Keeping quiet
I never return
Eternity
… later
You surface
Forgotten names
It’s Jenna
Until next time
Pay no mind
Stay distracted
Every day
Then, again
Random day
Old faces
Best news
Hope again
Missed chance
But hope still
Time passes
Harder to stand
Just begging
Need some help
…
He’s got me
I see her
Stop and talk
Got a number
Small world
Go on smiling
Wait a bit
…
There it is
It’s Jenna
How was your day
Smoking, join?
My mistake
Chaos outside
You hear this?
Remember,
That’s the name
…
Asking again
And then,
Borrow my car?
I’ll take you
Weird excuses
Take a nap
And…
… nothing
For too long
I keep trying
Still nice
Still patient
But nothing
Last try
One question
What’s the question?
There she is
This…
… is Jenna
I’m a loser
Hate this
Poor medium
But fine
I don’t know you
You don’t know me
Borrow my car?
Why?
Next question
What did I do?
What happened?
Then nothing.
…
Feb 14, 2023
Feb 14, 2023 at 2:21 AM UTC
Hidden in the darkness
Tremble beneath the mark
Of their words
Drive out on a monday
Meet you on a sunday
Then the sun turns
Please don’t wait
There’s no hate
But it’s a long road yet
No more talk
And no mock
Not a sign of regret
But the moon shines bright
In a darkened sky
A hollowed tree whistles
When the wind blows right
Walk with me one more night
Weathering the darkness
Waiting to embark
It’s a curse
Killing time with kindness
Her company was timeless
Then the sun turns
Please don’t wait
There’s no hate
But it’s long road yet
No more talk
And no mock
Not a sign of regret
But the moon shines bright
In a darkened sky
A hollowed tree whistles
When the wind blows right
Walk with me one more night
Dance with the shadows in the moonlight
Walk with me one more night
Jul 27, 2022
Jul 27, 2022 at 5:00 PM UTC
Where are you Isabela?
What happened?
I thought we were done with this
You no longer love me
But still you make me miss you
I question if I deserve it
I wonder if you’ll resurface
I quiver at the opposing thought
We’re older now
There’s no need for this
Sure, I love you still
But it’s not the same
And I know the rules
So what else could it be…
Where are you Isabela?
Why must you still make me sad?
Jul 15, 2022
Jul 15, 2022 at 4:43 AM UTC
Do you remember me?
You asked me about my dream
Things are not what they seem
What did it mean?
Can I be friendly to you
Something I couldn’t do
Can’t stop thinking about you
There’s something about you
Your smile would get me through
Just let me stand next to you
Cuddling up to me
A feeling I couldn’t beat
Why are you in my mind?
Why can’t I unwind?
Can’t stop thinking about you
There’s just something about you
I just miss it all
Bang my head against the wall
I just miss it all
Stumbling through the halls
I just miss it all
Rachel…
I can’t sleep
Memories repeat
Feel so very weak
Memories repeat
Memories repeat
Memories…
Can’t stop thinking about you
Can’t make it without you
There’s something about you,
There’s just something about you
Jul 13, 2022
Jul 13, 2022 at 3:00 AM UTC
And at the end of life
She will have said my name
But I would never know
What it’s like to feel love
From someone that perfect
Sep 21, 2020
Sep 21, 2020 at 11:48 PM UTC
The day will come
All the lives are gone
You came to me
A knife between your legs
When you scream
The earth shakes of fear
I don’t know what you said
But something’s horribly wrong
The knife behind your back
Tells me nothing to say
You fell, you died
I screamed, and cried
And carried you away
There we lied
Finally awake
Jul 17, 2020
Jul 17, 2020 at 8:57 PM UTC
Depression and sadness
Alone on the road
Get to the intersection
Approach a crossing
There I see the fire
Like hell on wheels
Like my life in the world
Full of danger and pain
Turn left,
Away from the fire
Going down another road
Full of hope and happiness
With the flames in the mirror
On my way to new things
Leave the fire behind
With all my fears
Until it disappears
Apr 23, 2020
Apr 23, 2020 at 2:09 AM UTC
There’s only one way
I can keep from ******* up
Ever again.
Nov 21, 2019
Nov 21, 2019 at 12:15 AM UTC
You don’t know me
Let alone my intent
Actions do not always
Self represent
I don’t feel urgency
In explaining
My conscience so vaguely clear
Nov 3, 2019
Nov 3, 2019 at 12:08 AM UTC
Whoops I od'd,
Shortness of breath,
Call ambulance,
Tell my wife I—
Error in judge—-
—-ment cut my life,
No second chance
No guiding light
I never meant
To cause you pain
I never thought I'd be the one who took the fall
I got lost in the moment,
******** like to test the limit
Six minutes down,
Breathing machine,
Brain not feel right
The look on you
Is killing me,
Drowning in shame
But don't feel bad,
Cause I
Never feared consequences
Hate regrets more than apologies
A year has passed,
Like photographs, my life is just
A scrapbook of
Old friends and faded memories
Looks like I pulled the rug from under myself
The falls too much for me to recover from
It's been real fun
But now I must say goodbye,
I'll see you all at okie dogs
See you all at okie dogs
Oct 29, 2019
Oct 29, 2019 at 11:04 PM UTC