I actually know how this was going to end,
the great war ended badly for the both of us,
and it's just me in despair again,
so i drove my wheels faster than light
the road became a curve and i was in parallels
t'was a mess, i'm in my next getaway car
i was in my highest in those moments
you threw me, i was at my lowest of lows
maybe it was pathetic of me to think you were different
i know i left you in the blue,
never thought the right thing would be so wrong
you were sunshine, and i was definitely midnight rain
I hate your wit and how childish you are,
where my days were filled by your nonsensical jokes,
where i would swore by your calls,
i hate how i could not live without it
i hate how f*cking tall you are
'cause someday i'll be finding myself in the same crowd as you
and you're the first thing that i will sight
i hate how i remember every detail of your voice, style, and face
i guess the rumors were all true
tall, dark, and beautiful
he flies away and saves someone else
Aug 1, 2023
Aug 1, 2023 at 8:21 AM UTC
many times i check the windows and in the back of my mind
did i enter the correct tunnel why do i feel that this is wrong,
not because i've entered without even thinking about it,
but this emotion shaped as a man do not reach up to my love,
many times it tests my patience,
many times i see myself overthinking a lot of things
this guy gives me the most comfort yet,
he leaves me the longest the my mind wanders different planets,
different possibilities, different scenarios, different versions
and i cry, ball my eyes out,
i couldn't sleep nor eat,
this thoughts are a melancholic version of the past
and the question is,
do i really not deserve to be loved with the purest intentions?
last time i checked i was not a naive explorer anymore
but when it comes to people i love,
i lose all the time
i'm so tired of burning myself for your comfort,
i wish i was better than this,
more loveable than this
but i stay even when it's hard, or it's wrong, or we're making mistakes,
because love is a cruel curse struck upon by the cupid,
and equally rewarding to the right person
Dec 30, 2022
Dec 30, 2022 at 5:31 AM UTC
just wanna kiss you and forget about this,
but you're in my head 24/7
unfocused mind all over these bad thoughts,
you just make me feel alive and it feels wrong
and i want to stop but it's like a drug
making me delusional
then waking up alone all over again
do you remember how i smirked
or how my voice is at 2am
'cause we've been in love and not at the same time
i'm the only one who stayed
don't you like my danger?
don't you love the devil in me
but you've released the danger
so why are you running
when i'm your hell heaven destination
why'd we took this scenic route
that ends only in horror
how sad, for me to walk away
when i'm still stuck in love
we loved one another
never discovered
too scared to try
somewhere on August you told me you liked me
the other day you've left me hanging
how does it feel to bring back the dead
only to **** it all over again
Sep 24, 2020
Sep 24, 2020 at 8:58 PM UTC
hello dear stranger of ghost town,
with good hair and tanned-skin,
i honestly thought i wouldn't able to like someone else
but i liked how you showed me the different hues of halo
and you saw my thunders and storms
you made me feel as if my scars are beautiful
i'm forever thankful for those late nights
morning talks and lil fights
for being a happiness in a short time
for making me feel emotions again,
you saw me in different phases like the moon
i am imperfect, and unstable
i still have those times where i feel every emotions
and it hurts so bad
but when i talk to you, when i hear your voice
i feel safe, i am at home,
you were my daisy at a lost place
and i adored you from afar
i still don't know why'd this have to end in silence,
when all i want is you, in every sunsets in every angers i've had
i would've stayed, but you left
i think this is goodbye?
and now all i have is numb heart and memories.
Sep 9, 2020
Sep 9, 2020 at 5:53 AM UTC
let's start with a simple hi,
and end with a ferocious goodbye
do you remember the first night we've said i love you
that's like my taste of first kiss,
never thought i'd give my love so easily
just to be broken in a bliss..
i kept telling these tales inside my head
that this is only a phase, a nightmare someday i'd wake up to
but it's been almost 2 years and it still feels
like a storm and mess inside of my heart
and all those places, i see your ghost
and past laughs and goofs,
i don't wanna move on from the realest thing i've ever had,
i want you to call me by my name and tell me it'll be okay
and hold my hand again even for the last time,
i've tried playing fire, destroyed my memories with you
chose recreate it with others, failed as a failure like me,
i wanna scream at you, but really i just want you back..
why'd we end up here, can you please tell me why?
Sep 8, 2020
Sep 8, 2020 at 6:30 AM UTC
men are amazing
‘til one draws the game
and one burns a skin
i love your foolish words
and how you think
you cured me with ‘em
you thought a queen would vow?
yes, but never to a piece of pawn
of the enemy, only to the her king
calls, morning texts, goodnights
oh how i love them
sweet, vulnerable, innocent moments
you’ve got everything fit to ******
the crown but wait—
i am the crown,
built with steal of broken hearts
and mental shocks
if you think i am madly in love
well think again
salts can be deceiving as like a sugar
you know i’ve got a long list of ex lovers
all of em turned to ashes
because each ones i’ve burned quite well
from ashes to roses they all come back at once
begging for my love,
because never once i chased
and if we’re on a long ride
baby it’s gonna be hell
this is my game of love
it will leave you with a nasty scar
you won’t forget this angelic face
i’ll leave you wanting more.
Jul 6, 2020
Jul 6, 2020 at 9:56 PM UTC
i don’t wanna love you more
i don’t wanna love you less
i just wanna love you better
Jul 3, 2020
Jul 3, 2020 at 4:28 AM UTC
i love you
like that only moon
on the night sky
no other stars could compare
only you who is the sun
at day time warmth
and rose to be the light
when darkness comes
only you that sets fire
to thy heart
and healing
through the soul.
Apr 29, 2020
Apr 29, 2020 at 12:00 AM UTC
you can’t just be a safe haven
to those with broken hearts and souls
you can’t just be.
Feb 29, 2020
Feb 29, 2020 at 8:37 PM UTC
i used to think that you were an angel
until you proved that a murderer just thinks that love is greater than all
what a hypocrite he is
a walking mistake you are
but you were hell of a ride
with those brown eyes
and messy hair
you were the universe
too big, huge trouble right?
‘cuz i use to think we’re a match made in heaven
but we’re all sorts of complications
like how you reign me in your heart
is that even fair?
that i’m so in love and
you’re here playing the tables
calling off the bets
you know i was not a romantic
but you bring out the best bad in me
and sometimes
you give my hands something to write
and my eyes to cry
you were as bad and as good
and i know that’s chaos
trippling in the tip of my fingers
and i hope t’was the end of pain
but it was not
it was just a denial
to the hunger of love
Feb 28, 2020
Feb 28, 2020 at 10:59 PM UTC