Me: Hello,
Him: Hello ,hey
Me: Can I ask you a quick question?
Him:Sure ask anything,
Me:Can I move on now,It's been 4 months
Him:Why have you met someone else?
Me: No I havent because I keep waiting for you,
Me: You call me all sorts of pet names knowing I love you then nothing
Him: I thought I told you its nothing serious.
Me:Rembering I gave him my virginity,Him introducing me to his family as his wife to be,Him showing me off and then the fights,his anger issues and then him finally dumping me and me seeing him all over another girl
Him:Listen I just started seeing someone else it's been two weeks
Him: I don't want things to change between us,
Him: Ash are you there?
Him: Hey ASh?
Me: Coahz I loved you so much I waited for for months for you to stop being angry,I lost my virginity to you ,spent money on you,was it not enough ,I'm I not enough never mind tho,thank you for ...
Him: Fuckkk
Him:Hangs up
Dec 18, 2020
Dec 18, 2020 at 9:06 AM UTC
It's been four months since we broke up,
In those four months i've been praying,
Praying that we get back together but
You don't want that you say anything but,
Yet ask to see me quite often ,
It's been 10 months since I shared the secret,
The secret of my body with you My virginity,
It's been four months since you dumped me,
Yet how is it that my heart still aches?
Yet how is it that I can't seem to move on?
Yet how is it that I still can't understand why,
Why it was so easy for you to just walk away?
Why you don't want me back?
Why you moved on ?
Why God allowed you to come into my life?
Why He did it in spite of knowing you'd hurt me?
Why i'm still in so much pain all the time?
Why I can't stop:
Thinking about you
Thinking about who you are with
Thinking about how life is for you
Thinking if your thinking of getting back with me
Thinking if only I could see how your mind works
Thinking if only I had the power of time for sure i'd
Go back and do so many things right :
One of those things would be not letting you be mine
Were you really mine though?
Dec 15, 2020
Dec 15, 2020 at 7:20 AM UTC
There is beauty in time,
it makes or breaks us,
puts that mark of difference
in all of us.
Yet we can't store it ,
Even tho we can give it,
We can lose it,
Time is a limited Gift
Dec 14, 2020
Dec 14, 2020 at 9:16 AM UTC
A boy will say
You deserve better
but
A man will say
I will make myself better to deserve you
Dec 14, 2020
Dec 14, 2020 at 6:19 AM UTC
I often wondered how it would feel like lossing it.
I always thought there would be splashes of blood and I love you from my man's lips.
I always wanted it to be perfect.
If I said a few months ago six to be exact I was happily single would you believe me.
If I said I was a ****** till yesterday would you believe me.
If I said my ex wait boyfriend oh I don't know.
If I said I had broken up with him two days ago for cheating on me but still let him take my virginity yesterday would you believe me?
If I said my virginity didn't stop him because he is in a party rn would you believe me?
Four months ago he didn't feel right the whole relationship didn't feel right
Three months ago I found a string of text with him and other girls
Two weeks ago he goes on a trip and came back with intimate pictures
One day ago he apologized saying we need to talk but took the only thing I hadn't given him
I love him but he says he can't say it because he is working on himself .
How I feel about this,
Heartbroken,sad, suicidal
What I'm going to do:
Breath and learn to love me as a non ****** .
Cry cry alot
Mar 20, 2020
Mar 20, 2020 at 1:50 PM UTC
When there is no pain,
The words seem to fade,
To a faint voice in the back of my head,
To a scribble on a paper not worth sharing not worth keeping,
When there is no pain,
I feel too busy to write,
So I listen to the words in my head,
Not itching of a scribble or a write.
So all those times I write happy poems
It's me .trying to use words for comfort
In an ultimate reality of words
Disappearing in each imagination
So I'll try to write this happy poems,
No anger
As an "Inhale love Exhale hate"gesture
Even if it seem like I'm too busy at my happy moments
Dec 18, 2018
Dec 18, 2018 at 6:43 AM UTC
Once upon a time we had it all
Somewhere down the line we went and lost it
One brick at a time we watched it fall
I'm broken here tonight and Darling no one else can fix me
Only You
Oct 2, 2018
Oct 2, 2018 at 10:28 AM UTC
You know those films on movies where they flip the table
Throw things around and scream obscenities at everyone
Well this is exactly what I would do,if my life was a movie
Instead I the prey sit here hiding all the anger trapped inside
Instead I the prey take a walk stay silent taming it all in
Instead I the prey fall prey every time to the predators bait
You know that feeling you get when you are disgusted by yourself
Trying to conjure up where everything went wrong?
How you can change things?
What to do not to repeat the same mistake?
When you finally think I got this,you repeat the same thing
Only to get things actually have gotten worse
Well that feeling of disgust is not funny
You know that feeling you get when realize how naive you've been
When you realize all the anger that you have is because:
You just couldn't let go
You held onto your ideas so strongly,you couldn't see the others
You loved someone to much but didn't love an ounce of yourself
You listened to all the negative people
You felt all the negative energy and let it consume you
Yeah well I can tell you how pathetic and joyful realizing that will make you feel
I put you on top
So far up there
When I need you the most
When I come to collect my fingers caught ***** first,
Then I stretched a little further and got hate
I stretched a little further and got unfaithfulness
I stretched and got pain so much pain and anger
When I almost gave up I got me back with a sprinkle of wisdom
So I'll give you this I love you always will
Even though you shattered me
Though I love you more because you dear
Returned me back with a sprinkle of wisdom
Sep 23, 2018
Sep 23, 2018 at 6:36 AM UTC
Your sleek real smooth
How you sleeked into me
Into my mind,I shared my thoughts
Into my body,this fingers sinned forth
Into my soul,this fragile broken frost
We played games different games though
I played wanting only you
You played wanting the whole crew
Only I couldn't see we were playing differently
Only I was borderline stupid to fall this hard
Even this nose ring didn't hurt this much
Neither did this tattoo no not this much
What is it your looking for?
What is it you want from this crew?
All this hate that was spewing from this crew
You knew the reason,while I was hanging on being love struck(stupid)
You just sent me to this ICU bed like my twin
You just plucked me off your bed of lies
Spero tu ottenere che cosa tu siamo ricerca per
I really did love you but its time for me to wake up
Don't worry I'll remove your thorns from my back
You just turn this heart into stone
Sep 20, 2018
Sep 20, 2018 at 9:56 AM UTC
I don't mean to be annoying
Creating this kind of mess
When you buried me you left your shovel in my chest
When you buried me you forgot to untie my legs
How dare you when you know I love to live fast
Oh sorry for a sec I forgot I was dead
I don't mean to be annoying
But you left me in distress
This shadow we created isn't give me a rest
The way we left things black and white
Is like a snake running in and out my chest
I'll haunt you,I'll give you nightmares
Babe can't you see i'm in distress
Free me give me my freedom
So I can die a peaceful death
I don't mean to be annoying
I don't mean to cause dement
Are you sure are you sure
You didn't mean to cause my death?
You were right ghost are real
I'll be in every nightmare of yours
Free me i'll leave
Don't forget to pick your shovel from my chest
Let's erase this dark shadows causing me unrest
Sep 11, 2018
Sep 11, 2018 at 1:58 AM UTC