New face
New voice
Same feels
Same fears
I love how
You relieve me
But I fear
That you’ll leave me
Like the others
That wondered about
Until they found what they sought out
Leaving my heart to whither and shrink
While my thoughts become filled with doubt.
Feb 6, 2019
Feb 6, 2019 at 6:25 PM UTC
I know the steps to shatter your heart
To make you feel this pain like me
The pain that holds my heart captive
The type of pain that runs deep
But My heart can’t gather enough strength to break you
Like you so easily broke me
Because I can’t see you broken without damaging myself
While struggling to help you find all of your shattered pieces
Feb 6, 2019
Feb 6, 2019 at 6:21 PM UTC
It’s crazy
Crazy how someone can care so deeply about you
But they can’t help from hurting you
Betrayal at its finest is what it is
When will I heal?
When will I forgive?
Because I want him here to be my rock
And I want to trust him again but I’m still stuck
Stuck on how he chose up
Stuck on how he switched up
Stuck on that feeling I had deep in my heart
Stuck on the memory that still tears me apart
I can’t forget no matter how much I try
things will never be the same
My trust is one thing he can never fully regain
Playing myself like a fool is one thing I cannot do
No matter how much he claims to have switched the way he moves
When he looks into my eyes he sees the pain
That very same pain I felt when everything changed
when I look in his eyes I see adorement
but still and yet I can’t see us making this commitment
He is mine...Though I doubt this to be fully true
And I long to be his but will we see this through
When will I heal?
When will I forgive?
Will I ever find more love for him ...to give?
Jan 8, 2019
Jan 8, 2019 at 11:41 AM UTC
I don’t love you.
I honestly never really cared.
I couldn’t care less.
That is until 10:16
When my body aches
And I hit you with the wyd
Because you’re what I want to taste
Don’t expect me to embrace you in your vulnerability
But I expect you to embark in your most vulnerable experience with me
Why?
Because we’re humans, baby
Because it’s natural, lover
Because your body looked so good in that dress
Because of the shape your hips and your thighs
Oh I love when you ride
I love when you taste me
Can you feel me inside
I’m giving it all to you
Promise me it’s mine
Because this belongs to you
Wait but not completely
I can only promise you the D
Because I need no emotional ties between you and me
I’m in a situation
I have someone else for that
Someone who’s still waiting for me to text her back
Someone you don’t know of and you’ll hopefully never meet
And after this I probably won’t call
until 10:16 next week.
Jan 1, 2019
Jan 1, 2019 at 9:49 PM UTC