Capulet - Hello Poetry

I don’t want fame or riches I just want those solid fixes I don’t want that perfect house I only want a way out That everyday Clarity And certainty That my thoughts aren’t me

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Nov 8, 2020

Nov 8, 2020 at 1:11 PM UTC

Clarity

I don’t want fame or riches I just want those solid fixes I don’t want that perfect house I only want a way out That everyday Clarity And certainty That my thoughts aren’t me

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The parrot has 3 billion neurons in its brain We have 86 billion And most of mine are busy forming unhelpful pathways Misleading my good intentions. Still, 3 billion neurons seems like enough room for a few unruly pathways The parrot can repeat phrases Which we thought to be pretty cool So we trapped him and put him in a cage And in our living rooms Alone The parrot knows how to survive happily Within his world Within his world, with 30 others of his kind And a partner for life. In his world he would fly with his flock To trees to pick fresh fruit Now he perches on his own And picks dry fruit out of a bowl. In his world he would prune his partners feathers He would look after her And she him Now he perches on his own And prunes his feathers until there are none left. Its an unhelpful neuro pathway, you see? Some form of OCD? Maybe its a way to cope? Maybe its the brain spiralling Trying to figure out what to do Because it can't be a parrot anymore It has to learn to be a toy A talking point And the parrot doesn't know how to be that He only knows how to be a parrot

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Nov 5, 2020

Nov 5, 2020 at 12:42 PM UTC

The Parrot

The parrot has 3 billion neurons in its brain We have 86 billion And most of mine are busy forming unhelpful pathways Misleading my good intentions. Still, 3 billion neurons seems like enough room for a few unruly pathways The parrot can repeat phrases Which we thought to be pretty cool So we trapped him and put him in a cage And in our living rooms Alone The parrot knows how to survive happily Within his world Within his world, with 30 others of his kind And a partner for life. In his world he would fly with his flock To trees to pick fresh fruit Now he perches on his own And picks dry fruit out of a bowl. In his world he would prune his partners feathers He would look after her And she him Now he perches on his own And prunes his feathers until there are none left. Its an unhelpful neuro pathway, you see? Some form of OCD? Maybe its a way to cope? Maybe its the brain spiralling Trying to figure out what to do Because it can't be a parrot anymore It has to learn to be a toy A talking point And the parrot doesn't know how to be that He only knows how to be a parrot

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It’s the least of my worries Taxing my car Or saving up for a house Or remembering that thing I was supposed to remember Or anything really Or passing that test Getting into that school Acing that interview Getting that job That pays enough That allows me to progress Progress? I hadn’t even thought about that. I hadn’t thought about any of it. I think about one thing I obsess I compulse Or do I? Is what I do when I Think about that thing I always think about A compulsion? Because if it’s not then Can it be called OCD? And if it’s not That means it’s me And the thing I always think About is true I know it’s irrational But what if it’s not? Maybe it just makes me feel better To think that it is See, who has time for rational worries When you’re so full up with Irrational one’s?

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Nov 5, 2020

Nov 5, 2020 at 12:38 PM UTC

Irrational

It’s the least of my worries Taxing my car Or saving up for a house Or remembering that thing I was supposed to remember Or anything really Or passing that test Getting into that school Acing that interview Getting that job That pays enough That allows me to progress Progress? I hadn’t even thought about that. I hadn’t thought about any of it. I think about one thing I obsess I compulse Or do I? Is what I do when I Think about that thing I always think about A compulsion? Because if it’s not then Can it be called OCD? And if it’s not That means it’s me And the thing I always think About is true I know it’s irrational But what if it’s not? Maybe it just makes me feel better To think that it is See, who has time for rational worries When you’re so full up with Irrational one’s?

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