Am I just a token?
Am I a ghost only visible to you?
Clock strikes ten and the day is done.
We move further away and the pictures come out to play.
The gaps in the silence grow immensely and change is in the harsh wind.
It's only a matter of time until you leave.
The films rewind to yesterday.
The stars hide their light and I am lost.
I cannot go home.
Where do I belong?
Oct 4, 2016
Oct 4, 2016 at 5:20 AM UTC
Could we run to the ends of the earth?
I can still see you running in the field against the pale moonlight.
I can't chase you anymore,Darling.
You were my familiar, you were my home.
I wanted to reach out for you but instead I pushed you away.
Pain has changed me and I'm back to where I started.
I knew it was over when I could not rise to meet your eyes.
I shouldn't dwell on the memories but they used to sustain me.
If only, I had made another choice, a different route
then you would be untarnished by my destructive touch.
You can't lose yourself if you never met me.
I can finally accept my sins and let my demons consume me whole.
All we have left are these hollow words.
Sep 21, 2016
Sep 21, 2016 at 4:43 AM UTC
I kneel on the ground desperately searching in the ashes and embers of who I used to be. The flecks of falling memories whisper and whirl lightly around me.
If I can find a fragment within these piles of haunted bones. Perhaps, then I can change what has been done and undo my damaging blunders.
Time is frozen here in my own perpetual limbo. I don't wish to go forward but back to a time when I was blissfully naive and innocent, not bitter and tragic.
Yet, day after day, I'm doomed to repeat this infinite process and never become the husk of my past self.
Words have gone and I'm left in the maddening solitude.
Mar 21, 2016
Mar 21, 2016 at 12:18 AM UTC
The car rattles along and the cityscape comes into sight. The city bustles with life and I watch the never-ending whirlwind of characters in a motion picture show. The flickers of city light diffuses and casts a shine on the photographic opportunities.
I see you and how you are oblivious to your own enchanting and radiant soul.
You are more stunning than the stars, yet also unattainable and heartbreakingly beautiful to gaze upon. I hope someday you achieve your goal of happiness and that you meet someone truly worthy of you. All I want to do is embrace you, ease your pain, carry your sorrows and share your joys. However, I know that I will never have the privilege.
I sense something on the horizon that beckons and pulls me in. Do I resist or investigate the call? I hope that in the future, I don’t instigate a further parting of ways. The only thing that would compel me to do that would be if that I were to cause you great harm emotionally in some way, intentionally or not. I will endeavor to the best of my ability not to. But like everyone else I’ve ever known, I might still push you away.
You are so wonderful to me but how am I even worth of being a part of your life? I don’t understand and I’ll try not to disappear. Honestly, you would be better off if I did.
In the future we might walk right past each other and in a flash we become strangers again. Sadly, all of our history and time together have ceased to be. Of course, I will inevitably be the one to blame. Oh Darling but it was worth the while.
Feb 10, 2016
Feb 10, 2016 at 5:00 AM UTC
Hours and hours dwindle by, nights lost,
memories made and conversations until the sun rises.
You didn’t want me in the light of day.
Days and years go by and we still ignore the forgotten truth.
I accept and deny but it’s worth it to see you smile again.
My wasted heart shall keep me company.
I have moved on and time has helped me heal a little.
All I want to do is shatter in a million pieces
but I suppose that I’m stuck in
this kaleidoscope of an impossible fantasy.
Feb 10, 2016
Feb 10, 2016 at 4:57 AM UTC
There is no one to run to now,
the lights have dimmed,
I can’t see the stars anymore,
they have lost their comforting shine,
I need time to mourn the loss of what could have been,
I’m such a fool, I took a risk,
maybe I can learn to forgive myself but I can’t forget,
I wouldn’t trade an iota of this pain because at least then I can feel something
and not be numb,
where reality differs from imagination,
I must refrain from looking back at the past,
the magic diminishes and familiar places are tarnished,
we must start anew,
as the facade disintegrates,
I’m left with my small semblance of self,
I will cast the walls back up again and keep my heart in its cage,
run as far as you can from this tragic kaleidoscope,
get too close and you will get cut by the shattered pieces,
as time fleets, I will pick up my pieces and try my best to move on.
Nov 22, 2015
Nov 22, 2015 at 5:45 AM UTC
Start
explore and discover
risky adventures
stories of the past
secret confessions
ocarina song sequestered within
player two
heart container
power up
try and lose
hide and recover
glitch
reach out for help
wrong time wrong place
will there ever be a right time?
obstacle after obstacle
cycle all over again
such a coward
big boss challenge
fight or run?
Game over or continue?
Oct 16, 2015
Oct 16, 2015 at 4:18 AM UTC
As I straddle your legs, I tickle you with delightful intentions and you respond with mirth. Little dots that adorn your body shimmer in the sunlight and whisper lovely promises. I lean down and taste your sweet lips with a gentle kiss. I gaze into your eyes and I see all of the answers to my questions that I have been looking for. I think to myself and wonder how I got so lucky. Then sadly, I wake up. As the lingering touches fade, the ghost of you haunts me with what could be.
Oct 10, 2015
Oct 10, 2015 at 5:22 AM UTC
There was a fiery spark in your eyes when you met my gaze.
The days are fleeting in a summery haze.
What can I do now that the lovely flame has died.
In the dimming light, I can see us drifting apart.
It is bittersweet but I will never regret the time we had together.
You deserve far better and I won't hold you back.
I wish I didn't have to hurt you but it's inevitable,darling.
I was meant to walk the city alone and everything has changed.
Aug 30, 2015
Aug 30, 2015 at 3:09 AM UTC
Heed the liars.
Beware of secrets.
Heed the false ones.
Beware of illusions.
How can I discern what's right?
Should I run from the dark or surrender?
Perhaps there's hidden magic within?
Confrontation is necessary.
Yet, I'm scared of being burnt by the light.
I don't want to expose the scars.
I weigh the options for eons.
I'm at war with myself.
Struggling to find truth.
Drowning in a black and white sea.
Only I can save myself.
May 22, 2015
May 22, 2015 at 4:53 AM UTC