Barefoot walk on the grass
Barely need to tell you anything
As you already know everything
Could easily sense any single thing
While I’m singing quietly alone
In my solitude around the strangers
It’s so strange how I’m my only home
My body is the sacred temple
It’s more spiritual then any church
I take my inspiration which is brought by wind
And letting the same flow take me wherever
Complete surrender whatever is the circumstance
Complete surrender for what it takes
Taking my time and slowly contemplating
I’m sharing moments with the one who seeks the truth
I don’t own properties or have any money
But I’m rich, abundant and I’m pure
Jun 20, 2024
Jun 20, 2024 at 1:23 PM UTC
I was lost in the mountains
Around the spiritual seekers
I was hearing woods whispers
Jungle singing it’s songs
I was singing together
With chirping birds
Thunders when changing weather
Was going to burst
Sky shredding it’s tears
Never ending beauty of nature
They say I am natural
Count me as a local
Count me as a family member
And I’m feeling proud
I’m not lonely
When Himalaya around me
It went straight to my heart
And I keep it inside of my chamber
Jun 18, 2024
Jun 18, 2024 at 4:35 AM UTC
Too addicted to social media
Lost the present
I don’t feel the God’s presence
Within or around me
The universe ain’t talking to me no more
I’m not stalking you no more
But your stupid posts are reaching me
In the social media
Easy dopamine addicts
Shortened attention spin
Ain’t meditative
Mad to the very depth of our minds
Looking here, looking there
Looking everywhere for something
Something important or pleasures
We’ve lost ourselves in constant scrolling
Of other people thoughts
Applying them on us
Who needs life when we got movies?
Who needs adventure when we got the comfort zone?
Don’t wanna leave it, do you?
I’m so ******* dreamy, lost in my head
Seems like I’ve lost my heart somewhere there too
Nov 28, 2023
Nov 28, 2023 at 1:23 AM UTC
I’m too far away from myself
Too far away from what nurtures me
Few days back I found out
That my name means “sea” in Persian
It took me almost twenty eight years
To learn that
But it made sense completely
As water my home
And when I’m far away from it
I’m feeling homesick
I’m feeling blue
As deep blue waters
The tender touch of the waves
With my feet on the soft sand
I really miss that
I feel like I’m in another galaxy
Or maybe another dimension
Where everything is so strange
And doesn’t make sense
Even the air and the atmosphere
Doesn’t suit me
The local air causes cough
I don’t understand people’s jokes
Their motivation and motive
Their purpose of life
Well… don’t get that either
As they don’t get me
Se la vi
Nov 14, 2023
Nov 14, 2023 at 11:48 AM UTC
I want to learn how to fight
So then no one can hurt me
Those who are strong are always right
And ain’t the opposite
Karma will be bought with money
While spots in heaven are sold out
It’s truly a hard place honey
If you’re not strong enough- you’re out
That’s why I wanna learn how to fight
So my fists will know how to answer
Or start the conversation
But for now I am too weak
Too weak to speak in a fist language
I also wanna know
How to get my feelings under control
Because what I feel, I feel too much
And this world is ruled by heartless people
Nov 14, 2023
Nov 14, 2023 at 11:45 AM UTC
You loved the cover
But did you love the book?
You told me
That you wanna be my lover
Is that so?
I know what I’m for you
We both do, don’t we?
Wild animal
One of the exotic species
You’d buy for money
But can’t tame
This white trash girl
Second hand jacket
Second class life
Never was the first
Never was the one
And you won’t be
We both know it
I’m ****** up
Cannot pretend I’m not
So I won’t
I’m letting be
Whatever I am meant
So would you dare to tame me?
Take me hostage?
Take me away
From my white trash life
Any second thoughts
On the second hand girl?
Nov 14, 2023
Nov 14, 2023 at 7:43 AM UTC
Too many implications which we are not
Mind hectic, dosha imbalance
Make sense out of this madness
Bet on your sanity, trying to crack the riddle
Not this, nor that, what is it?
A stranger in your own body
Disconnected from the authentic
Not this, nor that
The roots forgotten
Still seeking the truth
In the blinding darkness
Stumbled upon the eye opener
Your salvation is surrender
And recognition
Not this, nor that
Delirium
Who’s playing human
Forgets he’s not the character
Not this, nor that
Acknowledged being lost
At least knows that he is not that
Philosophy for hopeless nutcase
Drop, drop the hopes
Not this, nor that
Be here and now
Don’t listen to your head
The mind is sick
And spreading poison
Not this, nor that
Not that, nor this
Forget forget
Drop drop
Illusion drop
Not this, nor that
It’s only in your head
A thinker stop to think
Not this, nor that
Not this, nor that
It’s only in your head
Nov 14, 2023
Nov 14, 2023 at 12:45 AM UTC
I just need a friend to cry
On his shoulder
Oh I wish I never grew older
If I could I’d erase last two years
Of my life
But it’s useless
To regret of the past
I know it is useless
But I still do
Sometimes I just wish
That I never knew you
(Cause now you’re gone anyway)
I almost don’t think about you
But in my dreams you’re chasing me
Your voice, your face
Are chasing me
And I’m not changing
Not at all
I’m just the saddest of them all
And there’s no use for me
I’m just existing
Like a wild flower
I’m weak
I’ve got no power
Anyone can pluck me out
This soil doesn’t fit me anyway
Doesn’t nurture me
And you ****** the life out of me
I was so alive!
I was alive!
I was alive!
Alive!
Alive!
I was
But I’m not anymore
Not anymore
We are not anymore
We aren’t
****
But I was alive before you
Where has she gone?
I don’t recognize myself
Everyone’s doing something important
Achieving their important goals
Living up to their dreams
And it all makes sense
But I do not make any sense
Not at all
and I don’t know how to make any sense
All the ways lead to the dead end
Nov 4, 2023
Nov 4, 2023 at 6:14 AM UTC
Keeping your name
On the tip of the tongue
Like a mantra
Trying to tame my anxious mind
Help me to sleep
Was it my karma
To meet you?
Or just a simple mistake
Would I dare to jump into
If I knew what’s on stake
I’m loosing my mind
Perhaps my first shrink was right
With that diagnosis
I’m so certainly uncertain
About no **** at all
I wouldn’t bet on me
That’s not someone
You’d like to rely on
Stay away
For gods sake
That girl got issues
Push me away
Push me harder
Make it more painful
Seems like I made some mistakes
Just to make myself suffer
So I’ll have something
To punish myself for
How adorable
You really are a ******
It’s kinda cute
When you’re in early twenties
But you’ve outgrown the cute age, right?
No one likes you
No one cares
And every single one thinks you’re stupid
You look ridiculous
Am I not nice to myself after all ?
Aug 19, 2023
Aug 19, 2023 at 9:59 AM UTC
I have this love and hate relationship with my homeland
Always felt ashamed of the passport I’m holding
Hiding at right away
After airport check in
So no one can see
Bc that’s not the person I wanted to be
Never felt free in here
Never felt this place suits me
Every time coming back
I have this fear
That I will stuck
And won’t get out
From here
Perhaps I would love this place a little more
If we had borders opened with Europe
Or even better no boarders at all
If not the Russian influence
If we had national identity a little more
Oh god I’m so tired of repeating it
That no, my country is not a part of Russia
No we have our own history separate from them
And our own language
But I don’t even know it properly
Bc these jerks from the East of us did everything to eliminate it
(If I only could I would cut out Russian language out of my memory forever
And replace it with something else)
But at least I’m half Ukrainian
Which makes me a little bit more proud of my blood
Bc unlike these country residents they’ve got *****
And they do not have this national identity crisis
I’ve been raised up without family values
Even more I’ve been raised up without no values at all
I mean there were people who tried to put some values in me
But they couldn’t make it
Sometimes I envy those who’ve got some values
At least it makes some sense for their living
While I’m just keeping my existence senseless
And I turned out to be the saddest adult after all
Well if you can call an adult this infantile creature
It seems like I went too far
So what I wanted to say is
It seems like I pity my country out of love
But I don’t want to identify with it
Or be somehow connected
Oh god let’s us be the creators of our own destiny
Aug 19, 2023
Aug 19, 2023 at 9:55 AM UTC