When we met,
I was shattered
Into a thousand jagged pieces.
The first time
Your honeyed eyes
Met mine,
I knew you were broken too.
But as time went on,
I began to realize
All of my fragmented parts
Fit perfectly in to yours.
Oct 1, 2020
Oct 1, 2020 at 8:26 PM UTC
Am I a bad person
For the time I swallowed
All of the pills
You spent your rent money on?
Or that time
That I slit my wrists
And bled all over your rug
To get your attention?
How about for that time
I screamed all night long
Until I woke up the neighbors
And thought my lungs would burst?
Am I a bad person
For all the ways I have tried
Over the years
To fight off my sadness?
May 3, 2019
May 3, 2019 at 1:06 PM UTC
Sometimes being with you
Felt like the universe was fighting
For us to be together.
Sometimes it was too strong
And the way we were pulled in
Was too strange to be coincidence.
But at every turn
We slapped it in the face.
Even now, I still feel that pull towards you.
And I'm not sure
I ever want it to stop.
Apr 30, 2019
Apr 30, 2019 at 9:33 AM UTC
You always ask
Why I do this to myself
Like you care.
And I make up excuse
After excuse.
But you would hate
To know the real reason.
I destroy myself so you can't.
Apr 25, 2019
Apr 25, 2019 at 4:11 PM UTC
Late at night
We used to sit outside
Smoking cigarettes
Talking about our lives.
I fell in love with you
All over again
Listening to the same story ten times.
And clouds roll would across the sky
Like smoke rolled over your lips.
The stars seemed to shine brighter for you.
Apr 24, 2019
Apr 24, 2019 at 11:40 PM UTC
The first day of Kindergarten,
I was overwhelmed
By every face in the crowd
Swirling in, blurring together
And under my breath, I chanted
"I want to go home."
Like a prayer.
The day after, they found me
Blood soaking the bathroom floor
I was locked away
In the sterile white of it all.
And under my breath, I chanted
"I want to go home."
Like a prayer.
Years later, I woke up
With blackened eyes and a bruised ego
Next to him
Pretending it was all my fault.
And under my breath, I chanted
"I want to go home."
Like a prayer.
Now, after all this time
And growing up
I still lay in bed some nights
And plead
"I want to go home."
Jan 23, 2018
Jan 23, 2018 at 7:58 PM UTC
You always ask
Why I do this to myself
Like you care.
And I make up excuse
After excuse.
But you would hate
To know the real reason.
I destroy myself so you can't.
Nov 22, 2017
Nov 22, 2017 at 7:03 PM UTC
I am perfect for you.
You are perfect for me.
We could not be a more perfect match.
But matches ignite
And we will burn.
Jul 25, 2017
Jul 25, 2017 at 5:17 PM UTC
The first time I saw you
It was through a ***** window.
You were leaning against a wall
Smoking a cigarette.
A tall, cool strager totally unaware.
I couldn't help but wonder
If your lips tasted like nicotine
Or if those slight curls
Were as soft as they looked.
And I knew then I wanted you.
I wanted to scream,
"Can I be your new addiction?"
But then you put out the spark
And retreated into that green door.
You left me wanting to see so much more.
Jul 18, 2017
Jul 18, 2017 at 6:51 PM UTC
When it's over
And you have
All but moved on
You change my plans.
Recanting every word
And every bruise.
Your tune changes
Faster than the song ends
And I am caught
Like a fly in your web.
Here's to our familiar suffering.
Let it begin again.
Jul 9, 2017
Jul 9, 2017 at 4:32 AM UTC