*And baby,
Ill apologize when you finally spot my flaws.
A little mole on my side,
The rough of my feet,
The divot in my jaw.
Youll say theyre nothing,
And you say youll love me more.
But will you?
Will you be able to,
When theres nothing left to adore?
Will you when you see
The invert of my hips,
The cracks on my lips?
The scars on my legs and shoulders,
The tears that turn to boulders?
A chunk of missing flesh in my left thigh,
The way my light breath can turn to a heavy sigh?
The already forming wrinkles,
The way that I cry,
And how my nose crinkles?
The sensitivity of my eyes,
The part of me that has already died?
My ability to stand tall,
How easy it is for me to break and fall?
When you realize all of this...
Will you still be here for the long haul?*
Apr 29, 2014
Apr 29, 2014 at 11:29 AM UTC
You haunt my dreams
Have for a while now
I try to push you out of my head
But honestly I don't know how
You have this grasp
On my heart and soul
You destroy my mind
And you don't even know
I cant seem to sleep
As you haunt every dream
Though I say I'm okay
Things are not how they seem
You look down on me
And I feel lower than dirt
You try to make me feel low
Well, guess what, it worked
I don't know what to do
I'm not sure how to deal
When no one seems to care
Just how bad you make me feel
"Just get over it"
"Just flip a switch"
Well that's kind of hard to do
When you are such a ******* *****
Apr 21, 2014
Apr 21, 2014 at 12:17 AM UTC
*I see it happening
My eyes are open
While yours are closed
I can see whats happening
Right under my nose.
I try to believe you
I do understand
Believe me i do
But the trust was lost
Even though i see you are true
Ive been hurt before
And to gain it back is hard to do
It is hard me to trust
So its not an easy task
But if we put up a fight
We can put everything in the past
You can earn my trust
You deserve to have it back
Its just hard to light it back up
Once everything has turned black
Im not sure why im this way
I have been abandoned
I have been stabbed in the back
And knocked dow by the wind
Im trying to look up
And give a fair chance
Theres just one thing holding me back
One thing keeping me in a trance.
The source of all the pain
The source of all this mess
But if you're willing to start again
Lets put our love to the test.*
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 14, 2014 at 8:07 PM UTC
*Like a pen running out of ink
I am slowly fading
Into the coffin that is my dying mind.
Im not sure when i started fading.
I just know it has built
Over years of hurt
Pain
Suffering
Im almost gone
I can feel myself slipping
To a never ending wasteland
That is this crazy world we call our home
Until one day death takes its toll
And we all disappear
Never to be heard from
Talked about
Or thought of
Again..*
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 14, 2014 at 7:38 PM UTC
*Pain takes nice people
And turns them to evil things
Words of terror bring them down
Down to the end of their beings.
Pain has changed me
To this morbid person
I cant write of love
I have no reason
I try and try
With no success
No matter what i try to write
It just ends in a mess
Pieces of poems
No one understands
These words i speak
I form with my hands
These words i write
Are filled with demons from my head
I can no longer love
My heart is officially dead
Hung up on your tree
Your tree of love
Hung from a noose
A rope from above
You are on my mind
And in my head
I should be happy
I should be dead
Why am i like this
Only bad thoughts
Why am i like this
Head is always hot
Can never be happy
It always turns bad
For real or in my head
I am always sad
Trapped in my heads prison
Can never seem to escape
Chained down from being happy
My life is one big mistake
No one can ever love me
And the demons in my head
Sometimes i wonder
If id be better off dead*
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 14, 2014 at 4:09 PM UTC
The shining glow that lights my path
A heartfealt gaze that always lasts
A sight more beautiful than any passed
Stops me dead in my weary tracks
Face so pure, sent from above
She steals my heart, and my undying love
I have not much, but my love and devotion
Ill give you my heart, and put it in motion
Cant buy you houses, or cars, or rings
I dont have riches, or fancy things
Still i can promise to do much better
Ill always love you, ill always be there
Ill do anything, no matter the task
I would move mountains to make love last
J promise dear, Ill find a way
To show my love, youll see some day
Ill forget the world, and stay a while
To hold you, love you, and see you smile
Apr 7, 2014
Apr 7, 2014 at 11:07 AM UTC
Sitting in the dark
This pounding in my heart
I need a release
To put me at ease
I crack open the bottle
My heart at full throttle
I'll drink 'til I can't walk
Maybe 'til I can't talk
Let it rush to my brain
So I can feel the gain
An easy feeling
The joy it is bringing
I drink 'til I see clouds
I drink 'til I pass out
Then I wake the next day
Sober, when life is dull and grey
Reality hits me right in the face
At such a fast and dangerous pace
I don't know what to do or think
All I know, is I need another drink
Apr 2, 2014
Apr 2, 2014 at 12:07 PM UTC
You used me
took what you needed
caused me so much pain
and left me here wounded
I've lost so many people
to the sword in your hand
did you ever care at all
or is this all what you planned
the sense of your presence
makes my head pound
and my heart always sinks
when you make any sound
after all that I've done
and sacrificed for you
can you do me one favor
and plan my funeral
Apr 1, 2014
Apr 1, 2014 at 1:14 PM UTC
I'm fine
I'm fine
maybe if I say it out loud
it won't be a lie
my heart is dying
I'm always crying
why can't life be simple
why do good things always crumble I wish I could spend forever by your side
But these feelings inside me
I can no longer hide
I know it will fade
But its taking too long
And I don't know what to do
my sanity is gone
please please
see she is wrong
and please hurry
before I am all gone
I can't be around her
I've said this before
the two faced *****
a blood ******* monster
I can be fine
but I can't be ok
still I can fake a smile
if only for your sake
with her around
I can't be happy
too many memories
so much worry
I can't deal with her presence
but I don't want to be apart
and I can see the only way out
is a bullet through my heart
Apr 1, 2014
Apr 1, 2014 at 1:08 PM UTC
My heart was broken
Shattered to pieces
But I still sit here
Loving you no less
People call me crazy
For still loving you with my heart's tiny pieces
But they dont understand
Our love full of forgiveness
I wont throw away our future
Based on events of the past
I never want to lose you
I want this love to last
My heart, yes in pieces
Will never be the same
But with you mending it day by day
I know this isnt a game
You are picking up the pieces
Cleaning up your mess
Putting my heart back together
Again, putting our love to the test
I dont see it going wrong this time
I dont see it ending in fire
Theres so much love and clarity
Theres so much want and desire
I want to be your other half
I'll gladly take that role
For you and I can last forever
And with your love, maybe my heart can again be whole.
Mar 31, 2014
Mar 31, 2014 at 2:04 PM UTC