Would it be ok if I took some of your time?
Would it be ok if I wrote you a rhyme?
Would it be ok if I opened my heart?
Would it be ok if I took on the part
Of being your girl and showed you a view,
One that only a real woman could do?
Would it be ok if I could make you smile?
Would it be ok if I held you awhile?
Would it be ok if I kissed your face?
Would it be ok if I were to replace
All the girls in your past that just wouldn't do
And vow to be faithful and always be true?
Would it be alright to look in your eyes?
Would it be alright to never tell lies?
Would it be alright to find a way?
Would it be alright to long for the day
To pull you close and whisper in your ear
And tell you our feelings are nothing to fear?
Would it be ok if I took some of your time?
Would it be ok if I wrote you a rhyme?
To tell you there's nothing I'd rather do
Than spend my whole life loving only you…
Jan 29, 2021
Jan 29, 2021 at 11:41 PM UTC
Every day is the same old thing.
Seeing you with her makes my heart sting.
The way your eyes look at her with desire,
I feel as though my whole world is on fire.
I think it hurts so much to see,
Because that's how you used to look at me.
You told me you wished I could see how beautiful I am.
On those bad days where nothing makes me smile, you can.
You're funny and caring and sweet to me,
But lately it seems like it's only when you want to be.
Whenever she's around, acknowledging me comes to an end,
Even though you told me I'm your best friend.
I try to move on.
I want these feelings gone,
But when I'm with you I remember why
I love you because you're what I want in a guy.
I've never met anyone else like you.
Who sees the world the way I do?
Do you think your life would be better
If you thought maybe we were meant to be together?
But I don't think you will ever know,
So the time has come to let you go.
Some people just aren't meant to stay in our lives forever,
So I decided to write you this final letter.
I know that you will never reply
Because this is where I finally say goodbye.
Jan 29, 2021
Jan 29, 2021 at 11:39 PM UTC
You left and you didn’t even give a **** i'm your daughter for god’s sake do I mean nothing to you?
I use to think you just needed time
but now I know for a fact your nothing but a deadbeat and you ain’t never gonna get no love from me
You left me and didn’t even say goodbye
Because I never meant **** to you did I?!?
I’m a mistake to you ain’t I!?
I bet I am, you laugh about me with your new girl don’t you?
I'm nothing to you and your nothing to me
At least we’re even
I use to look up to you I was so blinded by your ********
I thought you were a dad
The thought of that now makes me laugh my *** off
Remember my 1st birthday? No?
How about the second? Third? Fourth? Fifth? No? That's cause you weren’t there!
Mom was there tho even she made it that's saying a lot man
You don’t even know about the **** I feel when I think of your *******
I feel like **** when I think of you
I cry like an idiot
Screaming at god sayin ‘’WHY WASN’T I ENOUGH FOR YOU“
I never get the answer
Now I know why
Because you’d only give me excuses
Saying the same thing all deadbeats say
I know now I’ve made it this far without you I know I don’t need you
Your just one page in my 5000 page book
Your the page I ripped out and burned
Now all i gotta do when I think of you is put up both my middle fingers and say “I JUST DON’T GIVE A ****
It makes me feel like a god
Makes me feel like I could fly to the moon because it reminds me you ain’t ****
Dec 17, 2020
Dec 17, 2020 at 1:48 PM UTC
Here I sit
Trying to put out the fire I set
Trying to burn out all my thoughts
Burn out all the expectations
Burn out all the disappointment
Burn out all the flaws
Burn out everything I hate about myself
I won't make it out..
Dec 17, 2020
Dec 17, 2020 at 1:38 PM UTC
You said you wanted to be an actor
Well you got the part
You were playing your character so well you made me think you actually loved me
But you didn't, it was all just scene one right?
Play rehearsal to you I guess
because you never cared about, me never loved me
i’m nothing to you just a temporary setback when she’s not there but
even then I don’t exist to you anymore
I’m nothing but a background character
You don’t even look me anymore
and it hurts me to hear that everything go so good between you and her
I want to break down and cry on the spot
But that’s not in the script is it?
It doesn't matter to you, you only see her
I’m fading into the background as I watch the rest of the play
you never cared it was just one scene in the whole grand play
I want it all to stop
I can’t handle this anymore
I want to yell cut and end this agony
It all hurts way too much
The plays over and done with
I fell for someone who wasn’t even real
I lost all feeling of reality after that
When the curtains closed and it was all said and done you took a piece of me with you
Now i’m left here with part of myself missing
Part that I’m never getting back
I feel so ******* broken
I don’t want my life anymore, give the role to someone else…
and even after all the **** that happened throughout this stupid play
I still love you…
Dec 2, 2020
Dec 2, 2020 at 12:21 PM UTC
Trapped behind the mirror
All the makeup
Trapped behind the pain
All the fake smiles
Trapped behind the expectations
All the weight
Trapped behind the mask
All the lies
Trapped by the grave
she dug for herself every day
Throwing dirt on herself
With every lie
With every expectation
With all the pain
With all the makeup she cakes on her skin
Trapped by her own fear
Dec 1, 2020
Dec 1, 2020 at 12:47 PM UTC