Catsinhatswithtats
I write how i feel. There is no boundaries to my writing. / I'm a clinically depressed teenager who am trying to find myself. / From moving back and forth and trying to support myself living on my own / I've learned a lot of things over the course of the last two years / Living with depression, intermittent explosive disorder and psychosis can be a challenge. / Always remember with no matter what you do in life, there's always someone there to listen. We may not be guaranteed tomorrow. So be sure to live today
Alone
But
Constantly
Devising
Energetic
Faulted
Game-plans
Hanging
In
Jupiter
Killing
Love
Makes
Notions
Of
Partnership
Questionable,
Rest-assured
Sedation
Tonight
Unifies
Virtues
Within,
Xanax
Yearned
Zealot
Apr 22, 2014
Apr 22, 2014 at 1:22 AM UTC
My love for you is poison.
Very similar to the poison iv'e ingested tonight
Thoughts of us will constantly replay in my mind.
But with my abusive tendency and your addictive personality it would never work.
We shoulda just strayed friends from the get go.
you are my everything.
you fulfill my need for compassion
But you lack in the department of empathy.
we click like a seat belt.
you just cant admit to yourself your true feelings.
but im a human being who has lost strength through the struggles of love
living a lie
living in a constant wait.
but if that's how you feel then that's how it must be, ill just struggle my way through a real heartbreak.
personally. i don't think it was real on your part.
but i just wanted to say, sorry i wasted my time on you. i fear you'll always be n my heart
ive fallen into this binge.
do you still love me? can you save me?
these is my final words to you. as if you'll ever find them.
your not a person at all
just a pill.
im nodding off. this isnt a poem.
its a cry for help..
i need help and just had to vent. sorry site if this inst what you wanna see at all. i just need saved.
Apr 6, 2014
Apr 6, 2014 at 4:15 AM UTC
Devastation
Exhausted
Phony
Redundant
Evil
Sorrow
Shallow
Inconsequential
Outlandish
Noxious
Mar 24, 2014
Mar 24, 2014 at 1:37 AM UTC
For the majority of my life I've been cared for by my parents.
Now i'm all alone trying to do this on my own
Fending for myself
Got me feeling stressed out
Popped to many Xanax
Bout to pass out
Just hit the couch and i'm startin to black out
How many did i do again?
I think i lost count
Stomachs feeling week
Feelin like i'm at the peak
Don't wanna come down
I'm so sick of the frown
Depression at its worst
Thinking that im gonna burst
Tired of being the clown
Now im searching for the crown
Mar 24, 2014
Mar 24, 2014 at 12:54 AM UTC
Scars last forever
But pain does not
Some cats are clever
While others are not
Sometimes i feel lonely
Occasionally i'm great
People are so phony
So lets just celebrate
Hate is a strong emotion
So please just keep the peace
My life's in constant motion
Sometimes we need release
Mar 24, 2014
Mar 24, 2014 at 12:37 AM UTC
I'd die for your kiss
The connection is surreal
To bad your not real
Mar 23, 2014
Mar 23, 2014 at 11:52 PM UTC
When i see you my heart melts
But how do you feel when you see me
I used to think we were just friends
Now i see were thick and thin
Two hearts of gold?
Or souls of coal?
Mar 23, 2014
Mar 23, 2014 at 11:47 PM UTC
Sometimes i feel so alone that i talk to myself
About what it will feel like when i'm finally saved from the darkness
This darkness you ask
I do my best to keep it locked away
Although like any secret it will always escape
Always someone who's willing to unleash the burden
This burden i speak of are my explosive tendencies
They keep me trapped
Locked inside myself are demons who show no fear
Demons that once unleashed are uncontrollable
Fed from anger and depression
Motivated by hatred and oppression
These demons are only held back by a weakening infrastructure
When unleashed these demons deal unspeakable damage.
Damage that once dealt is rarely replaceable
Friendships dismissed
Property demolished
Mentality is lost
Can you save me from myself?
Mar 23, 2014
Mar 23, 2014 at 11:38 PM UTC
Days pass by like a speeding train
Fast on its path and hard to derail
Till someone comes by and interferes
Trains do one thing and that's move
Sometimes a bit hard getting started
But once it happens it's a tank in motion
So what happens to a derailed train
hundreds of thousands of pounds
all coming to an abrupt halt
Crushing anything in its path
A once solid steel unstoppable vehicle
Now slowly slides to a halt
The dust has been stirred
Clouds are rolling
leaving all affected by its derailment
Lightly covered in dust
To all who have been afflicted i'm sorry
Why am i sorry you may ask
I am the train.
Metaphorically That is
not once ounce of the pain i caused was intentional.
I'd just like you all to know
Mar 23, 2014
Mar 23, 2014 at 10:28 PM UTC
Gotta study fast
Not ready for this test
To many hits of ******
An Shayna's sittin next to me
Shes gonna do good
Shes not from the hood
This test is so crazy
Dwamn am i lazy
All these answers hazy
While im just pushin daisies
Gonna eat a paistry
Mhmm it is so tasty
My memory is back
Everything was all so black
Writing in this class
Man i hope i pass.
Shayna is real sweet
And maybe so is Pete
Molly is my friend.
She really makes me bend
Mar 23, 2014
Mar 23, 2014 at 10:15 PM UTC