My arms starve for you.
My lips hunger
My eyes crave you
My heart pangs
My stomach twists
My mind yearns
My soul pleads for you.
My body grovels and begs,
sobs and cries out
My existence needs you
And I will wait.
And wait.
And wait. And wait.
And wait. And wait.
And wait.
And one day
I will be only bones.
And I will still wait.
Always.
Even my dust
will thank the universe
to slip through your fingertips.
-C&C
Dec 6, 2025
Dec 6, 2025 at 10:12 PM UTC
I'm tired
Of being
Someone
I can't be
And I'm tired.
I'm tired.
I'm so
*******
Tired
And angry
And done
And tired
And tired
And tired
And anxious
And angry
And frustrated
And angry
And ******
And sad
And lonely
And tired
And tired
And overwhelmed
And stressed
And tired
And anxious
And angry
And angry
And done
And tired
And tired
And tired
And-
-Cnwlry
Aug 26, 2024
Aug 26, 2024 at 4:18 AM UTC
I am a pigeon.
Once a pet
Once loved
Wanted
Cared for
...But now...
"Filthy"
"Diseased"
But the only disease
Is the lack of care
That I can't live without.
-Cnwlry
Aug 25, 2024
Aug 25, 2024 at 12:05 AM UTC
Dear Dad,
I miss you.
Even if I know
You were a bad dad.
I'm still scared to stand up to you
But daddy...
I miss talking to you
I still miss having a dad
And even though I'm different
I hope you miss me too.
I've always tried very hard
To be someone you could love.
Even though I've always known
I'd fail.
-Cnwlry
Aug 24, 2024
Aug 24, 2024 at 5:14 AM UTC
Past birthdays
Wishing to make it to the next.
Well here I am
Mourning the girl who isn't.
-Cnwlry
Feb 11, 2024
Feb 11, 2024 at 4:02 PM UTC
A dark room
Hiding in the corner
Barely singing a song
Whispering the words
"Happy birthday-"
Choking back tears
holding arms to chest
"-to me."
Letting out a cry
"Happy birthday-"
Thinking about people
the ones downstairs laughing.
"-to me."
Celebrating since they won't.
"Happy birthday-"
At least it'll be sung with the right name.
"-dear Cole."
Tears stream down
Quickly wipe them away
"Happy birthday-"
Jumping, hearing a door slam in the house
"-to me."
Laying down
Rocking back and forth.
I open my eyes.
My birthday again.
Is it really two years later?
Fake birthday wishes sent.
At least this year I won't be alone.
-Cnwlry
Feb 11, 2024
Feb 11, 2024 at 3:50 PM UTC
Writing feels impossible.
It's not that I don't want to
Or that I don't have motivation for it.
The words are still inside,
Waiting to escape.
Maybe I got used to silence.
Finally. Right?
But I still have too much to say
And no one to hear it.
I try to say what I think
But no one gets it.
They say trauma is trauma
And if it affects me then it is.
But while I stare at the screen
Feeling hollow
I know that others feel the same.
So I will write.
I will write even though it hurts me.
I will write to you though I don't know you.
I will write till my fingers bleed.
I will write so we are not alone.
I'm here.
-Cnwlry
Dec 27, 2022
Dec 27, 2022 at 6:25 PM UTC
As I stare into your soul,
though I know it's untrue,
I worry that you'll leave.
-Cnwlry
Aug 2, 2022
Aug 2, 2022 at 8:05 PM UTC
I'm angry at them,
but I can't shout.
My face is hot
and I feel burned out.
Try to calm down.
It's just in passing
but this thing in my chest
It's still lasting.
-Cnwlry
Aug 1, 2022
Aug 1, 2022 at 8:12 PM UTC
The line goes
"Would anyone notice if I stopped talking?"
I would think so but
Maybe no one listens anyway.
I struggle to find the words
And hand pick the chosen many,
I wrap them up with a neat little bow
But people tear them apart
like kids at Christmas,
Or dogs at a bone,
Grumpy when it isn't what they want.
I don't think anyone would care
If I just stopped talking
But my mouth always bubbles over
With words I wish to say
Like water on a stove.
I whisper at myself to "Shut Up!"
But I brush it off
Like the tears on my cheek.
Just. Listen.
There are so many things
I need to say.
-Cnwlry
Jul 30, 2022
Jul 30, 2022 at 9:40 PM UTC