Part of me wants to reach out
And invite you back in
Part of me wants you to put out
Just to remember you from within
Part of me wants you to knock on my door
Just to keep it unanswered
Part of me wants to win you back
Just to rid you from my mind's front
Part of me wants to say I miss you
Just to hear you say the same
Part of me wants to see you
Just to see your pain
Part of me still loves you
Even though I never felt so alone
Part of me still hates you
For making me feel so alone
Although some of me still wants you
Most of me already knows
That the part of me that loved you
Has packed my **** ready to go
But there's still that part of me
That wants to send you this poem
To tell you that part of me
Still misses my Jasmin
Aug 14, 2019
Aug 14, 2019 at 12:36 AM UTC
Sometimes I feel like I'm in a dark room,
Holding a candle that'll burn out soon.
Walking around carefully, I bump into others,
Stuck in this room after burying brothers.
I share my candle's flame and off they go ,
With a light so bright they find their door.
Leaving me behind in this dark room,
Holding my candle that'll burn out soon.
Aug 11, 2019
Aug 11, 2019 at 10:18 PM UTC
-I'm tired of being tired
- I'm tired of being on my own
- I'm tired of living with family and feeling alone
-I'm tired of feeling sorry for myself
- I'm tired of the impending doom
- I'm tired of feeling like a Dreamer in my very own home
-I'm tired of feeling inadequate
- I'm tired of explaining ****
- I'm tired of my aggressors playing my **** role
-I'm sick of feeling drained
- I'm exhausted from being ill
- But most of all, I'm just motherfu*king tired
Feb 6, 2019
Feb 6, 2019 at 12:57 AM UTC
-if you don't want my presence then you can worship my absence
-cuz time is money and you don't see the recession
-so go chase pigeons for attention and forget about this essence
-cuz those that go with the wind seldom find destinations
=so I sit, I sip, i read as I flip
-take a break to watch ghosts do laps inside a fish bowl
-round and round they go. No body or form, just their egos
-I'm not trying to be bitter I'm not trying to be cold
-but know that the devil didn't make me, I'm wise cuz I'm old
Jan 8, 2017
Jan 8, 2017 at 3:03 AM UTC
-I notice I'm a single singularity destined to be single with some regularity
-what? well when broken down I'm not one to be broken down for your reality
-why? I'm a single Hispanic male that notes your wrinkled pale panic rather easily
-how? I'm not one to kiss and tell but your windows have a tell; ever so slightly
-when? when you fail to comprehend that all the stories that we said aligned so naturally
-where? in the only place that matter most but ignored for someone less otherworldly
Jan 5, 2017
Jan 5, 2017 at 1:18 AM UTC
-What do ghosts and black out have in common?
-It's a very odd mix with some very good timing.
-like the all is the one and the one is the none
-or like when the bell tolls deep in yo' soul; it echoes
-like after all the drama you're on your way home
-"now before I ask you this please keep in mind
-I've walked this earth before your people created time
-I've led billions of souls and lost some along the way
-Speaking to different walks, they all had the same to say
9-"mr reaper please leave me alone, I cant believe my names in stone
-cuz i have to show Tommy right from wrong
-and Mary's learning how to keep the bloodline strong
-I'm a father of 2 and husband of twenty
-I know I can't go since my namesake's filthy
-it took a life time to break it and another just to fix it"
-"so time is what you need, yet time is what you're out of.
-as we go with this flow think, what's your namesake made of"
Jan 5, 2017
Jan 5, 2017 at 12:14 AM UTC
-Open
-To a man on the street; as he stands no shoes on his feet and his heart on his sleeve
-Call'em Andy
-Now he sees the smiles on their faces and mouths speaking phrases
-But he's frozen
-Anesthetized mind, body, and thought but the soul can never be caught
-On the contrary
-Unable to move or analyze; trapped in his mind but his eye works just fine
-Like Horus
-Cuz is only after the one, two, and three that the fifth can be freed
-Fourth
-"The worlds in chaos, the worlds on fire. The world will pay for its burning desire."
-Close
Sep 1, 2014
Sep 1, 2014 at 8:33 PM UTC
i see it all around me; stalking
i can't help but notice staring.
never blinking, never resting.
its passion will never wane.
all considered, i'm not insane.
just because our eyes stay meeting,
doesn't mean my mind is lacking.
i can see the top and the meaning
Feb 14, 2014
Feb 14, 2014 at 2:49 PM UTC
-To kill'em with silence is to kill'em with words.
-The words that express the distress of blatant disrespect.
-A treachery, not against me, but the history his story tells.
-Under one crest, but I can't call family those without respect.
-However, these words concocted cannot come forth.
-For these few words actually feed the fire.
-A passion built on perseverance that's serves as precedence.
-This unseen fire my friend, is how you kill'em with silence.
Feb 1, 2014
Feb 1, 2014 at 6:21 PM UTC
Behind my sternum, exists a void.
Made long ago on this voyage.
Trail and error; attempting remedies
From school, to art, to melodies
Continue to spirits, and Buddha
All these attempts: futile
Confusion, anger, melancholy
They say, "look in to find it's seed"
But how would they react
If they heard what I retract.
That I've looked introspectively,
From sphenoid to chest cavity
And found nothing but a void
Feb 1, 2014
Feb 1, 2014 at 2:54 AM UTC