all i've done is wish for you
wish for you to love me like you say you still do
wish for your hand in mine
wish for your happiness
wish for you
then i later realized i wasn't wishing
i realized i was falling for you and those were just my hopes and dreams
and i was...scared
but...happy with you
and you seemed happy so i went along with it
and now here i am
in the middle of math class wishing i was with you and only you
May 21, 2019
May 21, 2019 at 9:11 AM UTC
you see...
it's not possible to stop loving someone
no matter how badly you want to
if you truly loved them
you always will
you can only love someone more
that person will always be a part of your heart
and you can't change that
no matter how hard you try
sure, it's possible to hate someone you love
but there will a soft spot
no matter how much they hurt you or how much you hurt them
Apr 29, 2019
Apr 29, 2019 at 3:12 PM UTC
if i stopped loving you
i might not hurt as much
but if that means i must stop loving you
it's not worth it
you'll always be a part of my heart
no matter how much it hurts
Apr 29, 2019
Apr 29, 2019 at 3:06 PM UTC
but
...
im scared i already have fallen for you
kiwi
the amount of times ive almost told you
i love you
god but your hugs
****
if you dont want me to get attached
dont hug me like it matters
dont hug me so tight that it makes me wanna cry when we let go
dont hug me like you love me too
dont hug me like you care
dont do cute wholesome **** like wiping my mascara as it runs while we shower together
dont be so sweet and pull on my heart strings
dont cuddle me sweetly after ***
dont kiss the top of my head when we hug for a while
dont kiss my cheek
dont hold my hand while we ****
dont tell me how much you miss me
but most of all dont act like you dont feel something too
dont act like you could just lay there and sleep while we cuddle
when you say 'this is just for the human affection and attention...deal?'
Apr 26, 2019
Apr 26, 2019 at 12:26 AM UTC
'im a ticking time bomb'
'i dont want you to get attached'
'im not someone you wanna spend too much time with'
'were both pretty damaged and vulnerable'
'i might do any little thing to **** this up at any random time'
but im willing to risk it
im willing to risk getting hurt if it means loving you
if i means spending all my time with you
even if it's only at night
im willing to love you
im willing to fall for you
but
...
Apr 26, 2019
Apr 26, 2019 at 12:09 AM UTC
it's okay
i love you
and sure it hurts but i understand
i'm here for you always
thank you for being honest
y'know what they say
honesty
is
the
best
policy
Mar 25, 2019
Mar 25, 2019 at 5:29 PM UTC
i dreamed about you again
we were cuddling
and i fell asleep with you in my arms
woke up next to you
and smiled
we lived together
we were happy
but then i woke up...
and you weren't there
but what was there was adorable messages from you
making me smile
i'm head over heels for you cutie pie
Mar 24, 2019
Mar 24, 2019 at 10:38 PM UTC
guys my girlfriend is so cute i can't take it
we just were on a video chat and her smileeee omggg she's just so precious i wanna smoochy her
i ove you estherrr
hehe she'd understand
ugh broooo she's just the best
like for reallll how did i get so ****** luckyyyy
she's so precious she makes my heart melt
Mar 24, 2019
Mar 24, 2019 at 7:15 PM UTC
i miss you
i know you probably don't wanna hear that
but i had to get it out some way
it's been ******* me up so bad
i need to not miss you
i need to get over myself
i'm just hurting myself more by missing you
i'm sorry but i miss you
but by this time next week i won't miss you anymore
i won't break down every time someone mentions you
i won't cry over you anymore
i won't wanna cry when i hug you
you won't affect me
not the way you used to anyways
Mar 20, 2019
Mar 20, 2019 at 7:03 PM UTC