Fallingwords - Hello Poetry

I see bees everywhere It's hard for me to eat I feel it in my chest like a paper weight my guts are tying knots I've turned into a milkshake Guns shoot right through me Like pictures of silly faces Science hasn't told me Why the word blob makes me laugh for days I guess I'll just wrap myself in cobwebs And pretend I am okay

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Sep 24, 2015

Sep 24, 2015 at 1:56 PM UTC

Apparently I like girls

I see bees everywhere It's hard for me to eat I feel it in my chest like a paper weight my guts are tying knots I've turned into a milkshake Guns shoot right through me Like pictures of silly faces Science hasn't told me Why the word blob makes me laugh for days I guess I'll just wrap myself in cobwebs And pretend I am okay

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I feel like I'm floating in and out of focus Like nothing solid exists in me Only floating pieces of debris Where did this come from? How can I come back The chords holding me down Seem to be cut My brain isn't fully here and I don't know where it's gone I can't even see myself Where can I run? Someone come and hold me down Explain to me how to exist I don't know what I want or need I just have to get into some place I don't think I'm here or there I don't think that I'm anywhere I want to hold on To have something to touch But I can't seem to feel anything It's all turned to dust

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Jul 8, 2015

Jul 8, 2015 at 1:19 AM UTC

Floating

I feel like I'm floating in and out of focus Like nothing solid exists in me Only floating pieces of debris Where did this come from? How can I come back The chords holding me down Seem to be cut My brain isn't fully here and I don't know where it's gone I can't even see myself Where can I run? Someone come and hold me down Explain to me how to exist I don't know what I want or need I just have to get into some place I don't think I'm here or there I don't think that I'm anywhere I want to hold on To have something to touch But I can't seem to feel anything It's all turned to dust

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Ripping, tearing, scratching at my skin all I want to do is let the light in destroy me tear me apart envelope me with your touch cause don’t want to live in this body anymore I want to disappear or turn into something new all I really want is to get away from you you body, you skin, I don’t want you anymore I want to fly away maybe to go to the moon all I know is I want a place where I can feel beautiful.

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Jan 30, 2015

Jan 30, 2015 at 3:09 PM UTC

Trapped

Ripping, tearing, scratching at my skin all I want to do is let the light in destroy me tear me apart envelope me with your touch cause don’t want to live in this body anymore I want to disappear or turn into something new all I really want is to get away from you you body, you skin, I don’t want you anymore I want to fly away maybe to go to the moon all I know is I want a place where I can feel beautiful.

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They never tell you how your mouth never tastes the same They never tell you how the smell of their body clings to your skin They never tell you how their face gets tattooed into the pathways in your brain They never tell you how every nerve in your body sets on fire Or how the butterflies in your stomach start calling out his name They never give you a map, or show you the way. I never learned how to love you Please, don't run away

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Jan 27, 2015

Jan 27, 2015 at 10:22 AM UTC

They never tell you

They never tell you how your mouth never tastes the same They never tell you how the smell of their body clings to your skin They never tell you how their face gets tattooed into the pathways in your brain They never tell you how every nerve in your body sets on fire Or how the butterflies in your stomach start calling out his name They never give you a map, or show you the way. I never learned how to love you Please, don't run away

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Popping Stabbing Wounding my head Why won't you leave me? My old friend You've been with me for so long a time I've gotten quite used to you Get out of my mind stop clouding all my sunny thoughts All you bring is darkness I don't want to talk I would love it if you would please go away You aren't welcome here I don't want you to stay Stop telling me things I don't want to hear I've heard it enough I'm done with this fear I know that I'm crap You are too So stop yelling at me friend Cause I don't care about you I'm allowed to be **** I am trying for more please just Let me shut the door.

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Jan 25, 2015

Jan 25, 2015 at 11:14 PM UTC

Shut the door

Popping Stabbing Wounding my head Why won't you leave me? My old friend You've been with me for so long a time I've gotten quite used to you Get out of my mind stop clouding all my sunny thoughts All you bring is darkness I don't want to talk I would love it if you would please go away You aren't welcome here I don't want you to stay Stop telling me things I don't want to hear I've heard it enough I'm done with this fear I know that I'm crap You are too So stop yelling at me friend Cause I don't care about you I'm allowed to be **** I am trying for more please just Let me shut the door.

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I see you slowly disappearing under all the weight I want to hold your hand and tell you it’ll be okay we both know that’s a load of bull crap and I don’t want to lie please don’t disappear please know you are the brightest star you taught me how to think you taught me how to frown you taught me the beauty of vulnerability and I don’t want to hold you down please know that I love you and even if you need me to let you go i’ll do that cause I love you but please please don’t leave this world alone

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Jan 25, 2015

Jan 25, 2015 at 1:13 PM UTC

For you

I see you slowly disappearing under all the weight I want to hold your hand and tell you it’ll be okay we both know that’s a load of bull crap and I don’t want to lie please don’t disappear please know you are the brightest star you taught me how to think you taught me how to frown you taught me the beauty of vulnerability and I don’t want to hold you down please know that I love you and even if you need me to let you go i’ll do that cause I love you but please please don’t leave this world alone

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Heart clenched Breath gone Hyperventilate You forgot your phone It's the end of the world My body refuses to cooperate 20 minutes That's all this can last Yet 20 minutes can feel like a year As long as you give it the space Wanting to stay and fight Or fly away But you can barely stand in one place Your touch feels like iron Trapping me inside this cage Just let me out Don't ******* touch me there

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Jan 25, 2015

Jan 25, 2015 at 12:36 PM UTC

Panic

Heart clenched Breath gone Hyperventilate You forgot your phone It's the end of the world My body refuses to cooperate 20 minutes That's all this can last Yet 20 minutes can feel like a year As long as you give it the space Wanting to stay and fight Or fly away But you can barely stand in one place Your touch feels like iron Trapping me inside this cage Just let me out Don't ******* touch me there

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I started the process of memorizing you today 35 freckles on your right shoulder and a break in the cartilage on your right ear near the top was as far as I got I think even if I have 100 more years in your arms, I'll never know how many individual hairs you have on your chin or why you sound like you're dying when you sleep What an exciting thought To never know all of you I don't know if your I love you means what it means for me Someday maybe I will Or maybe I'll spend my whole life trying To hear all your thoughts behind the words I love you

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Jan 25, 2015

Jan 25, 2015 at 12:14 PM UTC

35 freckles

I started the process of memorizing you today 35 freckles on your right shoulder and a break in the cartilage on your right ear near the top was as far as I got I think even if I have 100 more years in your arms, I'll never know how many individual hairs you have on your chin or why you sound like you're dying when you sleep What an exciting thought To never know all of you I don't know if your I love you means what it means for me Someday maybe I will Or maybe I'll spend my whole life trying To hear all your thoughts behind the words I love you

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