Thoughts.. once again thoughts...they ought to be thoughts right?...endless contemplation on the drugs that i should be taking..mind baking trying to cook out what ounce of humanity i have left ,...these are my thoughts as the silent sighs drown out the false laughter ,cowering as i hide in a world away from what is reality..my sanity,
May 19
May 19, 2026 at 1:06 AM UTC
Yours,that's what I am
A piece of ever lasting gum
To be Devoured and spat out as the night becomes dawn
Unwrapped like a forbidden sweet and layed bare for all to see
Your Toy ,a pleasure puppet
Bruised and bitten
From head to toe
Yours to be smitten
A muzzled dog bound by the whistle of your sweet lips ,a good boy as i sit and wait for every command ,every gesture as i seek your approval , these are my devious deeds
My soul seeps
May 19
May 19, 2026 at 1:04 AM UTC
Heart ..that's all I have to give a mere insignificant beat that flutters everytime I think of you
My body numbs at the thought of me without you..
Im Obsessed by every inch ,every curve
By Every line inked on your body as they tell a story of pain ,love and what had yet to come
I love you forever I do
These are the words that are meant for you
Words I utter ,words I spew ..
May 19
May 19, 2026 at 1:02 AM UTC
A million words and now I have none
Tongue tied and blisters apon my feet as I wonder endlessly searching for the syllables to tell you how much I feel..I am lost..I am bound
As time yonders and stars fall
I gaze apon the empty space where we once laid, in an infinite abyss left breathless by every touch I am yours,forever more i am yours
Only yours! Without you I am nothing ,but a mere sphere where the imitation of God's proclaim their love to heavens ,to follow blindly at a distance forever engulfed by the gravity of your love pulling me closer and closer Only to let me fall onto darkness once more ,once more I am yours
A million words and now I have some
To say that I love you before it's all done
May 19
May 19, 2026 at 1:01 AM UTC
Love i guess that's not what it is ...
Nor the cold notion of what i seem to feel.
My illusion, my false sense of reality crumbles As i come to wake from the subconscious thoughts of you, it makes me wonder are these words mine to define?
A refusal to believe that I,a mere man could succumb to this,this dated ploy of hearts entwined...
But here I am once more, legs cross as you turn my way and it all crumbles once more...i do not love you...I say quietly as your smile heartens...and your cheeks turns red ,and I try to look away..
I do not love you...but thats just to hard to say..
May 19
May 19, 2026 at 12:59 AM UTC
Up, that's where I need to be
Among the clouds as I sway from all that once was me ,an illusion of the inclusion an kite drifting higher and higher as the blood in my veins circum to an inevitable end ,Pop...
An sweet welcome to my ears as I plunge once more to the reality of a casualty of my mentality ..this is not where I want to be..so I go UP
May 19
May 19, 2026 at 12:58 AM UTC
Drugs,that's not what I asked for...
fucking words running around my head as try comprehend what I took to make me feel this way..fucked up and flustered at the thought of you ..smacking my face as I try to wake up from this never ending dream, gut wrenching feelings you call butterflies! is this what you call love. Got me Hooked on A substitute drug for those who want more...more than I could ever give you..or is it...I look away as i try to catch my breath,dying every time i look at you,scared to say a word as I cower back to my world , a world without you...
May 19
May 19, 2026 at 12:56 AM UTC
Hello its me again ,it's been a while since we've laid down the complexed inner workings of this twisted mind..trying to make sense of all the noise of being constantly bombarded by questions of a vain existence while playfully fighting the urge to shove a cactus down my throat and out of my *** ..that sounds fun.. If that's your kink stay.. and let me tell you about how I,this awkward pile of fieces made a brief attempt to end himself by...ah...shit shame he's dead..where were we again...treading on the fine line between life and death In and out of consciousness once more or whatever you call it an never ending taunting of fate ,a **** you to death ..
May 18
May 18, 2026 at 10:54 AM UTC
To Love you
That's not a bad idea,
the notion that I could never put you, above all that's dear.
To love you with every laugh and fear,
through heartbreak and your rosey cheeks' drying tears.
So is this what it means to love when hidden amongst a facade of lonely peers?
A love unbeknownst beneath the stars and wondrous hearts,
to tell you these words where a love has part-
a love so near, when we are but a world apart.
To say I love you, but for he's your heart.
To love you when love has no heart.
May 13
May 13, 2026 at 10:24 AM UTC