In that moment, what do you remember seeing?
:My eyes were closed.
What do you remember feeling?
:His hands.
Tell me more about that?
:Him touching me. His breath.
What did you smell?
:Alcohol.
Where were his hands touching you?
:Everywhere
Was this on top or underneath your clothes?
:Underneath.
How did it make you feel?
:Like a doll. Like I was a *** doll. A toy.
What if anything, you can’t forget about that moment?
:I can’t forget how helpless and alone I felt. I can’t forget how long
it felt.
Tell me more about that?
:I don’t know… can I take a break
Yes
What happened after that?
:I don’t know. I don’t remember anything after that. I don’t
remember falling asleep.
Let’s talk about the following morning. Was he still on the couch with you?
:Yes
What if anything you can’t forget about the next morning?
:I can’t forget the feeling of waking up naked not knowing what happened. I felt numb and empty. I was alone in a city that I didn’t know. I
remember looking at him sleeping on the couch before I left, I
couldn’t believe he did that to me… I thought we were friends
Jul 21, 2020
Jul 21, 2020 at 9:35 PM UTC
The sun runs away
cruelty brings the cold
your power and strength
I'm under your hold
Empty and alone
no one around
don’t say anything
don’t make a sound
Yes I stay quiet
when you call me lover
Yes I stay quiet
as you mock all my words
My body your desire
my heart collapses
my thighs on fire
I’m silent, so quiet
in the night
in your hands
Bound by Silence
dreading the sun
And all that comes
With his return
Apr 4, 2020
Apr 4, 2020 at 7:26 PM UTC
Empty parking lot
So long, no real plans
An open ended invitation
I guess- Why not?
Keep your distance
Draw the line
Too late, too late
Red windows, white lies
the earth falls away
And there’s no one around
I waited too long
I can’t make a sound
My desires
Left to interpretation
Trying to scream
Lungs on fire
Surge of desperation
Muffled by silence
Mar 22, 2020
Mar 22, 2020 at 4:11 AM UTC
A child of the Sun
Her golden miracle
The touch of Midas
like melted caramel.
She flows through your veins
and seeps through your skin
A breath of warm honey
I thaw once again.
She caresses your face
leaving stains of rose
With benevolent kisses
she dusts your nose.
Hair touched crisp
by her scarlet aura
Burnt orange hues
Warm curls of lava.
Through gentle strokes
you paint my days
with transcendent smiles
like soft morning rays.
Oh your sparkling eyes
glazed in undying fire
You are my sunrise
It’s you I desire.
Aug 9, 2019
Aug 9, 2019 at 3:59 PM UTC
I will shed
All of this skin
Down to the
very bone beneath
If that’s what
It will take
To rid myself
Of your sin
Jun 5, 2019
Jun 5, 2019 at 11:16 PM UTC
Even still
No matter how long it’s been
Or how much I’ve grown
There stands a man
Somewhere unknown
Muddy locks of hair
Soft lips, sharp features
A soft golden stare
He stands with confidence
There’s love for him in me
And I in him
A love deep inside
He could have been mine
He should have been mine
But not in this life
Not this time
He was not meant for me
I am not meant for him
But still when our eyes meet-
And rarely they meet
We both know how the other felt
And all that we could be
There’s a spark that ever dies
Brighter than sun herself
But must remain inside
For there’s a man
With muddy rivers of hair
And beautiful brown eyes
Somewhere in the world
Who will never be mine.
May 1, 2019
May 1, 2019 at 1:59 AM UTC
You with your new love
And me with mine
I love him I do
and I know you love her too
but I can’t help noticing
Your all too familiar eyes
The way they crinkle at the corners
And sparkle at my sight
Theres a slight warmth in your stare
Subtly revealing the emotions
You’ve trapped deep inside
Our eyes meet
For a fleeting moment
a silent conversation
longings for the past
Flames dancing
The mouth’s sly grin
Your eyes softly whisper
What I always hoped was true
They say you remember
They reveal you still care
Memories flood from the past
Time stands still
And just for a second
I felt like we were back
Back when love was new
but as soon as it began
The moment was gone
And I was left staring
At your now apathetic eyes
****** back into reality
the wistful realization
The painful truth
Our time had passed
We each have moved on
So you turned to your love
as I turned to mine
and with one last glance
our eyes whispered
a silent goodbye
Jan 4, 2019
Jan 4, 2019 at 12:13 PM UTC
It felt so good
To slowly watch
As you slipped from my mind
Faded out of my life
As I gradually let go
Of you,
Someone I once begged to stay
now glad to watch go
And even though it hurt
It felt so good to finally forget
Now free to be happy
And live my own life
And no matter how much you meant
No matter how much I loved you
I'm finally at peace
And this is not to say
That I have forgotten
Because I will always remember
The beauty
The pain
The love that we shared
Yes I still love you
But I’ve learned to let go
Dec 26, 2018
Dec 26, 2018 at 8:45 PM UTC
A year and six months
Since the last time I saw you
Your sudden appearance
long overdue
you look so much older
Your hair is so long
Your eyes somehow colder
You ask me what’s wrong
And what can I tell you
What could I say
I guess that I miss you
I wish that you stayed
I guess I forgive you
For breaking my heart
For all you put me through
So I send my regards
To the man I once knew
because you are not the same
and neither am I
only life is to blame
so this is goodbye
Dec 26, 2018
Dec 26, 2018 at 8:18 PM UTC
Oh my love, tell me why
things didn’t feel right to you
you look at me its like
you’re looking right through
Theres a look in your eyes
I can’t place anymore
it’s like you don’t love me
like you did before
Darling the sun is setting
on you and I
my heart is broken
by your solemn goodbye
shadows are settling
on the place you left
all that remains of me
is just a silhouette
my soul is empty
I am hollow
for I know
you will be gone tomorrow
Sep 5, 2018
Sep 5, 2018 at 6:25 PM UTC