Dear younger self I know you may not understand what you’re going through. I know at times you think no one loves you but you are loved I know it’s hard growing up without a mom or a dad but as we get older it’ll get easier. I know you’re only seven years old and you’re like what the **** did I do to deserve this nothing you did nothing wrong it is not your fault and I know sometimes you feel like it’s your fault that’s your mother and father are not together but it’s not your fault younger me.I know sometimes you cry yourself to sleep wishing you Would
die but that’s not the way you have great things in your future and I just want you to know If I knew then what I know. I would’ve done a lot of things different I know now you’re probably wondering what does all this mean in due time I will tell youI know by now you’re eight years old and you are starting to feel yourself you are Becoming rebellious And continuous thoughts of suicide because you feel like your father doesn’t love you your mother is Nowhere around!!! I know the feeling that you have the pain the anger the hurt the hatred the betrayal and you have all right to feel those things but I do not want you to let those things fuel you trust me I know younger me you will grow up hating the world and that’s not a good feeling it is now Thanksgiving night 1998 you have just gotten hit by a car and all you want more than anything in the world is to have your mommy by your side you hate her for the fact that she’s not around you hate your father because you feel like he wasn’t watching you at that moment when that car hit you for a split second you just want to die because you feel like there will be no more pain. But that is not true if you were to die that night there would have been so much things that you will have never got to see or do I’m not saying our life is perfect but it will get better over time & to even go back a little bit farther you’re hurt and pain started way before your mother and father split up you were hurts when your uncle Jimmy Darrell Sims passed away the day before Christmas one year later the day before Christmas your mother drops you off at your grandmothers house it tells you she will be back and she never came back. And the ****** you up growing up your life was hard you experienced a lot of things depression loneliness suicidal thoughts not being loved I can understand how you turn to a monster Younger self we are not perfect and I’m talking to you to fix the older us this world is a dark place. Well let’s continue this journey you get hit by the car Thanksgiving night all you want is your mommy and she’s nowhere to be foundWhile you’re in the hospital people are trying to reach out to her but no one can contact her that really Crushed your soul you grew more colder more angrier you did not talk to your mother until a week after you got out of the hospital on top of that you were never the Flyers kid and when you were fly you had to work for
It Your life was a mess at the age of nine years old you had your first asthma attack and yet again all you want it was your mommy. It’s not like you didn’t have love but it wasn’t the love that you were looking for you wanted the love of your mother do you want it the love of your father but instead. You felt like and still to this day feel likeYour father loves your cousin Delmar more than you as a grown owner your hatred became more
Mar 26, 2021
Mar 26, 2021 at 11:37 AM UTC
As we staying here today I say to myself We’ve been through so much I cannot believe this day has finally comeIt’s been seven long years the ups the downs the good Good and the badI’m just so happy that today you’re crying tears of joy I promise to be there to hold you I love you to cherishing all day to do all the things of meat supposed to do every day and every night Teach each other how to loveYou are my partner my best friend the lighter to my blunt the holster to my gun the yang to my yang my everything my chocolate drop I love you to death
Jul 25, 2020
Jul 25, 2020 at 4:18 PM UTC
When I look into your eyes I seen the pain I seen the agony I do not want to cause you any pain boo my only objective is to love you I want to be your best friend your lover your homie your confidant so be there for you like no other to show you the way of man supposed to love a woman teach me how to love you I'll show you how to love me the things you been through I will not put you through I will never lie to you or cheat on you the only thing I want to do is lie down with youand take away all your pain to be that man to brighten up your days love always Eric
May 5, 2019
May 5, 2019 at 2:11 AM UTC
This is just a short little poem to brighten your day going I think about you like crazy since the day I I laid eyes on you I said to myself just maybe this could one day be my lady the conversations we have so real it's crazy I can't believe you gave me the opportunity to show you but now that I showed you I won't let it go to wast
Apr 16, 2019
Apr 16, 2019 at 3:47 AM UTC
From your **** eyes to your beautiful face to your from your nice size breast to your delicious thighsbut that's not all I see when I look into your eyes I see a beautiful intellectual woman that's been through alot that doesn't want to be hurt again who doesn't want to rush into love who's looking for a man who understands and I'm hoping I can be that man the that understands I can be that man that you can walk and talk with I won't judge you
Mar 18, 2019
Mar 18, 2019 at 1:12 AM UTC
I thought you were my soulmate I thought you were the one I try my best to be the one I know that I failed you in certain ways and that really kills me insidethe last time I looked you in your eyes all I seen was pain hurt and lies this **** can't be real I was supposed to be your Superman you were supposed to be my Superwoman blood test that can't be it hurts to let go I know I have to I hurt you too bad so now I have to let go you gave me a chance and I ****** up the pack I'm like a crack addict trying to run back the pain that I caused you is so unbearable I don't like the man I became when I look into the mirror sometimes I ask myself who am I and I know you may not care and this is not a love letter this is simply my goodbyes a heartfelt apology for the world to see I'm sorry for the things I did to you we have our names tattooed on each other we were supposed to be one you gave me my daughter I was supposed to give you your son but I ****** up
Mar 18, 2019
Mar 18, 2019 at 12:57 AM UTC
From the first time I seen you I can't even lie I said **** who is this girl right here I tried to get close I didn't think you noticed but I'm so glad that you did the conversations that we have are cool and real you're beautiful in every sense of the fashion I'm just keeping it real from the first time I hugged you I was like **** you smell so good and when you held my hand in so many words I'm just trying to say I'm cool with being your friend but one day I hope I can be your man
Mar 18, 2019
Mar 18, 2019 at 12:45 AM UTC
I know I've done a lot of dumb things and I apologize for a lot of those things I know an apology can't fix those things but I am sorry I never meant to hurt you lied to you or cheat on you the things I did were just observed I'm giving you my word but if you give me this chance I promise I'll be a better man I do deserve the things you've done I should have loved you right the first time but I already ****** up no I got to man up and buck up because I know I ****** upand I don't want you going out there looking for a different man but I'm the one who broke your heart let me mend your broken heart
Feb 27, 2019
Feb 27, 2019 at 1:28 AM UTC
I don't know you like that but the conversations that we have make me want to get to know you even more I haven't even seen you face-to-face yet but I can't wait for the day that I see you I can't wait for the day I look you in your eyes I see your beautiful face I know I'm not your man yet but hopefully one day I can be but until then I'll accept your friendship you give me a feeling I haven't had in a long time this might be special
Feb 24, 2019
Feb 24, 2019 at 6:28 AM UTC