We may have distance between us
But I will always be infinitely attracted
Even though I may go through some phases
just know that I'm not less than I once was,
and you will always be there
To shine your light onto me
Revealing every detail of my being
making me full again
Feb 5, 2022
Feb 5, 2022 at 9:18 PM UTC
I've spent my adolescent life skipping stones to doorways
Not a whisp in the wind of the future to come
Finding myself at the feet of salvation at every daily 'good turn'
Though never expecting much; For what was it worth expecting when the thought of a smile was all but satisfaction to innocent eyes.
Feb 5, 2022
Feb 5, 2022 at 8:56 PM UTC
I lust for someone who doesn't care.
I care for someone who doesn't love.
I love someone who doesn't feel.
I feel for someone who doesn't care.
And so the cycle continues
Because I'll never be enough.
Jan 27, 2020
Jan 27, 2020 at 10:13 PM UTC
When you say you
would take a bullet
for me, I secretly
hope the bullet goes
through you and into
me, so I dont
have to live without
Y
O
U
Jul 13, 2019
Jul 13, 2019 at 3:42 PM UTC
I was once a blind man; I sought after something that simply didn't exist.
I climbed the stairs, to reach the roof of the building. Looking down was a sea of hope. I did not want hope~
I tried, I jumped wanting to sprout wings and fly, soar above anything that may put me in harms way.
But like a stalled plane, I fell hard and fast.
I was never this trusting, I sealed my heart within the confines of my eternal jail cell -the mind- hoping it would never escape the darkness.
My weary mind only brought angst and distorted memories.
those feelings I had never wanted to feel again.
Like melted glass, my heart was sculpted from pieces of my broken past.
shattered over and over, I fought for whatever remained but my mind can be malleable. It can be twisted and believe in the lies that one may bring upon myself.
The will to love, to trust, to become one with another was all but forsaken until an enlightening soul entered my life.
How the memories of the taken, were brought back onto my mind and to hell they went for the sins they've committed. I didn't care. I broke the circle and without hesitation ran toward the inflicted. They were torn. Just like I.
They're heart shattered just like I.
I saw them, atop the same building.
About to jump.
But it was then I realized, it was me. Again and again the cycle continued.
I was the one who pulled myself toward the hope.
I was the one who wanted to love again.
I never wanted to grow wings, to glide into the vanta night sky alone once again.
I never wanted solitude
I realized myself. Who I am, who i'm meant to be.
The sins I commit are ones i'm proud to speak for if they are sins at all; why should I abandon those who sought to condemn me to hell?
I am a man of my own free will. I am a man who seeks his own happiness. I am a man who controls his life.
I am me.
May 11, 2019
May 11, 2019 at 5:33 PM UTC
I hate myself
so please dont try to convince me
I'm worth it
Because no matter what
I'm my worst enemy
And I'd never lie to myself by saying
I shouldnt have self hatred
So I promise you that I will always remember
That I'm the epitome of my mistakes
And nothing you say will make me think
I still deserve a happy life
Because no matter what
I'm not good enough for people
And I will never believe that
I'm good enough for anyone
Because whenever I look at my reflection I think
Have I ever deserved a happy life?
Feb 1, 2019
Feb 1, 2019 at 10:16 PM UTC
A Sin! A Sin! Yet one i shall keep!
For whatever we sow,
Together we reap!
Jan 29, 2019
Jan 29, 2019 at 10:11 AM UTC
I learned guitar
just for the perfect moment
when i find me and my future
perfectly in tune
ready to play the melody
that is life
Jan 29, 2019
Jan 29, 2019 at 7:12 AM UTC
Mend me
Dont end me
My heart so eroded
So shattered
So broken
Mend me
Dont end me
Melt my eroded heart
Until it become
Glass once more
Jan 28, 2019
Jan 28, 2019 at 9:46 AM UTC
Dont you feel like
Life is easier emotionless
We try to seize the moment
But in the end its always "goodbye"
And forced to face reality
Because we're all going to die
My fake smile is all you see
Because we all know the
Tears are real, the smile's not me
Do we truely know whats inside of us
That deep down we are nothing but
our broken hearts and lost parts
Fallen glass and broken shards
We try so hard to realize our strengths
So we can mask our greatest weaknesses
But in our heart and souls
We know what we are...
-Terracotta soldiers;
A hollow shell
Of handcrafted beauty
Hidden from a world
Ignorant enough
to forsake our existance-
Jan 25, 2019
Jan 25, 2019 at 11:37 AM UTC