Hindi ko kasi alam
kung saan ako lulugar
Ako na ba talaga
Siya pa rin yata
Sabi mo kasi wala na
Pero sa iyong bawat salita
Nakikita ko siya
Nandiyan pa siya
Natatakot kasi ako
Na mahulog para sayo
Mahulog at hindi masalo
Dahil yakap yakap mo pa siya
Sabi mo kasi napapasaya kita
Ngunit laging may lungkot
Sa iyong mga mata
Namimiss mo lang yata siya
Tama ba'ng ituloy pa ito?
Baka sa dulo'y wala ring tayo?
Baka sa dulo'y ako na lang?
Ayoko nang masaktan
Hangad ko lang naman
Ang iyong kasiyahan
Sinusugal ang aking kabuuan
Laging nagtatapang-tapangan
Pinapairal ang katangahan
Sigurado ka ba sa iyong nararamdaman?
Kasi hindi ko na alam
Kung saan ako lulugar
Baka isang araw
Sa aking pagmulat
Wala ka na at sabay na ulit kayong naglalakbay
Ingatan ko daw ang aking puso
Pero bakit tila
Mas mahalaga sa aking
Buuin ang sa iyo
Habang unti-unting gumuguho
Ang puso ko
Feb 24, 2017
Feb 24, 2017 at 8:38 PM UTC
Your hands didn't fit mine perfectly;
My arms were a little too long compared to yours.
That when we walked,
Hand in hand,
Someone always had
To reach out for the other
My palms were always sweaty;
At any time of the day.
That before we walked,
Hand in hand,
I always had to wipe
The sweat off my palm
Yet we always walked,
Hand in hand.
Despite how uncomfortable it is;
We walked,
Stood,
And sat,
Hand in hand.
It's not like us, holding hands, was any different
From us, being together.
You come from your own world,
I come from mine.
We like different things.
Our personalities are always crashing.
But somehow,
Despite all the signs that tell us
We're not supposed to be
Our souls held each other
Hand in hand
Feb 20, 2016
Feb 20, 2016 at 4:31 AM UTC
"No more questions?
Let's move on to the next topic"
Mula nang mawala ka,
Sa bawat pagkakataong
Banggitin iyan ng aking mga ****
Napapatanga ako at itinatanong sa sarili,
"Ganon lang ba kadali yun?"
Sana kasing dali
Ng paglipat ng pahina ng aking libro
Ang paglipat ng puso ko mula sayo, pabalik sakin
Sana kasing dali
Ng pagbura ng marka ng lapis sa kuwaderno
Ang pagbura ng alaala mo sa aking isipan
Sana kasing dali
Ng paglabas pasok ng mga **** sa silid
Ang paglabas pasok mo sa aking mundo
Sana pero hindi
Dahil tila nasa bawat pahina ka ng aking libro
Dahil tila marka ng bolpen ang pilit kong ibinubura
Dahil tila nakalabas ka na ngunit pilit kitang inaanyayahang bumalik
Kahit ilang pagsasanay, pagsusulit, at oral recitations pa
Sana bumalik ka
Pero hindi.
"No more questions?
Let's move on to the next topic"
Paano nga naman kasi ako makakausad
Kung isipan ko'y punong-puno pa rin ng katanungan
Feb 11, 2016
Feb 11, 2016 at 3:42 AM UTC
It's sad
How we ended up like this
Settling
On the fact
That we can never be just friends
But we can never be more than that
It's sad
How middle ground does not exist
Hoping
That there's more to this
Though we both know
It's all there is
It's not
That we don't love each other
But it's because of that love
That we seek peace
Peace in the fact
That this is our resolution
Yet my heart
Wasn't resolved
Feb 1, 2016
Feb 1, 2016 at 6:02 AM UTC
Pero
Isang salitang
Pag iyong marinig,
Dapat nang paghandaan
Ang sakit na papalapit
"Maganda naman pero..."
"Mabait ka naman pero..."
"Mahal kita pero..."
Isang hudyat
Ng dapat pang ayusin
Ng kasayangan ng panahon
Ng pagkukulang
Isang hadlang
Sa satispaksyon
Sa pagkakaibigan
Sa iyo at sa akin
"Mahal kita pero may iba na"
"Mahal kita pero hindi ko na kaya"
"Mahal kita pero hindi na tama"
Madaming pero
Madaming dahilan
Di mo lang maamin
Ayaw mo na talaga
Sana sa susunod
Sabihin mo naman
"May iba na pero mahal kita"
"Hindi ko na kaya pero mahal kita"
"Hindi na tama pero mahal kita"
Na tila ba
Nagsasabing
"Ano man ang humadlang, humahadlang, at hahadlang,
Mahal kita,
At iyon lang,
Sapat na,
Para sa ating dalawa"
Jan 26, 2016
Jan 26, 2016 at 5:41 AM UTC
"It's too good to be true"
Is what people say
When things actually go their way
When happiness envelops their lives
When the skies are filled with rainbows and unicorns
It's sad
How when things
Are going great
It automatically becomes unbelievable
But there's no one to blame
Because truly
When things are going well
Dark clouds are also likely to come
Remember when
We were perfectly happy
In each other's arms?
We laughed our hearts out 24/7?
Fights were composed of
Who gets to put down the phone
After 6 hours of nonstop talking?
I should've known
You were too good to be true.
Jan 23, 2016
Jan 23, 2016 at 9:00 AM UTC
Natakot ako noong araw
Na nagising ako
At naramdaman ko ang kabog ng puso ko
Parang iba na ata
Ang sinasabi nito
Hulyo noong nangyari ito
Ngunit Oktubre na nang aminin sa sarili
Ang matagal nang ikinubling damdamin
Dahil nakakatakot
Nakakatakot ang mahulog
Para sa isang taong hindi naka-abang
Upang ika'y saluhin
Nakakatakot malunod
Sa lalim ng iyong mga mata
Na baka hindi na makabalik pa
At maiwang nag-iisa
Nakakatakot sabihin
Ang damdaming itinanggi
Dahil baka di pakinggan
At tuluyan nang iwasan
Natakot ako pero sumugal ako
‘Di na ata kakayanin pang itago ito
Ngunit matapos ang lahat
Tama nga ako
Tama nga ang paulit-ulit na sinabi sa sarili
Hindi na dapat
Bakit nahulog pa
Bakit nalunod pa
Bakit sinabi pa
Sana tinago ko nalang
Mas nakakatakot pala
Nang tuluyang mawala ka
Jan 19, 2016
Jan 19, 2016 at 6:41 AM UTC
Sana pala sinabi ko nalang ang totoo
Noong pwede pa
Sana pala hindi ko nalang inisip
Ang mga negatibong pwedeng mangyari
Kapag sinabi ko ang totoo
Dahil anong malay ko kung kahit sa maliit na tsansa lamang
Mahal mo rin pala ako
Sana pala sinabi ko'ng "dahil gusto pa kitang makausap"
Nang tanungin mo kung bakit hindi pa 'ko matulog ng mahimbing
Sana pala sinabi ko'ng "dahil mas importante ka"
Nang tanungin mo kung bakit sa dinami-dami ng dapat ko'ng gawin
Ay ang kausapin ka'y di muna udlotin
Sana pala sinabi ko na
Na ang mga tala sa kalangitan
Ay mas nagniningning
Mula nang makilala ka
Na ang pagtaas at paglubog ng araw
Ay mas makulay
Dahil napapanood ito gamit ang iyong mga matang mapupungay
Sana pala sinabi ko na
Na mahal na mahal kita.
Sana pala
Ginawa ko na.
Ngunit huli na nga ata talaga.
Jan 14, 2016
Jan 14, 2016 at 12:46 PM UTC
I don’t know but
I always find you
I always find you
When I’m thinking
About how to design my nails
Once the holidays start
I always find you
When I’m baking
My favorite cookie,
Thinking of the one you made for me
And how it still wins
The best cookie award
I always find you
When I watch my favorite show
And how I used to watch it with you
I always find you
When I look at my sister
Because you loved her
Like how I do
I always find you
When I’m left with my thoughts
Thinking how wonderful it is
To have met someone like you
That even if we’re far apart
Even if we’ve said our goodbyes
Even if you’ve moved on with your life
In my heart,
I will always find you
Jan 12, 2016
Jan 12, 2016 at 10:22 AM UTC
I hate dreams
All the bad ones
But especially the good ones
The good ones wherein you and I,
You and I,
Are happy.
I hate how those dreams
Make me feel
Like there’s a chance
Between you and I,
When really,
There’s just none.
I hate how in those dreams
I can laugh my heart out
I can say how much I love you
And you’d be saying it back
Because after that one great adventure
With you,
I wake up
And it’s just me
And my empty inbox
That used to be filled with the surge of your words
Another regular day of trying
Trying and trying and trying
To finally say
That I’ve moved on;
That I’m over it
Early in the morning
But instead of opening my eyes
I force them shut,
Turn off the world
Because maybe,
Just maybe,
I could dream again
And there I would find,
You and I
Jan 5, 2016
Jan 5, 2016 at 9:33 PM UTC