When he said he love you
You feel precious and appreciated
And when i said i loved you
You felt restless and afraid
Tomorrow is our first date
You probably accept so you can make me go away
I don't care because this is my chance
To prove my love for you before you chased me away
I can see you were uncomfortable but appreciative
I respect that side of you so much
But i understand that there is nothing more to it
That i was nothing more than an annoyance
When he gave you your birthday gift
You were fidgeting for hours can't hold your excitement
When i gave mine to you
You also fidgeting for hours
Wondering to give it back or throw it away
There is no secret nor mystery
The love life of a trash is just like a typical action movie
Where you already know the hero will win in the end
But you just keep watching just in case it doesn't
Why the hell people like me still fell in love
Is it because i love getting hurt?
Am i some kind of a *********
Am i just that dumb?
Hope is like a poison to a trash
Its weakening them when he was supposed to be strong
It makes them falter even after years of strengthening their resolve
It makes them see what should have never be seen
I don't belong here
No wonder it feels so **** uncomfortable
Everything is just so flashy and... "human"
Trash belong in a trashcan
Jul 15, 2018
Jul 15, 2018 at 12:20 AM UTC
For the longest time i dreamt
A beautiful story with a beautiful end
That i will laugh, sleep and cry
With the one that won't leave me behind
And for the longest time i thought i will
Walking down the road with such a thrill
Facing up troubles and the destiny that i will fulfill
For i am the main character of my own story, at least that's how i feel.
I craved for love and can't wait to feel it
I knew nothing about it but i'm sure i will get it
To meet someone is all i ever wanted
And then there she was and i thought, "this is it"
And it was as beautiful as i always thought it will
But then she left...
I'm sure, no, i knew she will be happy
With someone else...
..................
I met someone new and she was great
Third times a charm, people said
I was even more happy than i ever was but i suspect
That that feeling is not mine to kept
Everyone come and go and still here i was
Racking my brains up, i just can't figure it out
What did i do, why it keeps on happening
I keep on being happy and, and it then it was gone before i even know it
After all this time i finally understand
That i'm just a stepping stone, a bumpy road for everyone to pass on
I'm just a sidekick because my story is not worth telling
I'm just a sidekick because my life is not worth living
Jan 22, 2018
Jan 22, 2018 at 8:06 AM UTC
There is so much that i don't understand
I feel like its not something that concerns me
While it seems so obvious why
It seems like even i, have some pride
A girl that looks at you like you were her whole world
It feels like all she wants is to say your name with every breath she takes
A girl that cherish you as if you are her treasure
Caring for, and fearing for you to have the slightest discomfort
A girl that loved you with all her hearts
She make it seems like living is not worth it without you
I've seen it all
People keep saying it
How does it feel, i would ask to myself
For it such a foreign thing for me
Being in love is something i knew about
But to be loved back, is just a faraway dreams that i don't deserve to had
Someone like me
Someone like her
...........................
Dec 31, 2017
Dec 31, 2017 at 7:31 AM UTC
A silly boy with his small hands
Filled up with dreams and hope to no end
As high as the cloud as vast as the sky
There is nothing can stop him you just can't deny
Monsters in the cave, and trolls on the mountain
He slay them all with ease after giving them the pain
His horse is big, as big as his pride
He is still a silly boy, with a small stride
Along came a fairy with words as sweet as honey
Promising him the world on a platter, and at the top, a cherry
The boy has no clue as he was foolish and silly
His heart is beating fast as if it was in a hurry
"I never felt this way before. What is this feeling"
"I will do anything for her. In fact, i want to give her everything"
"I will strike down zeus himself, and cursed hades to death if she ask me"
"For there is no greater deeds than to please a fairy"
She take what she can get, and leave out all the rest
She was happy with the serving boy, but its not gonna last
Even if she knew what the boy actually wants
She only offer the world but not her heart, so it should be fine
Silly boy
Silly boy
Played with like a toy
Proud as he was, and dumb as he is
He finally realize there is nothing more to it
As he muster his last strength and was sure he has nothing left
He ask her softly "can i die yet?"
And so she nod beautifully
"Die silly boy, die in your sleep."
"As it was much more than you deserve, honestly"
"You outlived your purpose gracefully, for such a silly boy and a creep"
Dec 28, 2017
Dec 28, 2017 at 7:17 AM UTC
Lonely winds blows my heart
Hold my soul so it won’t be apart
See everything but feel nothing
And it’s time to get in the ring
I get up and starts to walk
This new hope burning in my chest
If i can’t go to that other world
I’ll find someone here and get some rest
Hey is anyone there?
Anyone?
I watch my step, it’s getting darker then ever
Still had my faith but now starts to wonder
Screams louder, hears nothing
Now I don’t know where i’m going
So i light a thousand candles
Hoping to see the lights of angels
Feeling too tired, hope fading fast
Still i have to save me from myself
And now the candles are gone one by one
I’m scared, there’s no one to be found
Sitting here right againts the wall
It looks like i’m all alone afterall
Dec 8, 2017
Dec 8, 2017 at 7:17 AM UTC
Our dream were small but difficult
Smaller than a rusted keyhole so it wouldn't get through
Our pride was high as we stand above the rest
The fool, the brainwashed, the zombies, and the pest
Their caged mind turns them into the warden, and their self-importance opinion turns the world into a prison
What a dangerous thing, a perception is
I saw a tall dark figures, and you saw a little fairy with her tiny wings
I saw a gruesome ugly ogre, and you saw a wiseman that feeds the poor
What is the truth?
Who holds the power?
The people?
The ruler?
We live in a world of perception
We thought it was our own
But it never was, wasn't it
We all can see the curtain, yet we never look what's behind it
Because we thought we know it was and we put in our trust
As you'll all will finally see, perception rules us
Nov 17, 2017
Nov 17, 2017 at 5:43 AM UTC
t's hard to relax
With all of this train of thoughts
Eyes open wide
I'm flying deeper in this cold night
I remember when i start this day
I'm happy and careless, but its all ok
I know what i wanted and try to reach it
So sure that my hand can touch and feel it
Who knows things can turnd out bad
It's coming from every corner
Waiting for my mistakes
And ambush me with all of it strenght
Now i know how fool a man can be
Trapped in a hole that a blind man can see
My pride and ego always failed me
Now it happened there's no point to sorry
I hide behind the pillow and close my eyes
Hoping that i could fall into dreams
It's 30 minutes before the day lights
These regrets, still wont set me free
Oct 26, 2017
Oct 26, 2017 at 9:47 AM UTC
Its not something that occurs everyday
You met someone and you don't know how it starts away
Crazy how simple it is to say
I love you but i don't know what it means anyway
You pull me up
And i see your smile
And here it comes
You won't be alone girl, no more
My love could last forever
As tears and sadness goes away
You'll found that i'm here to stay
Years gone by in an instant
I could barely appreciate your everything
I can feel that right at this moment
The world is turning just for the both of us to sing
I pulled you up
And i see your smile
Here i come
Oct 21, 2017
Oct 21, 2017 at 9:26 AM UTC
I know you were already used to the pain
But to be honest, nobody cares
So even if you were hurting
Please keep it to yourself
No one can be expected to show empathy
To someone that is so pathetic
I know what you wished for
Someone to share the burden
Someone to depend on
Someone to **** this boredom
Someone to die for
Lets be real here for a second
You worth nothing more than a trash
How dare you ask for us to grief
When you die what we felt was relief
Please stop bothering her
She was too good for the likes of you
The cheerful girl that brighten our days
Isn't for someone like you to chase
Stop following her you pathetic
We've grown tired of your antics
She doesn't like you even for a bit
Making her feel uncomfortable is all you did
She was just being nice
Like she did with everyone
How dare you feel so special
When she gave you a little attention
Back off and die
No one cares
Back off and die
So she can smile
Oct 17, 2017
Oct 17, 2017 at 10:06 AM UTC
Cheerful and bright
Colorful delight
I'm such of a fool too realize
You're too much of a prize
Too caught up in my own delusion
Stirred up in confusion
I held myself responsible
For being so gullible
You stretch your arm and you smile
The whole world shines so much brighter
He came and hold you in his arm
I see your face couldn't be happier
There is no place for me
There is no place for me, in your world
I can't believe how easy i fall into this
Does my mind playing tricks on me
Or was i simply such a fool
For wanting someone like you
I'm not the reason for your smile
I'm not the cause of your tears
So insignificant and small
I wish to be something more than this
Defeated and despaired
I'm walking home to nowhere
For mine was by your side
But there is no place for me there
There is no place for me anywhere
Oct 17, 2017
Oct 17, 2017 at 9:53 AM UTC