and there i go again.
trying to pick up the broken pieces
of the canvas i call "my life"
thought i was over that phase
thought i was finding myself
thought i was in a better place
didn't think it would slowly creep back into my life.
Aug 26, 2020
Aug 26, 2020 at 3:07 AM UTC
i guess you just thought
that i'd wait forever.
well i won't,
and i'm not.
you thought you had
your hooks deep in me.
well you don't,
you were caught.
and now
there is nothing.
you thought,
and that was your first mistake
Sep 15, 2019
Sep 15, 2019 at 1:48 PM UTC
who really knows me?
all of me?
no one.
i don't think if they did,
they could accept all of me.
the good days,
the bad days,
and the sad days.
i disappoint,
i push away,
and i'm hard to love,
but only because i make it so.
why you ask...
i don't trust anyone
with my most prize possession.
mi corazon.
Aug 23, 2019
Aug 23, 2019 at 10:35 AM UTC
it had been years,
but you still make
my breath catch.
i loved that boy
i left behind,
but i love the man,
i see before me now.
you and i just needed
time to grow into ourselves.
Jul 27, 2019
Jul 27, 2019 at 6:09 AM UTC
they will call you a liar.
let them.
they will say you wanted it.
let them.
they will make you question yourself.
you know what happened,
you know how it happened.
they are going to call you a ****
but keep your head up high.
you know you are stronger,
then they will ever be.
you've come too far,
to give up now.
Jul 27, 2019
Jul 27, 2019 at 5:50 AM UTC
they said they were your friends.
they said they had your back,
but where were they
when you needed them?
gone.
gone with that bottle,
gone with the music,
gone with the lights,
gone as the smokers.
just gone, no where to be seen.
but he wasn't gone.
the only thing i wanted to be gone, was not.
Jul 27, 2019
Jul 27, 2019 at 5:29 AM UTC
while you're away,
halfway across the planet,
when you have a bad day
and never planned it,
i'll be here for you,
waiting...
waiting...
waiting...
for you to come back to me.
Jul 27, 2019
Jul 27, 2019 at 5:21 AM UTC
i just want to be someone's first thought when they wake up,
and their last thought before they fall asleep.
i want to know that i am someone's priority.
i'm tired of feeling like everyone's second choice.
room full of people, but i'm still alone.
that's an understatement.
i just want to matter to somebody.
anybody.
Jul 27, 2019
Jul 27, 2019 at 5:17 AM UTC
is it too late...
can we start over?
will you give me a chance
to make right, my wrongs.
i know i hurt you,
and i know i pushed.
but only because i was afraid.
of what exactly?
i guess the fear of
being let down.
you seemed too good to be true,
so i pushed and pushed
until you were just out of my reach.
now who hurt who?
i don't want you to be
the one that got away,
so let me make it up.
i promise to do better
and be better for you.
Jul 11, 2019
Jul 11, 2019 at 5:31 AM UTC
i think she's more stubborn than me!
i let you down over and over again.
i disappointed you over and over again.
i lied to you over and over again.
all you ever wanted was to love me,
but i made it such a challenge.
yet did you give up on me?
no.
did you stop loving me?
no.
you managed to break down
my brick walls.
God brought me to you for a reason.
i think so you could save a life (or three)
and you did.
you showed me what true,
unconditional love is.
i know i didn't make your job easy,
and for that i will always be sorry.
but for you i will always be grateful.
Jul 10, 2019
Jul 10, 2019 at 5:31 AM UTC