When you think you have it all figured out, but then everything starts to fall apart all over again. Having a mental break down can’t even hold my composure. Losing more than I’m gaining. Been through enough pain and heartache. No escape from this darkness,the devil is surrounding but god is controlling. It’s a constant battle between my peace and suffering. I can’t seem to catch a breath. I’m confused, lost trying to find the right path.Every route I took lead me to the wrong direction. Stuck between moving on and letting go. God give me the peace of mind.clear my view causing my distractions. I need you more than ever.
Sep 20, 2020
Sep 20, 2020 at 8:41 AM UTC
I lost a lot in the process of doing better I was afraid of losing more but then I realized that what was being replaced was the things that wasn't needed in my way putting aside all the negativity and ******** taught me a lot don't ever limit yourself to doing what is needed, don't let that fear stop you from becoming the person you want to become. Distance yourself from all those who try to bring you down don't dull your day because of inconstant people ignorance is everywhere remember the key is motivation and ambition and god is your strength.
Sep 13, 2017
Sep 13, 2017 at 11:04 PM UTC
I'm tired of being so overwhelmed about a situation that's not even my fault I'm tired of a ***** giving me the run around like I'm some type of bad person I do my part as a lady now a ***** want to throw shades at me like I'm crazy. I try to avoid every bad situation because I know it will only get worst if I entertain it. Now I'm sitting here analyzing everything because at this point in my life I should be happy counting my blessings not crying over a ***** taking them from me. I took a lot and lost a lot I'm not going back. Accused everyday of things I don't do the past brought up daily because a ***** can't let go of it. I need me some space. I need to grow out of this shell I'm in because if I don't I'm scared that I will always be confide to this thing called hate.
Jun 19, 2017
Jun 19, 2017 at 9:48 PM UTC
Stuck between love and hate I know I shouldn't hate no one but you make it so hard for me not to. I loved you with a passion now I'm just numb to it I feel nothing but hatred towards you. Can't change what I feel about you. Steady focusing on my mind because I'm tired of always following my heart it always leads me to the wrong path. So tired of ending up in the same place twice I need to make a change for myself because even god himself knows I'm not happy with where I'm at.
Jun 19, 2017
Jun 19, 2017 at 9:48 PM UTC
I live my life wondering, what else can go wrong is there a reason why everything is all going down hill for me. Maybe I deserve it. I over think things to much && that's my biggest problem. I need to worry less on the negatives and focus more on the positive. I need a better outcome. I know I can do better all things are possible if you believe. There is nothing that is impossible only if you make it that way.
Aug 10, 2016
Aug 10, 2016 at 11:22 AM UTC
When you get let down so many times in your life you start to creat this brick wall around you, your guards are always up. You live your life with fear of starting over because you feel like you will get rejected. You've got let down from so many people that you thought would've been there for you then the people you wished were there for you all turns there back on you as if you didn't even exist. This generation that I live in has a lot of wicked people in it only God himself knows how much pain and anger we all carry in us. But who am I to judge when there's things that I do myself that I wish I could take back.
Jul 17, 2016
Jul 17, 2016 at 7:38 PM UTC
Girl all he does is play games, why do you allow this clown to still walk back into your life. He claims to love and care for you but yet hurts you so why do you keep pretending like **** will ever change. Baby girl I know you love em but don't be the fool playing this nikkas games. He'll just have you running round in circles like your the one that's insane. Don't let this nikka bring you down he's nothing but a deadbeat. Your worth so much more. These dudes now and days don't realize what they've got until it's actually gone. They talk **** when they see you happy in the arms of another but when they had you they didn't even know how to cherish you. These dudes are nothing but selfish *** clowns looking for another excuse to make you look weak.
May 22, 2016
May 22, 2016 at 12:03 AM UTC
When the one person you thought would be there for you ,turns out to be the one that walks away from you. Broken promises,you feel lost like the air that you was just breathing got ****** all out of you and you can't catch a breath. So many questions but all unanswered. Your left with a broken heart and eyes full of tears. What did I do to deserve this did I do something wrong am I the one to blame. Can't seem to catch my ******* breath I have all the time to sit here and cry and ask questions like why but all im doing is wasting time. Wasting time on a person that walked out on me chasing a love that wouldnt chase me. So stuck in this zone that I've forgotten about the girl that is strong. So foolish of me to think that this would last,every love has its beginning and ending. Maybe in my mind all I ever wanted was a love that never ended to spend my whole life with you. You took me by surprise and left me confused now I'll never trust another man because of you ...
May 2, 2016
May 2, 2016 at 11:00 AM UTC
When your losing the one thing you thought would always be there for you. Everything in you just feels like giving up. You gave me hope that one day everything will change. All the lies the betrayals just kept building. You've taught me so much and showed me things that I would've never thought I would have learnt. You was my everything and I was your nothing. You made it seem so simple when you told me you loved me. Then you just gave up on me. Don't understand why you would have done the things you did to me then try to pretend like things are okay. Trust and believe me when I say I'm officially done with you. Can't take the lies ,no more tears, no more pain. Getting my life together. No more stress no more worries. You hurt me but one thing you haven't tooken away from me is my pride ......!!!!!!
Oct 18, 2015
Oct 18, 2015 at 11:57 PM UTC
I feel like I need space I need some fresh air. everything is just hitting me hard right now . All I want to do is let all my tears out. Pain & anger is what I'm holding in. Nobody's ever around when you need them. Hate feeling used. Nothing matters anymore, no one will ever understand. I try my best all the time to keep a smile on my face, but this time I just couldn't pretend anymore, a person can take but so much until you have nomore strength to hold it in anymore I know giving up isn't the right thing to do but at this point I have nothing else to keep my motivation going
Sep 29, 2015
Sep 29, 2015 at 1:24 PM UTC