I want to ask you something if you dont object
Its a simple question without any threat
Do you remember when you first fell in love
When your heart broke free to the sky above
Would you not consider this, the best feeling in the world?
There used to be a time, where my mind was clear
A time full of joy and without any fear
Full of confidence and happiness
where my room at home was the only mess
The best feeling of all? Love you would say
A wonderful feeling, for which everyone would pray
It can make you happy but also sad
And it slows your mind and drives you mad
As good as it gets it can still be a curse
hitting you with no remorse
For as much beauty and joy it spends
There is something on that it mostly depends
If it hurts you and hits you and makes you feel weak
or if lifts you up and frees you of grief
And this little thing on which the outcome thrives
Is most importantly your attitude towards life
Sep 15, 2018
Sep 15, 2018 at 3:40 PM UTC
Looking up, a glance through the room,
the eyes searching for something to hold on to.
Our eyes met, right between your neighbors waterbottle
and the back of my frontmans chair.
I blinked and you looked away again.
My first day in the new class and yet,
are your brown eyes everything I remember
Ive never been known for giving up easily
and never been told to be a coward and yet
Did your eyes make me feel helpless like a fly
trapped in a web with no chance of getting away
The following weeks, months and years
would not differ much from how this whole thing started.
For every word we spoke Ive liked you more
For every laugh you laughed my heart stopped a beat
Every smile claimed a piece of me.
Every waking moment, every single dream
As time went by, my feelings did not stop
And I started to feel more positive around you.
Ive loved before. I thought I knew what I had to expect
but you showed me that I was wrong
Ive never told you this and I probably never will,
but you made my life better than you would ever imagine.
We talked. We laughed. We even danced together once on the schoolyard
when we got told we could graduate.
I never asked you out. I was afraid you would reject me.
I thought I would not be good enough for you.
Every time you laughed or smiled and you sat there with your friends
I realized that I would just be in the way. You were happy all along
So all I could do is make things worse for you
The last time I saw you, was at our prom.
At our graduation ceremony. We all drank that evening
And the last time I saw you, you stood next to me at the bar
ordering beer for you and your friends.
You with your red dress, your braided dark hair
looking at me with your brown eyes.
We exchanged a few words... nothing to memorable.
Not as memorable as you when you took the beer
smiled at me and went back to your friends.
I met you nearly three years ago. I learned to like you
and even to love you. Yet I never told you.
But maybe I should have..
because I will probably never see you again
Jul 4, 2018
Jul 4, 2018 at 7:49 PM UTC
Woken up by splattering rain
A raging storm outside my walls
I hear growling, screams and fire
And the echo of fearful desperate calls
Eyes wide open, I look out the window
just to see the sky embraced with darkness
No rain, no storm, no echoing calls
just a nightmare, as the cause of this madness
Jan 23, 2018
Jan 23, 2018 at 4:46 PM UTC
Jellyfishes she said, jellyfishes are funny
They dont have a brain you know?
They just swim and eat and swim and eat..
They might not even be afraid of being eaten.
Doesnt that sound like a live worth living?
Jan 23, 2018
Jan 23, 2018 at 4:38 PM UTC
I walk underneath darkened sky
heavy steps, boots full of mire
A ***** ***** lays over my shoulder
and in my eyes shines a fire
Tombstones grow from tormented soil
like broken teeth they protude from the ground
flickering shadows from the light of my lantern
and exept my steps, not a single sound
But then it starts, and my steps die away
a whisper of doom and a sudden wheeze
light voices from all around
a cold wind and a steady breeze
I start to dig a grave, ***** for *****
I dig a hole into the ground
Ignoring those voices, in my head
that tell me to stop and turn around
I know all those voices, I've heard them before
every time. when I step on this yard
I learned to ignore them, and to stick to my work
And to dig the graves, part for part
inside those cemetery walls,
where I started walking
you just have to be quiet
to hear dead men talking
And as a gravedigger
I heard many tales
Dec 9, 2017
Dec 9, 2017 at 2:57 PM UTC
The curtain falls, flickering lights
light the ground and reveal the scene
The life is a stage, with vertiginious heights
and death is our final performance
****** requires perfection
It requires the pure lack of feeling
And what is life, what is satisfaction
without the euphoria of killing
Everyone wears a mask
I just chose to create my own
And I will not stop and finish my task
until your body will drop down
Im on the chase,
wont reveal my face
I will finally end your disgrace
The sound of my gun
as proud as an eagles scream
like a whisper of death
and a promise of salvation
leaves fear and terror
wherever it speaks
The gunsmoke evaporates
and this blossom of blood
That the shot created on the ground
this never ending beautiful flood
And the wonderful aspect
of the silenced sound
Killing is art
And madness is just inspiration
Nov 26, 2017
Nov 26, 2017 at 3:10 PM UTC
There was a time
where people lived
without disconnection
A time of peace and love and happiness
But everytime when there is peace
Envy will rise
And every time when there is happiness
Envy will rise
And some people would do everything
to see you fall
All those perfect lies
all those ending lives
all those rising tides
The hatred's gonna rise
First steps into darkness
will leave you blind
But the longer you go
the more darkness
stays behind
You gotta keep on going forward
no looking back
because even at you backside
everything went black
The only way to escape this
is to find the light
but you keep searching with your body
and not with your mind
Humanity has been at its best
and now we pay for every single step
Our innocence is long gone
in this world of disloyalty
where you belong
All those perfect lies
all those ending lives
all those rising tides
The hatred's gonna rise
We reached our final status
and spend every dime
the way that was paved with gold
is now an empty mine
We learned to hate ourselves
And to pay blood with blood
But the one thing we did not learn
is that we had enough
Someday when rain is falling
and we are gone
it will wash away our tracks
every single one
All those perfect lies
all those ending lives
all those rising tides
The hatred's gonna rise
All those perfect lies
all those ending lives
all those rising tides
The hatred's gonna rise
Nov 12, 2017
Nov 12, 2017 at 5:12 PM UTC
I have always been a loner
and to me that was fine
I liked being by myself
and I spend so much time
wandering around thinking
about how the world could be
I have always been a dreamer
This world was not for me
theres way too much rules
But I wanted to be free
I dont need power or money on mass
I just wanted to be safe
and not a person out of glass
I have always been honest
and never backed out
stood up for mistakes
And never had a doubt
about doing the right thing
I have never been a coward
and rarely dropped a tear
I always met challenges
and rarely feld fear
But then the day came
When I first saw her smile
To see it again I would run through hell
and it would be worth every mile
She made my brain freeze
and my heart stopped a while
It was a moment like no other
this moment of her smile
Its been a year and my feelings wont budge
but Im too afraid to ask her out
A yes from her would change my life
But i guess that is what love is about
I dont want to be alone anymore
And theres no need to dream when she is around
Her no is the only thing that I fear
but I guess I have to stand my ground
I am a coward
Im too weak for this
I guess I should stop it
And never hope for a kiss
I tried to forget her
and go back to the start
but her glance broke my will
and her smile stole my heart
Sep 29, 2017
Sep 29, 2017 at 4:39 PM UTC
There are many things in life
that we want to keep intact
Many people we love and lived with
many people we want to protect
but some people are just doomed to fall
playing a game that they cant win
some people just closed the door
and locked themselves within
There are many things in death
that people want to see
the paradise or endless rest
wishes that go deep
some people are just tired
of living through and through
and others want to live eternal
but those are just a few
Humanity has had its part
we ruled this world for long
we did no good to mother earth
and all our gods are gone
They have rightfully abandoned us
And left us with this earth
that we destroyed and tore apart
from the moment of our birth
Now we all have a price to pay
and we cant retort a word
because we are a generation born
to witness the end of the world
Sep 20, 2017
Sep 20, 2017 at 1:23 PM UTC
The world is inequitable
The one who saved so many
had to go so early
No one could count
how many tears I have shed
an incredible amount
of bitterness and pain
It was you who saved me
who built me back up
It was just your melody
who made me stand tall
You and your brother
and some of your friends
made life so much better
until your very end
You've gone too early
gone with the wind
but now you are free
and no longer on the brink
you were a match made in heaven
too perfect to be true
after all you have given
you went into the blue
The day of your death
was a brandnew doomsday
the flames are still growing
now its our turn to pray
May peace guide your way
to eternity
I will never forget it was you
who saved me
May your halo shine bright
Sep 7, 2017
Sep 7, 2017 at 5:41 PM UTC