Back to the moment when
You first bore your eyes into mine
As if love was the reason
I could never see the signs
Days pass, months go by
Each glance, every gaze averted
Strengthening and fraying our tie
If it was fondness or indifference, I was never certain
Felt nothing since
Just exasperated sighs
My reverential silence
Pledging oath to your lies
Blood pumped to and fro
****** functions and respiratory gears
All to keep your precious eyes aglow
Those ever so indiscriminate spears
Your eyes tell a story
My eyes a trell to yours
Without words, told me not to worry
Till the words came out and shook the oars
Monster of delusion in my head
Your rations I so desperately seek
Giving just enough to keep him fed
Your bitterness subsisting, keeping him weak
A relenting indisposition of my heart
A holy monolith of apathy
Trophy antlers, **** the hart
Hang me on the wall for all to see
Brand your cross into my chest
Rebuke, purify me
Lay my demons to rest
With your loving animosity
If my love brings such disgust
Turn the other way
Pursue lust
Lead on a new unsuspecting stray
Should’ve never welcomed your scorn
Never let your idiocies charm me
Now I'm alone, at best, lovelorn
Paper hearts strung across the tree
I fell in love with evil
Catastrophe of attraction
Your ****** souls were never subtle
Caught me like an ocean siren
An honest mistake
Now I'll pay the price
Alone by the lake
Beaten reflection in the ice
So I'll go under
As if it will numb the pain
But your scars are all over
Every tissue, every vein
Lured me in the dark
Then tried to throw me back
But your hook made its mark
Blood and love I will lack
I've eaten the fruit of sin
Stem and all
This crucifixion
With no love to watch me fall
Jan 28
Jan 28, 2026 at 6:57 PM UTC
Great heavens! Dear God!
Here in this room, it feels so odd
Me and my thoughts
Tears and blood clots
Dear God, why do I feel alone?
No souls in the room, just flesh and bone
Why can’t I feel you with me
Why haven’t I been graced, why can’t I see
I can’t feel your sacred breath in my lungs
Am I not one of the chosen ones?
Dear God, all the things I see, all the things I wonder
This evil and sadness, my minds sunder
The death and loneliness famine the land
Hospital beds mass produced, pill bottles buried in the sand
I don’t want my grief to spread
I just want peace, happiness, “so naive,” they said
But God, you could do it, why haven't you
Free will has done nothing for me, nothing for you
Dear God, if your real, I just want you to know
I would have faith if it weren't for this all-consuming sorrow
If it weren’t for these seeds of sin you punish, yet still sow
The things I cant see, cant feel, but I know, I know
Dec 5, 2025
Dec 5, 2025 at 4:58 PM UTC
The rumors spread
Cannot be undone
Heart full of lead
Your heart way a ton
Enjoy what is left
It won't be long
Here on this cleft
A miracle like Armstrong
Is our only chance
Our only survival
Cease your romance
Befriend your rival
Go to the beach
Take in the moon
Run where you’d never reach
It will all be over soon
At ease my friend
For today shall be the end
Nov 20, 2025
Nov 20, 2025 at 10:03 PM UTC
The great Mt. Everest
The highest point
Up here on the summit
The wind blows so rapidly
Fiercely, a show of power
But Everest will topple
All mountains crumble
Erode overtime
From the rain and wind
Constantly wearing them down
A beautiful rose
Petals flared
Bright and full of life
Plucked into a bouquet
Along with many others
For one smile
To wither and wilt
In the darkest corner of your room
The great universe
The ever expanding
Canvas of stars and galaxies
Painting the night sky
The beauty and unknown
That will one day
Be the last thing we see
All the love in the world
Shadowed by the hate
Eating at it everyday
Until there is none left
Every hour, every minute
A fleeting moment
Why can’t we just live
And enjoy what small time we have
Take my hand
Let’s run away from this place
And change our names
We have been taught and told
Great things never last
So let’s grow old
And forget about our past
We can prove them wrong
Because love follows no rules
My love, come along
Two hearts, two fools
Nov 19, 2025
Nov 19, 2025 at 9:50 PM UTC
You've done nothing wrong
You’re just doing what you know
And so am I
You were taught
And so was I
You couldn't love me
But neither could I
Maybe one day
You’ll pass me on a street
And you’ll never know
What you did to me
And that would be fine
Like everyone says,
Maybe it just wasn't right for us
We are just two lost souls
Wandering this world
Hoping we will find
Someone to lead us
I just wish it could have been you.
Nov 19, 2025
Nov 19, 2025 at 9:48 PM UTC
Every please
Every thank you
All the smiles
And soft eyes
Laid upon me
Gone with the thought
What would they think
If they really knew me
Or if I wasn’t me
If I was a women
If my skin was darker
If I didn’t speak the same language
Would they want me out
If I came here from another country
In search of a better life
If I loved a man
If i didn’t feel like a man
My worries must be substantiated
Half of this nation
Against its own beliefs
The fathers of this land
Who spent their lives
To protect the future
Were they nothing?
The hate they worked so hard to erase
Just for the fuel to be poured
On the dying out flames
All I want is peace and love
But what can I do
I am just a child
Yet the sunshine feels farther
And darker, each day
The gravity of the black hole
Getting so much stronger
Reeling me in
Maybe I'm overthinking it
I’m told I always am
Give me back my years of youth
I shouldn’t have to bear this weight
Take me back
When I was naive
To my first step
My first word
Just a thing to be cradled
Maybe I'm too smart for my own good
Too emotionally intelligent
Painfully empathetic
Or I'm just a narcissist
Who thinks he knows better
A face in the water
Every ripple
Ripping a new hole
Into my soul
Into my brain
And into my heart
One day, I will know what a cannon sounds like
How to hold a gun
Or how to drown out the screams
Helmet on, down in the trench
Bullets and bombs, brand new
Oh, land of the free
Have I failed you?
Or have you failed me?
Oct 3, 2025
Oct 3, 2025 at 3:38 PM UTC
Every tear for you
When will you come and wipe them
Rid the days of blue
Mercy to my mayhem
Take me away
Into the light
Godless, I pray
Every day, every night
Into my arms, my love
Let’s leave the world behind
Hear the chirping, the mourning dove
Lets run away, forever intertwined
We could be deities in our own land
Out on our own, our paradise
Love you for all time, hand in hand
Free of vex and free of vice
Is it hard for you to accept
That you would love such a thing?
My little dream, for so long I’ve kept
Hanging on by a thread, our little string
It’s so hard to keep in reverie
All my fantasies are fraying
Because every waking memory
Leaves me droughted, my love decaying
You’re so different in reality
So much colder
Our lovely make believe, you’ll never see
Well both get older
But I’ll never forget you
And I’ll always remember
How you never even knew
That you changed me forever
So we can let it come to an end
And I’ll find peace elsewhere
Your unscathed, I’ve got wounds to mend
Once a dream, now my eternal nightmare
Sep 30, 2025
Sep 30, 2025 at 9:45 PM UTC
Hold and caress me
Console me when I cry
I don't need to be on your mind
As long as I’m in your eyes
You’re enchanting
Keep me under your spell
You could call it cognitive dissonance
Blissful ignorance, as well
Your apathy is magnetizing
As you lead me astray
Your touch is hypnotizing
This forlorn foreplay
These chains and shackles
They keep me here
But I don’t mind being controlled
So long as you’re near
Trail and tease
Ignore my plea
Do as you please
Beguile me
Sep 20, 2025
Sep 20, 2025 at 9:37 PM UTC
When I hear love songs
I think of you
When I see lovers
I think of you
When I see myself
I think of you
But now I see
You never think about me
Jun 2, 2025
Jun 2, 2025 at 9:05 PM UTC
In my dream I wrote a poem like this
I can't recite it fully
But I wrote this in its essence
The one time I can find peace
Escape from the world
Yet my sadness
Leaks into my unsuspecting mind
My dreams aren’t dreams
Just glorified nightmares
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I used to find beauty in difference
But now I only see you
The same you
In everyone
In every labored breath
Of every man and woman
I see your lips,
Your comforting smile
Never felt like the rest
I used to appreciate
How everyone had their distinct features
Their own unique radiance
But the lights are getting dimmer
And yours only seems to glow brighter
I’m staring into the sun
I try to love someone else
But your always there
Shining in the peripheral
I used to be able to see growth in the change
But still, I sit everyday
Mourning your illusory loss
I used to be able to find meaning in the chaos
But now, it’s just chaos
Maybe someday
Someone will show me
The meaning
I've searched for
For so long
I used to understand
I didn't need to question
Why things happened to me
I used to
May 27, 2025
May 27, 2025 at 10:39 PM UTC