You say that "one day you'll be great,"
Well, I guess you didn't lie one bit.
You never left it up for debate;
Making our heads split
With the information you so badly wanted.
Giveth thou mindful song,
And mix thine heartbeat
Ye shall see how far we fall
To see how far we fail
Only stopping and starting with a stall.
Driving us all along
To our horrid defeat
You tell us, "oh ye of so little faith!"
Only for thy to then bail
You little pathological wraith.
Oh, you wonder why so many fall away
Only to be the leading force
Ye eternal animosity towards our futures
Yet thy say you here for us to succeed.
You started something;
when you told us our feelings matter.
You started something;
when you said that you cared for our future.
You started something;
when you have us the reason to express.
You started something;
and we hope that it's finished.
Aug 23, 2021
Aug 23, 2021 at 8:39 PM UTC
Numbing Rage
Is it ok to feel this numb
Is it ok to feel this angry
I just wish to express myself
But it keeps getting taken away
Do you even care for me
Or does your religion force you to?
Saying you care is different to showing
I guess I figured that out too late
You say your a Christian; a saint,
But the way you act tells a different story
So boldly you choose, to make me cry
Do you even care that I want to die?
My life keeps getting taken away
Its not even possible to express myself
I guess its in my best interest to not be angry.
I guess its ok to feel this numb.
Aug 18, 2021
Aug 18, 2021 at 4:54 PM UTC
The day before this
We talked about love
The day before this
We said we’re forever
Clearly you didn’t mean it
When you said you’d love me
Sitting underneath our favorite tree
With only me being here
Two years wasted on this
This thing you called “love”
I have a few questions before you go.
Why? Was my love not enough?
Was this cause of all my flaws
Was it my fault that you fell out of love
Hoping to see you one last time
Before we officially ended
But now I’m stuck here
My back against our tree
Craving for it back
But now I know it wasn’t for me
This date shall be known
As the day that I died
My love for that tree
Has it been all in vain?
Oct 9, 2020
Oct 9, 2020 at 1:36 AM UTC
Looking at you from across the room
Ink mashed up my walls
Nightmares of a time awaits
Only a day away
Crinkling glass of my windowsill
The icy roads of frost
Took some time to figure out
That I am lost
Broken down starships
Were never meant fly
Tilted heads up
Looking at the skyline
Our love was never there
It was really just a dream
I want to wake up
But it’s hard to flee
Feb 1, 2020
Feb 1, 2020 at 8:44 PM UTC
I’m not gonna say sorry
For the stuff I’ve done
I’m so **** tired
Of all of this ********
Look at the sky; So Starry
Seeing my failed attempted to outrun
From such desired
Making me do it
Seeing me suffering
Everything just buffering
Feb 1, 2020
Feb 1, 2020 at 8:40 PM UTC
Sitting in this desolate place
Staring off into space
Missing the one you loved
Who is probably up above
Heart aching for their touch
Wanting to feel so much
They have come and gone
Hoping I went as well
But life has a strong grip
Making everyone trip
Pulling us right to the start
To relive that pain
The pain of regret~
Of guilt~
Of sadness~
Of numbness.
Apr 10, 2019
Apr 10, 2019 at 2:05 PM UTC
Being ****** dry
No more spillage
****** in by you
The darkness of abyss
Seeing you passing by
My heart pillage
The sashes blue
Of being dismiss
My feelings don’t matter
That’s what you said
Laid on the silver platter
The thinning thread
True love that you shatter
Coming like a bull’s head
Spearing me with your ****** dagger
Marking me with your bloodshed.
Apr 9, 2019
Apr 9, 2019 at 9:44 PM UTC
Staring into darkness
Like its my light
Turning my back
And walking to the abyss
Its turning to night
Staring into light
Only to be blinded
By what could have been
Losing all my might
Not to be mended
Cracks in the sky
Lets my problems
Slip through with ease
Never stoping the flow
Jul 2, 2018
Jul 2, 2018 at 12:17 AM UTC
Watching the clouds
As they roll on by
Over the mountain mounds
Poking the sky
The cool spring breeze
On the unkempt grass
Hopeing the sky didn’t freeze
Then breaking like fragile glass
Here comes dawn
Running up on me
Bringing its harsh light
The sunshine shining bright
The sun gibeing at me
Taunting me with jeers
Like from my peers
Across the big sea
My mind escapes me
And let’s me get away
There’s nothing to say
So leave me be
Swallowed by my fears
All to the last drop
With their stupid leers
Waiting for me to pop
But as I lay here
I can see from my field
My precious people cheer
These people are my shield
My matra, my time
My precious rhyme
Life force dwindling
But I’m still here
Hearing their cheer
My motivation for life is staring at the clouds
Watching as they roll on by
Cause one day I’ll be there to
Looking down on you
My time has come
For me to say farewell
May the clouds be with you
As you adieu
Say goodbye to your worries
And to your wants
Cause we’ll be like birdies
Flying away from their taunts
Mar 2, 2018
Mar 2, 2018 at 12:56 PM UTC
Watching as she left
She said bye
Walked out the door
Looking at the sky
She got in her car
Staring at me
She looked like a star
Wanting to be
Pulling out of the driveway
In her red Ferrari
Diving into the highway
Leaving me be
Later that evening
Getting a call
Im sitting here screaming
My back hit the wall
Pronounced dead
Like a fish out of water
Laying on her deathbed
She was slaughtered
She never said
See you later
Now she’s dead
Deader then a hater.
Feb 27, 2018
Feb 27, 2018 at 1:34 PM UTC