Loving me is not easy
But you love all of me
You love me completely
Loving me can be exhausting
But your love keeps me going
You love me more each day.. and it keeps growing
Loving me is a choice
But its a choice you’ve made and make daily
You love me honestly and Still let me have a voice
There are no words
I have no words...
To say....
Thank you for Loving me....
Apr 21, 2021
Apr 21, 2021 at 4:27 PM UTC
Sometimes , at times, many times... probably right now...
I wish I could press the pause and reboot button
Lets press the rewind button or maybe the stop button....
But then rewind to what stage? To what time?
There seems to be no happy times
I can’t seem to find any care free times
Only times of constant worry
Times of always working
Only functional but not living
Can’t find the time of being totally happy
Can’t remember ever feeling completely safe
Can’t seem to find a time for what I’m trying to find
I guess I should just throw the entire ****** remote away...
But not before I press the pause button
Lets stop everything right now, it can’t keep going this way...
Please press the pause button
Put me in a coma...
I don’t have the strength , I want to be forgotten
Press the pause button
Put me in a coma
Don’t worry you can forget to wake me
I would be very grateful to be paused,
Better still stopped
Lets just end the story
So which do i need
Which one do I want
To press the pause button
Or to press the stop button...??!
Or maybe the rewind button...??
Or better still the delete button....
I just need to stop... so press any of the **** buttons!!! Please
Feb 6, 2021
Feb 6, 2021 at 8:12 PM UTC
There is so much noise inside me
There is so much hurt inside me
There is all this feelings within me
I’m restlessness
I’m burning inside
I’m crying inside
Slowly dying inside... literally
So much fury,
so much anger
So much pain
Lots of fake laughter
I’ve forgotten how to sleep
I can’t remember how to live
I can only remember how to survive
I have learned to forcefully smile while I weep
I feel stuck
I’m cold
My heart’s like a rock
I don’t know how to make me work
I need to sleep
I need to weep
I should cry
Till I’m raw and dry
But why can’t I find the answer to my question “WHY”
I need to find the answer to my WHY!
Why me??
Why is this me??
Someone please tell me- Why!!
WHY!!!!!!!!!
Feb 4, 2021
Feb 4, 2021 at 9:28 PM UTC
2020-
I asked you when I first met you,
I implored you when we first said Hi
I was excited to finally see you
I asked - please be nice
I implored you - please be kind
Excited- please let it be great
But instead:
You almost killed me thrice
You made me loose my social life
You caused me to almost loose it all
You where not nice
You where not kind
You made it far from great...
But despite it all:
I’m still alive
I’m still standing tall
I’m still here
I’m stil going strong
I did fall.. but I’m up
And giving it my all...
2020... You won’t be forgotten
You won’t be missed
You thought us lots
Though we had such loss
Lets say our goodbyes
I’m not going to cry
Can’t wait for the end
Let’s please not be friends...
Don’t let the door hit you on the way out😒
Dec 31, 2020
Dec 31, 2020 at 11:40 AM UTC
So exhausted
Sick to the marrow
I wish to be whole
No illness nor pain tomorrow
I wish I could sleep
Be put in a coma
And then be rebooted
And it’ll all be over
I’m drained
in so much pain
I’m fading
There’s nothing left to gain....
I’m exhausted...
Oct 6, 2020
Oct 6, 2020 at 5:34 PM UTC
I wake up to your sweet cuddles and
Your love bites like tiny needles,
but it’s all part of ur love, nonetheless
You meow so sweet and lovingly
as you stretch and reach out out to me..
for a rub and a caress... o how that moves me..
You came into my life at it’s lowest point
I was giving up on joy, life n living- there was no point
But you waltzed in and turned it all around
All my despair to eagerness ...
Eagerness to watch you grow
Eagerness to wake up each day just to love you more
Eagerness to protect you , feed you play with and hold you more
You have no idea how much you saved me
How much you still save me
from my pain
From my despair
From my disdain
You are literally the reason I get out of bed every day..
If I don’t, you attack my feet, hands , nose n lips🤣
Having you in my life has given me a reason to stay alive
You are my right had man, drive buddy,walk buddy, netflix n chill budy.. travel buddy, fight buddy n best of all cuddle buddy..
thank you for saving this soul that was about to give up..
Thank you Olaf..
I love you my Ollie loly limlim baby💕💕💕
Oct 5, 2020
Oct 5, 2020 at 9:57 PM UTC
I’m slipping
I’m sliding
I can’t get up
I’m falling
I’m drowning
It’s swallowing me up
I’m sinking
I’m dying
I can’t make it stop
I’m fading
I’m ending
I’m not strong enough
I’m crying
I’m begging
I need it to stop
I’m exhausted
I’m gasping
I’m running out of hope..
I need help
I need it to stop
I need a restart button
I need a new bus stop
I need a new beginning
I need this now to end
I need it to stop killing me
I need to find a new start or for this to end...
Oct 5, 2020
Oct 5, 2020 at 9:03 PM UTC
I want to cudde!!!
I want to feel your arms around me!!!
I want to touch you !!!!
I need to kiss you!!!!
I want see you!!
I need to feel you beside and inside me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I miss you incredibly 😔💕
Apr 29, 2020
Apr 29, 2020 at 2:54 PM UTC
Oh Chris
Oh how i miss
The taste of your lips
The caress of your fingertips
My sweetheart
Heal my aching and lonely heart
How it yearns ...
Longs for your love...
And cries for your touch...
To caress and make still, this longing and weeping heart
My love
My one and only love
Time and distance keep us apart
I crave for strength and pray for patience,
though it’s very hard..
As i await the day i can touch the face
And be held in the arms of the man I love..
and we shall never part..
Oh how I can’t wait for that day..
The day I am with...
My man.. My love...
😁🙈💕
Apr 28, 2020
Apr 28, 2020 at 7:10 PM UTC
Night time...
I love nighttime
I abhor nighttime
Why are you just not the same
Why torture me every time
Nighttime ...
When my mind is awake, alive and full of ideas
When my body remembers every single thing
Every ache it could have , in weird and wonderful areas
Nighttime ...
When inspiration is at it’s peak
When the pain is so bad I can’t speak
When memories flood my mind
But I can’t move , I’m just a freak
Nighttime...
When the lyrics make the most sense
When my pain is at the most intense
Nighttime...
When the beats and rhythm are all i can feel
But this agony won’t let me be
I wish it would just set me free
I wish i could just get my mind out of my body and flee
Nighttime...
I’m awake
My body is craving sleep
My mind is as wide as the lake
My body is laying all limp and weak
Yes i know I’m a freak
Nighttime....
The best time of the day
The worst time of the day
The most creative time of the day
The most torturous time of the day
Nighttime...
I ride the wave every single night
The ups and downs
The laughs and the cries
I enjoy all of it every night
Or maybe not- maybe it’s all lies
Nighttime..
The sun is rising
It’s getting brighter
The dawn is no better
Maybe its time to finally start sleeping
Nighttime
My best friend
My worst foe
But its all I’ve ever known
And looks like it’s all i would ever know
Nighttime...
Mar 19, 2020
Mar 19, 2020 at 9:32 PM UTC