Cleverlittlebimbo - Hello Poetry

Crawling Reaching, Forever it seems. Tormenting my own being. To be is to survive. But I want to thrive. Why. Me. My own worst enemy. I see the light, yet I taint it with black. Every time I feel alive.

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Jan 1, 2022

Jan 1, 2022 at 3:43 AM UTC

My own worst enemy.

Crawling Reaching, Forever it seems. Tormenting my own being. To be is to survive. But I want to thrive. Why. Me. My own worst enemy. I see the light, yet I taint it with black. Every time I feel alive.

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The words danced from my mouth Desperate to bring on the rain. They fell to the ground and shattered. Fragile though they were, they fueled thunder and created storms.

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May 11, 2021

May 11, 2021 at 1:27 PM UTC

Speaking Thunderstorms.

The words danced from my mouth Desperate to bring on the rain. They fell to the ground and shattered. Fragile though they were, they fueled thunder and created storms.

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I planted their seeds some time ago now. I'm still struggling to set them free. I want to chew them up and spit them out from where they grow inside of me. I can feel them now, writhing around, like poison ivy in my veins. The bitter taste in the back of my throat, as they creep up towards their escape. It's too painful to even try to release them, So for now I guess they'll stay. My words are hiding within me, growing darker every day. Twisting around all that I am and all that I can be. Taking root withing my bones and soul, a dark forest inside of me.

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Mar 18, 2021

Mar 18, 2021 at 10:44 AM UTC

Poison ivy words.

I planted their seeds some time ago now. I'm still struggling to set them free. I want to chew them up and spit them out from where they grow inside of me. I can feel them now, writhing around, like poison ivy in my veins. The bitter taste in the back of my throat, as they creep up towards their escape. It's too painful to even try to release them, So for now I guess they'll stay. My words are hiding within me, growing darker every day. Twisting around all that I am and all that I can be. Taking root withing my bones and soul, a dark forest inside of me.

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You know it will burn, but you bite it anyway, because it tastes good.

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Mar 12, 2021

Mar 12, 2021 at 9:21 AM UTC

Haiku pizza.

You know it will burn, but you bite it anyway, because it tastes good.

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I just lost some of my words. Although they were few. I feel like I have lost a lifetime.

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Jan 5, 2021

Jan 5, 2021 at 1:33 AM UTC

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I just lost some of my words. Although they were few. I feel like I have lost a lifetime.

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Sshhh it's a secret, I said. "Of Course I'll never break your trust". So why did you feel with no good end result, break it you must?! Did it feel good? What did you gain? I'm struggling to understand, your need to cause pain? Don't tell me you didn't realise! You didn't think it through, I specifically said DON'T MENTION THIS, I specifically said that to YOU . So what was your end game? What result did you want, surely it wasn't just my secret to flaunt?!

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Sep 5, 2020

Sep 5, 2020 at 10:10 PM UTC

Secrets and siblings.

Sshhh it's a secret, I said. "Of Course I'll never break your trust". So why did you feel with no good end result, break it you must?! Did it feel good? What did you gain? I'm struggling to understand, your need to cause pain? Don't tell me you didn't realise! You didn't think it through, I specifically said DON'T MENTION THIS, I specifically said that to YOU . So what was your end game? What result did you want, surely it wasn't just my secret to flaunt?!

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You were taken from me so quickly. Ripped away without warning. I wasn't ready and neither were you. I'm left feeling empty and angry. Was there something needed that I did not do? We had plans you and I, not grand ones you see, but just to sit with one another, I read a book and you snuggle on me. Long walks come rain or shine. I'd give anything to have you in these arms of mine. Just one more day. I thought I had you until your muzzle turned grey. I thought I had you until I could barely walk and you barely bark, but now I am left, with nothing, nothing but dark. I miss your big brown eyes and your soft little nose, the little soft curly hairs at the base of your tail, I especially miss those. I long so much to hold you again, it hurts so much to need you, my little friend. Though I will never fear the kiss of death again! For I know it is you who will greet me when I meet my end.

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Mar 10, 2020

Mar 10, 2020 at 7:00 AM UTC

Gone.

You were taken from me so quickly. Ripped away without warning. I wasn't ready and neither were you. I'm left feeling empty and angry. Was there something needed that I did not do? We had plans you and I, not grand ones you see, but just to sit with one another, I read a book and you snuggle on me. Long walks come rain or shine. I'd give anything to have you in these arms of mine. Just one more day. I thought I had you until your muzzle turned grey. I thought I had you until I could barely walk and you barely bark, but now I am left, with nothing, nothing but dark. I miss your big brown eyes and your soft little nose, the little soft curly hairs at the base of your tail, I especially miss those. I long so much to hold you again, it hurts so much to need you, my little friend. Though I will never fear the kiss of death again! For I know it is you who will greet me when I meet my end.

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I yearn for sleep. If my eyes are closed I cannot cry. My mind can not continously ask why. I yearn for sleep. The kind that envelopes you, The kind that is deep. At least within my slumber, my heart may find some peace. I fear my dreams, good or bad, because I still wake up with out you. I still wake up sad. There is no real rest inside my head, even when I'm safe inside my bed. Yet I still yearn for sleep, the kind that envelopes you, The kind that is deep.

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Mar 8, 2020

Mar 8, 2020 at 11:25 AM UTC

Sleep.

I yearn for sleep. If my eyes are closed I cannot cry. My mind can not continously ask why. I yearn for sleep. The kind that envelopes you, The kind that is deep. At least within my slumber, my heart may find some peace. I fear my dreams, good or bad, because I still wake up with out you. I still wake up sad. There is no real rest inside my head, even when I'm safe inside my bed. Yet I still yearn for sleep, the kind that envelopes you, The kind that is deep.

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I spent such little time with you in the grand scheme of things. Yet I feel like you've been in my heart forever. The first time I saw your picture asking for help, I knew we were meant to be a part of each others lives. Your big brown eyes spoke to me, they said take me home, I will love like no other. And those big bright eyes were right, you did love like no other. It took you three days to know you were safe, after that first bath I gave you, I prised you out from behind the ubend of my toilet. You must have felt safe there. I bathed you carefully and gently talking to you the whole time. Letting you know it was OK now, you will never feel like you did on the streets of romainia. I will never let you feel that scared or alone again. On the end of someones misplaced anger. I wrapped you in a soft warm towel and brought you to my room. I had already layed out towels on my bed. My little ningnong dog was already fresh from the bath and wriggling around getting dry, all fresh and frisky. You watched her do this for a moment, until something inside you clicked. I'm sure I felt the air get a little lighter. I'm sure then you knew you were safe and loved. I put you on the bed with ning. I had not seen you happy yet, but my goodness I saw it then. As soon as I placed your tiny paws upon that bed you ran straight to and almost into ning, and then did laps of the bed, laps of elation, laps of relief, laps of pure joy. It was so funny! Your legs were almost jelly with how excited you were. You hadn't ever been that clean. From that moment you never looked back to the hell you had known. You lived every single day with happiness and joy in your heart. Mornings were your favourite. I've never know a dog so happy to just be awake. Your warm little body laying next to mine, nibbling my nose as I spoke softly to you, welcoming the day in. You did not change. You were always the happiest most loving little soul I have ever known. And I am so thankful I got to see the world through your eyes. I know it will never be the same again, the days seem duller with out you my dolly. I miss you so much my whole body aches just knowing your not here on this earth with me. I need your head against my chest just one last time, letting me know you are there with me. Thankyou for waiting for me, for sharing your last little breath with me. I will never forget that. I will never forget you. My brave little lady, until we meet again I will keep you in my memories and in my heart. I promise once I am healed enough I will try to treat each day as you did and be thankful for what I have. I know I will never love another like I loved you. I miss you so much my little floppy dolly dog. Sleep tight, say hello to the others for me, tell them I love them and tell them of our adventures. I will hold you again one day and it will feel like we were never apart, I promise.

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Mar 8, 2020

Mar 8, 2020 at 8:44 AM UTC

I've never known heartache quite like this.

I spent such little time with you in the grand scheme of things. Yet I feel like you've been in my heart forever. The first time I saw your picture asking for help, I knew we were meant to be a part of each others lives. Your big brown eyes spoke to me, they said take me home, I will love like no other. And those big bright eyes were right, you did love like no other. It took you three days to know you were safe, after that first bath I gave you, I prised you out from behind the ubend of my toilet. You must have felt safe there. I bathed you carefully and gently talking to you the whole time. Letting you know it was OK now, you will never feel like you did on the streets of romainia. I will never let you feel that scared or alone again. On the end of someones misplaced anger. I wrapped you in a soft warm towel and brought you to my room. I had already layed out towels on my bed. My little ningnong dog was already fresh from the bath and wriggling around getting dry, all fresh and frisky. You watched her do this for a moment, until something inside you clicked. I'm sure I felt the air get a little lighter. I'm sure then you knew you were safe and loved. I put you on the bed with ning. I had not seen you happy yet, but my goodness I saw it then. As soon as I placed your tiny paws upon that bed you ran straight to and almost into ning, and then did laps of the bed, laps of elation, laps of relief, laps of pure joy. It was so funny! Your legs were almost jelly with how excited you were. You hadn't ever been that clean. From that moment you never looked back to the hell you had known. You lived every single day with happiness and joy in your heart. Mornings were your favourite. I've never know a dog so happy to just be awake. Your warm little body laying next to mine, nibbling my nose as I spoke softly to you, welcoming the day in. You did not change. You were always the happiest most loving little soul I have ever known. And I am so thankful I got to see the world through your eyes. I know it will never be the same again, the days seem duller with out you my dolly. I miss you so much my whole body aches just knowing your not here on this earth with me. I need your head against my chest just one last time, letting me know you are there with me. Thankyou for waiting for me, for sharing your last little breath with me. I will never forget that. I will never forget you. My brave little lady, until we meet again I will keep you in my memories and in my heart. I promise once I am healed enough I will try to treat each day as you did and be thankful for what I have. I know I will never love another like I loved you. I miss you so much my little floppy dolly dog. Sleep tight, say hello to the others for me, tell them I love them and tell them of our adventures. I will hold you again one day and it will feel like we were never apart, I promise.

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You hug me. You take me in your ams and you hold me so tight. But with no end goal, other than me and you enjoying that moment and that embrace. Knowing that it's right. You kiss me. On my lips, on my face, on my body. But with no end goal other than me knowing you wanted to kiss me. You listen to me, because you are interested in what I have to say. In my thoughts, in my mood, in my day. You here my little stories, over and over again. Even though you could tell them yourself. You still listen, like it's the first time I've told you them. You know I'm moody. And you work through it, you accept it as part of me and you love me anyway. And that's why I know. I know it's you. And I know it everyday. All the times I needed you, I wish you could have been there. I did not know you then, I did not know that kind of "care" . You came at just the right time, helped me through all my pain. You didn't leave after you helped me, even though there was nothing for you to gain. We have grown together you and I, we are building our life and heading for the sky! You showed me true love, what it means to really care, you filled my heart and made it whole again, enough even, that I can share! So I write these words for others to read, and I hope they understand, the universe has a story for you, even if it's not what you planned.

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Jan 17, 2020

Jan 17, 2020 at 10:20 AM UTC

You.

You hug me. You take me in your ams and you hold me so tight. But with no end goal, other than me and you enjoying that moment and that embrace. Knowing that it's right. You kiss me. On my lips, on my face, on my body. But with no end goal other than me knowing you wanted to kiss me. You listen to me, because you are interested in what I have to say. In my thoughts, in my mood, in my day. You here my little stories, over and over again. Even though you could tell them yourself. You still listen, like it's the first time I've told you them. You know I'm moody. And you work through it, you accept it as part of me and you love me anyway. And that's why I know. I know it's you. And I know it everyday. All the times I needed you, I wish you could have been there. I did not know you then, I did not know that kind of "care" . You came at just the right time, helped me through all my pain. You didn't leave after you helped me, even though there was nothing for you to gain. We have grown together you and I, we are building our life and heading for the sky! You showed me true love, what it means to really care, you filled my heart and made it whole again, enough even, that I can share! So I write these words for others to read, and I hope they understand, the universe has a story for you, even if it's not what you planned.

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