSANITY
When I decide to leave this ******* tragedy all this fantasy will melt away to SANITY!
You can't even compare to my mother ******* MENTALITY!!!
Oct 21, 2015
Oct 21, 2015 at 3:16 PM UTC
When she enters a worthless life she paints a ******* beautiful picture Then destroys everything in the path
When she loves she loves with her whole entire black hole of A heart
When she hates, the passionate evil she creates ignites a fiery death
Its all part of this plan that Izzy Broaden has made into a wonderful psychotic abstract life
WORTHLESS
WONDROUS
EMBRACING
LIFE!
On my level?
HA! HA! HA!
You cannot even began to fathom where to find my level
When you try to wrap your ******* stupid brain around the dimension where to start looking for my Impenetrable Levels
you get demolished by my thoughts
Aug 21, 2015
Aug 21, 2015 at 3:34 PM UTC
This story was never meant to began
Self pity
Self destruction
The need for love
So much hate and anger
GO AWAY!!
"Please make it stop!" I yell.
Is now the time to say THE END
YES!
Now... Lay your head down
Close your eyes
This story has ended...
Not just the chapter any longer
THE STORY...
All the time is lost & all the words we said are now just meaningless whispers....
Aug 20, 2015
Aug 20, 2015 at 4:46 PM UTC
There is no end to this madness that I, that you, that we have manifested in only our minds to be real
ONLY ARE MINDS!
Any longer
Our souls intertwine
Twisted like that drug that used to get us spun
YES!
The one that turned this all into malicious, dark, twisted, ****** up, but unmistakable LOVE!
This lonely fidelity that we both have unknowingly made a reality is part of this crazed ambitious death kissed love
Your lips touch the glass
Paranoid crystals fill your lungs
Feeling; Surreal
Energy; Unbelievable
Fight
****
Fall
****
When will this end?!
Hate
Pain
LOVE!
There is NO end to this madness...
Aug 20, 2015
Aug 20, 2015 at 4:37 PM UTC
I love you so much. Too much.
I want you. I need you.
There for i cannot. Will not.
Let myself have you.
I'm stuck. I'm trapped. I do not know how to get out out.
Help me. Love me. Need me. Want me. Kiss me.
Throw me up against the wall. The floor.
Throw me on the bed.
Make love to me hard and passionate.
Look me in the eyes and tell me you ******* hate me and need me!
Take to me *****
Choke me. Slap me. Pull my hair. cut me.
You **** her. I **** him. Together. Beat them. Too death.
It turned me on.
Blood
**** me
Guts
Cut me
I touched myself.
You watched.
Your *** in my cuts.
Needle
******
Veins
Blood
Sick twisted ****** up love.
I need it
Turn me on
Use me
**** me
LOVE!
Passion like no other.
****
*****
****** up
Sick in the head
LOVE!
Stab me
Slap me
Beat me
You did it
Lay with me as the blood of the wound leaks out.
WAKE UP!
I'm dead
Get high
Needle
******
Veins
Blood
To the point of no return.
Your dead
TOGETHER.
Together we lay here.
Here in this bed.
******
LOVE
BLOOD
I love you so much. Too much.
I want you. I need you.
There for I cannot. will not.
Let myself have you.
LOVE!
Aug 20, 2015
Aug 20, 2015 at 4:18 PM UTC