Lately,
this friendship has made me feel less like a human:
more like a checkbox in a list.
A hollow square that can only be filled inside the lines with black ink.
One row, one column,
one single spot where I exist in your world.
I liked your old list,
where I was allowed to be whatever I am.
Any shape,
all the colors,
no rows or columns.
The new list makes me wonder if you should find a new friend.
Sep 27, 2025
Sep 27, 2025 at 1:38 AM UTC
Vulnerability can lead to connection instead of harm.
Pt I
Practice
His voice still echoes.
Sometimes,
when we talk,
I see your lips moving
but hear his voice.
In those moments,
I remain silent,
to stay safe.
It's hard to get to know me,
I know that,
and I am sorry.
It's just,
I don't know that I can trust you,
or if you'll just become the next voice in my head.
Sep 6, 2025
Sep 6, 2025 at 10:12 PM UTC
you changed something this weekend
shifted
locked
usually so prepared,
usually I know
but this feeling, it _rattled_ me
with warmth
with fear
with the understanding that things are different now
it wasn't you gleaming with sweat,
standing at an overlook of a fairytale waterfall,
brimming with a joy found only in nature,
waiting
it wasn't your face flickering with firelight,
understanding a deep part of me,
your voice a lullaby,
melting me like the shake in your hand
it wasn't walking through technicolor geyser pools,
alone together behind our group,
asking to hold my hand for an energy transfer,
close enough to see the striations in your eyes
__no__
it was in a gas station
_full of strangers that disappeared the moment you smiled at me
and I lost control of my smile that echoed back_
warmth
and
fear
something changed this weekend
shifted
locked
Aug 27, 2025
Aug 27, 2025 at 12:01 AM UTC
Awaken,
the light of dawn emanates between
black curtains.
Listen,
birds are singing a welcoming to
the coming sun.
Stretch,
so long my body melts
off the edges of my mattress.
From my fingers to my toes,
I feel infinite.
Rise,
to a freshly brewed coffee.
The smell recharging me
before my cup reaches my lips.
Open,
the window,
feel that breeze,
calling me to join.
Bask,
in the approach of a new day.
Together.
_The warmth of it all will heat my soul._
Jun 6, 2025
Jun 6, 2025 at 11:07 AM UTC
Can you hear them?
They whisper,
you don’t deserve it, run, you’ll never deserve it
Or are they just in my head?
you’re going to f••• this up, run now, don’t let him catch you
You must hear them too.
Please.
Please tell me you hear them.
he only wants you because he doesn’t know you, run, before it’s too late
Or are they just in my head?
_push him away, build the barricade, run, run faster than ever before, he doesn’t want you, he could never want you._
May 20, 2025
May 20, 2025 at 1:37 AM UTC
_unintended act
separating me from it
try to save myself_
May 16, 2025
May 16, 2025 at 2:30 PM UTC
One new day.
That’s all it takes.
One glance,
_one single sentence_
can lead to conversations
lasting hours.
Stranger
no longer.
A fleeting moment captured,
transforms into a routine.
One day.
That’s all it takes.
Apr 29, 2025
Apr 29, 2025 at 9:27 PM UTC
__I’m going to quit you,
like the bad habit you are.__
You’re a vice,
both constrictive
and a weakness.
_You’ve already wasted so much of my time._
__So I’m quitting you,
like the bad habit you are.
Cold turkey.__
Apr 21, 2025
Apr 21, 2025 at 1:12 PM UTC
Is there a moment where it clicks?
_Maybe you feel your pieces fall into place and just know._
Is there a moment of clarity where you realize you’re whole (enough) once again, and ready to brave the world?
_Your precious, fractured heart is mended to the point of giving it again._
Or is it something where you realize you just have to jump?
_If you don’t do it now,
maybe you never will._
Apr 17, 2025
Apr 17, 2025 at 11:12 AM UTC
How does one introduce themself to their loneliness?
__Can we skip the pleasantries?__
_We know each other without introduction._
__A firm handshake?__
_To show authority,
a play with power._
__A smile?__
_Once seen, and still accepted._
__A warm embrace?__
_Maybe that’s too far._
Apr 13, 2025
Apr 13, 2025 at 10:57 PM UTC