EdVance
American
When I write it seems to flow from somewhere else. Most of my scribbling / Is done all at once in under two minutes. It gives me peace and serenity. / I am an addict in recovery and have seen a hell that no one should ever see. / If someone is inspired by my writing then I receive double.
Today I met an angel
Who fell out of the sky
Her wings were badly damaged
Bleeding teardrops from her eyes
The sky above was heavy
It threw her to the ground
She couldn’t seem to catch a breath
Her demons dragged her down
She thought her Life was over
She felt so all alone
But other fallen angels
Surrounded her with love
The other angels loved her
Until she loved her self
They taught her how to live again
By helping someone else
As time went by the wings returned
And all the teardrops dried
The beauty and the glow reborn
Now magic in her eyes
She rose above the demons
Left them far behind
Her wings built of compassion
Helping others of her kind
Jan 12, 2018
Jan 12, 2018 at 9:08 AM UTC
Somewhere between the light
And the other side of night
Lies a place that hides
Away from you and me
Somewhere before tomorrow
And what yesterdays all follow
Are the demons
Lie awaiting to be freed
Somehow between our dreams
And our lonely nightmare screams
Manifest the things
That keep our souls unclean
So when you lie awake in sorrow
Remember that tomorrow
Is todays great secret
Waiting to be freed
May 6, 2017
May 6, 2017 at 7:31 AM UTC
Today I heard a silent sound
A sound I’ve heard before
I thought it had gone silent
But it’s louder than before
I didn’t want to listen
Just wanted it to stop
But it grew and grew much louder
It became my only thought
My mind knew how to stop it
But I didn’t want to go
But soon I could not take it
I felt so all alone
The little voice was speaking
It told me what I need
Get it Get it Get it now
It will give you the release
With no one left to turn to
And nowhere left to go
I listened to the voices
And now I am no more
Apr 29, 2017
Apr 29, 2017 at 10:50 PM UTC
I lost another friend today
His past reached in and pulled him way
He tried to run but couldn’t hide
From deep dark secrets locked inside
A man like me who turned around
Pulled himself up off the ground
He tried to find an inner peace
But years of chains would not release
I try to look but turn away
Is this my fate is this the way
Are all these trials I face in vain
Will my past come to reclaim
But change is what I must endure
Transformation forevermore
Never is this battle won
But day by day we rise above
Never will it be the same
Change is such a splendid thing
We take it in to give it back
To be the hand that pulls them back
Apr 29, 2017
Apr 29, 2017 at 9:51 PM UTC
I entered to a place of pain
Like many times before
Full of shame and hopelessness
As they shut and locked the door
I spent the day reflecting
On the things that I had done
I wept and sobbed unendingly
I never want to see the sun
But someone watches over me
Disregarding all my wrongs
Surrounding me with angels
To show me I’m not done
I watched the angels caring
For the suffering of man
I watched them put themselves aside
Just to lend a helping hand
Day by day my spirit rose
As I watched unending love
As angels gave their heart and soul
Just to help man rise above
I reflect upon the time I spent
As if night to day I see
New faith in man and angels
Are the things they left with me
Apr 28, 2017
Apr 28, 2017 at 11:53 PM UTC
This life I've led
Is hard to swallow
Like night and day
I've led and followed
I've had the best
But wanted worst
I've drank it all
But still I thirst
Can there be
A middle ground
Tween beggers cup
And thorny crown
Is what I search for
Not for me
Is it my fate
To never be
But try i will
I'll try again
Through up and down
Untill the end
Apr 28, 2017
Apr 28, 2017 at 11:27 PM UTC
Today I did listen
And I heard a new sound
Twas the sound of hearts breaking
Every time I come round
Today I did listen
Not like other days
Not only for self
But for some others pain
Today I did listen
And prayed for you all
For all who had contact
For all I had harmed
Today I did listen
With nothing to say
I heard the unspoken
I heard all the pain
Today I did listen
And i dont like the sound
For its I that create it
And its far far to loud
Apr 28, 2017
Apr 28, 2017 at 11:11 PM UTC
I dreamt last night that thing again
That thing that’s never let me in
The happiness that flows inside
Of other people that they hide
But still I woke within a smile, a smile
That spoke a thousand miles
They can hide it if they wish
But I stole some from within their bliss
I’ll hold this for a day or two
And every day I’ll think of you
There’s magic in the mind they say
And believe it moreand more each day
Apr 22, 2017
Apr 22, 2017 at 11:47 AM UTC
Is it wrong to be lonely?
To no want to share
To be hidden and ugly
To be stuck in a hell
I just want to be told
That its really ok
I just need to be held
On my darkest o days
If you could feel all the things that I really do think
Would you think or think twice bout takin a drink
An im not tryna say that im right or im wrong
But your actions against me are certainly strong
So I back up and puff out
So I look like im strong
But im really a boy
That’s just faking it all
And I just don’t know how
To explain all these things
They just run and they run and they play in my brain
But I want to do right but I don’t understand
How it feels so damn good to be wrong like I am
So im trapped in the dark seeking out for a light
But unable to stop all the thieves in the night
They keep coming along all with mirrors in hand
So I never can truly see who they or I am
but they take and I give and I give and I die
slowly on and its on till the cycle subsides
then they harp and they harp and the moan and they moan
and I cant and I cant go alone so I choke on the bone
it’s a thing that I know is just killing inside
but my lust for companionship brings be aside
Apr 22, 2017
Apr 22, 2017 at 10:46 AM UTC
The fall leaves dance upon the wind
A spiral of excitement
A chill blows shivers up and down
The air breathes heavy silence
A wisp of cold crisp winters breath
Bring vibrant colored sounds
A sky of marbled purple hues
Connect the heavens to the ground
Outstretching sky of speechless beauty
Brushed with strokes of life
Scents and colors fill the air
As day bows down to night
As the twilight washes over
One by one it all appears
The endless destinations
On a sea of time revealed
May 17, 2015
May 17, 2015 at 1:07 PM UTC